Author: Unknown
minutes, years,
our hour is among us
the very repetition
of the very moment
heart strained
to wakening conscienceness.
heat shrunken
in salt water baptism
withered outside to reflect within
I question my awareness
the colors blend at the edge
that razor thin ledge
fleeting sanity a moments reasons
fulcum balance less than indifferent
to tumolous whisper breeze
I blink in the sun
struggle to my knees
retch the salt & bile
guts heaving dry straining
infuriatingly defyment of deserved expectations.
the mear audacity of continuing life.
everything hurts
this skin a near
transparent veil
the grief once more
washes over my brain
remember it all again
deployed once more
in this hell and pain.
how long can I deter
this demand for sleep
shedding that two edged sword
to only weep what I reap.
I decide to go.
as the current ordained.
I have allready changed
what I can not blame.
what might be the same
I could easily share fault
regardless of intentions
oblivious of thought
secure on board
my most meager of
lasting possesions
gratefull suppositions
for the most generous
of concessions easier
fight cast away
unknown decisions on my behalf
to deal with as I may
I cry and I laugh
to save my mind
I cut out the infection
the change in my face
reaction engraved -
transparent reflection
deep breaths and I wince
My left hand going numb
ring finger to out -
concerning to some
empty - no pain -
clumsy in hand
momentary reminder
catalyst inland
far from position -
yet near to my heart
to live on dying
decomposition starts.
years and years -
yet only moments spent.
and the sadness returns
familiarity soley
the kindness yet lent.
then nightfall yet burns
and I see I have been
everywhere but here -
but here I suspend
I collapse on all fours
to revisit that abyss
from wich my agony
still rages from within.
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Posted: Jul 2011
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I float and I drift
Slowly away
disbelief and terror
Silently I pray
Broken rope trailing
through the depths
my heart drops
today
again
I wept
I drop to my knees and scream
clawing at the boards on deck
my fingernails rip and they bleed
barely feeling the greater pain
warm blood steaming
in that hot humid night air
salt water turning pink
on on this craft of my dspair
I hold on to the edge of the railing
again straining to see the shore
rain spattering off the bow
as the faint image of that land
slowly fades from view
the building thunder starts
again to roll in
the audible release
of that rumble of rage
the tension in the air
my mind in a haze
the sound of thunder bursts wide
- & to my surprise
stops at this momentous peak
no echo returned from land
where I learned I had gone
too far to continue to seek
sad and dissapointed
but now fully resigned
to chart my course
somewhere sublime
the rain keeps coming
the clouds dare to part
sliver of silver
moonlight peeks through
allowing dim light to shine
upon this skeleton crew
only me and this vastness -
direction my choice to make
I fear I might burst.
This coral reef all disguised
down below I again realize,
much too late - the depths of my soul.
sink to its fate.
in this current state
little chance of repair
this used worn log
without the aid of care
creaks and moans
far out and adrift
no options exist
my will must I submit
ride out this storm I surmise
& if my karma complies
perhaps my life I forfit
I resign peacefully at last
this fight inside subdued
drift off into sleep -
that my tormentors intrude
this thread bare covering
wrapped in poor excuse
a moments peace
from this unrepentant abuse
as strange as it seems
Im rocked asleep in my dreams
by the very tumult of the storm
the rain kisses my face
yet I only taste
bitterness of loss and I mourn.
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Posted: Jul 2011
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this took years !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to make in its entirety. please pass along? easily the most powerful thing I have ever done.
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Posted: Jun 2011
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The craft pulls slowly away, riding with the outgoing tide,
waiting for that morning ray, hopeful against apparent odds.
The wind starts up slowly, hair slapping against my cheek.
The gulls floating and dipping, merely a silhouette over the bow
The scream and cries, skree and skrawl. Alight and perch, beady eyes,
head cocked watching me warily, shrieking its call, of encouragement,
or warning. I may never know, the flock begins its descent.
The foulest of fowl cluttering and crowding my deck with eternal squawking
Fighting for position among what appears to be peers.
I gaze and watch in wonder, the fighting and pecking
survival a must, living on, one breath at a time
Shuffling along, the filth and the crust.
Purposefully exhale this weight of despair.
Waiting for the tension to lift, to reveal to me
this great and good plan. Gods mighty decision
for the benefit of man
To be held and loved, trust and respect
abandoned and alone, spite and neglect
The Ocean crashes, my presence insignificant
lost in this labyrinth of utter bewilderment.
My mind as numb as these fingers
clutching the net, cast and release.
Sorrow and regret, familiar feelings now
As I cut up this bait, and alone I wait.
Loneliness is a feeling, a companion to my soul.
No greater addition of joy fills that burnt hole.
Look towards the future, that far horizon of content
always just out of reach.
This watery passing of time for naught.
These years spent.These same waves
may not pass below this craft again
only these same thoughts of despair.
And cast away thoughts of self mutilation
May this surplus of heartache end,
alone and adrift, the fresh air calms.
I question my impulse for death
- may be closer to sane.
What of those questions
unanswered from Gods own mouth.
Fully expecting some unthought reasoning
for me to cast about.
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Posted: Jun 2011
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Blowing, pulling, tugging, beating endlessly upon my brow
Crashing, enveloping, all encompassing, gale force, asphyxiating
..........the beating inside my breast.
Who can sail without the wind? The hull - weather worn
salt air, cold within, stinging, biting, ripping inside my lungs,
fighting, gasping, breathing,
..........extremities going numb.
Burning, turning, rope slicing through well calloused palms,
cursing and bleeding, straining,one more knot among many,
..........this gray and tattered rigging.
The waves come on ceaselessly, as the tides icy water spray
refreezes this deck. Chop and cut, bang, break and bust.
The ice building layer upon layer,
..........must unlock this ship from its slushy moor
Hollow thumping against the docks slow roll of the Ocean
the swaying of the masts, sails hanging sadly, heavy with the fog
increasing, turning steady into rain,
..........incoming downpour racing into the end of night
Darkness settled in, snugly into every nook, every cranny filling it to its bursting point
Burn for only one more night this dwindling supply of that midnight oil
not for nourishment, nor for warmth,
..........only a little light.
I pray, give me something, anything at all to light the way
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Posted: Jun 2011
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Within my dreams of tortured screams
and memories of long ago
I watched the act
denied as fact
and pursued her through the snow.
And in this dream
to me it seems
as though im almost dead
when Im ripped apart
and fed my heart
to awake upon my bed.
The dreams of night
with fists clenched tight
had followed me once again
and all my fears
wet my pillow with tears
as I expect the end.
Never before was I so bold
as when I tell you this.
The fear of death and the reapers breath
are as comforting as a lovers kiss.
I wipe at my eye
not willing to cry
must keep my sanity intact
little did I know
it was because of the snow
that kept me from attack.
I stand and scream
shattering all things
that happen to be in the room
the voice in my head
starts whispering instead
the end is coming soon.
I stand at the window
feeling the wind blow
through the broken glass
I cut my feet
climbing into the street
to fulfill my morbid task.
I land in the lawn
hours before dawn
listening to the voices
the demons around
retreat from my sound
so I stop to consider my choices.
I head for the trees
scraping my knees
because of the briers around
my rage intact
as a matter of fact
cruel suggestions
and self doubt abound.
A clearing in the forest
filled with chorus
by the evil thats out tonight
a circle of Satan
strengthened through hating
is witnessed under crisp moonlight.
In the middle of the night
Im turned on by the sight
at the scene taking place before me
levitating in air
with blood streaked hair
is an angelic symbol of mercy.
Raped and beaten
at this occultic meeting
she begs for sudden death
but the seed shes received
guarantees shell conceive
for the righteous theres never rest.
David M. Hill
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Posted: Jun 2011
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the scream
and cries
skree and skrawl
alight and perch
beady eyes - head cocked
watching me warily
shrieking its call
for encouragement
or for warning
i may never know
the flock had begun
their decent
these foulest of fowl
cluttering
and crowding
my poor deck with this
eternal skwawking
fighting for position among
what appears
to be peers
I gaze and watch in wonder
the fighting and pecking
survival a must
living on
one breathe at a time
shuffling along
the filth and the crust
purposefully exhale
this weight of despair
waiting for the tension to lift
reveal to me
this great and good plan
Gods mighty decision
for the benefit of man
to be held and loved
trust and respect
abandoned and alone
spite and neglect
yet the Ocean crashes on
my mere presence insignificant
lost in this labyrinth
of utter bewilderment
my mind as numb
as these fingers
clutching the net
cast and release sorrow and regret
all familiar feelings now
as i cut up this bait
blood and meat
and alone i await
loneliness is a feeling
a companion to my soul
no greater addition of joy
fills that burnt hole
look towards the future
that far away horizon of content
always
just out of reach
this watery passing of time
for naught
these years spent
these same waves
may not pass below this craft again
only these same thoughts of despair
and cast away thoughts
of self mutilation
may this surplus of
heartache lend
alone and adrift
the fresh air calms my brain
i question my impulse for death
may be closer to sane
what of those questions
unanswered from Gods own mouth
fully expecting some
unthought reasoning
for me to cast about
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Posted: Jun 2011
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Author: Unknown
blowing
pulling
tugging
beating
endlessly upon my brow
crashing
enveloping
all encompassing
gail force
asphyxiating
the beating inside my breast
who can sail without
the wind?
the hull - weather worn
salt air
cold within
stinging
biting
ripping inside my lungs
fighting
gasping
breathing
extremities
going numb
burning
turning
rope slicing through
well calloused palms
cursing and
bleeding
straining
one more knot among many
this gray
and tattered rigging
the waves come on.
ceaselessly.
as the tides
icy water spray
refreezing this deck
chop
and cut
bang
break and bust.
the ice building
layer upon layer
must unlock this ship from its
slushy moor
hollow thumping
against the docks
slow roll of the Ocean
the swaying of the masts
sails hanging
sadly
heavy with the fog
increasing
turning
steady into rain
incoming downpour
racing into the end of night
darkness settled in
snugly into every nook
every cranny
filling it to its bursting point
burn for only one more night
this dwindling supply of that midnight oil
not for nourishment
nor for warmth
only a little light
i pray
give me something
anything at all
to light the way
the craft pulls slowly away
riding with the
outgoing tide
waiting for that morning ray
hopeful against apparent odds.
the wind starts up slowly
hair slapping against my cheek
the gulls floating and dipping
merely a silhouette over the bow
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Posted: Jun 2011
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