BellaNora Poetry (62)

we hold on
tightly
you and me
us
and we
relating
anticipating
a change
staying the same
relentlessly
gripped
in each others ways
and open hands
we expand
to include our thoughts
to include
them in us
each other
we must
for every “one”
has a double
to share in trouble
in good times “two”
contemplating
possibilities
will we combine
you and me
them and me
you and them
them and they
are
and will always
be
~~~
are we all in this camaraderie
~~~
with every eye we see
pupils dilating
looking closely
defining the lines
but who can read
the silence in rhyme
deeply seeking
that certain beat
to keep us steady
because
we can never break free
of you and me
of us
and we
even if we aren’t meant to be
always in harmony
there’s
too much energy
too much time
too much space
~~~
we need to concede
we need to succeed
we simply need
to be
together
endlessly

©Bella Nora

03/11/13

I CAN’T DENY
My ANGER
My PAIN
My DOUBT
My REGRET

It’s all locked inside my head

And it’s eating me alive
It’s devouring my pride

The happiness I felt
Only yesterday
Today I forget

How is it possible to feel in an unpredictable way?

Why can’t I say what I need to say?
DAMN IT!

Instead

All I hear out of my own mouth
Is filled with the anger, the pain, and all of the doubt

My feelings mixed with such explosive energy

While the anger goads me to SHOUT, KICK or SCREAM

The pain makes me want to just numb out

But the doubt is tempting me to figure stuff out
And to even spell it all out

I’ve never in all my days
Been so horribly mixed up
Feeling what I can’t touch
Dealing out such tough love

Is all this agony really what love is made of?

©BellaNora

03/10/13