Poppet83 Poetry (8)

I stand along the bottom of the mountain looking up and realize I'm scared to death.

What if I can't do this? What if I miss a step?

What if all the dangers are hidden right below?

How am I supposed to do this? How will I know?

Then the clouds open wide and I can feel it on my face,

A gentle kiss of light, and the warmth of its embrace.

The sun has come to shine on me. To remind me I am not alone.

I have friends and I have family. That has been there all along.

Then I look back to the mountain, and realize it's nothing but a hill.

It's an obstacle that's in the way. And all it can do is test my will.

So I start to climb it, And though I stumble I do not fall.

The dangers are very real, but that's part of life, after all.

You cannot know, but you still must try.

Because the only other option is to hide away and die.

Life is full of dangers, Life is full of Risks. Life is an adventure you don"t want to miss.

So, I will take that mountain, and I will fight through the gray.

And I will take on anything that may come my way!!

Hello Darkness, my old friend, won't you come inside?

Sit an chat a moment, embrace me, maybe help me hide?


These worries and concerns are getting heavier day by day.

And dragging me down to a place I knew and I do not want to stay.


Many fear your presences. The emptiness they say you hold.

While others fear the Evil of a lightless world, or so I'm Told.


But I fear none of these, for the truth I have learned.

For the darkness they fear is that of their own souls being turned.


So, No, Friend, I don't fear you or the comfort that you give.

In fact I am grateful for the solitude in which you live.


You wrap yourself around me, engulf me with your peace.

A blessed pitch black, where my nightmares can ceases.


Within you I don't have to be so strong, I can let my emotions go.

Let the walls fall a bit, let the facade crack and let the tears flow.


And it may sound strange to those that do not know.

But with out you Darkness there can be no light to glow.


So let it be known that Darkness is not wicked nor is it scary.

It is what it is, a safe haven for the weary.

I’m sitting by the lake shore, in the middle of the night.
Staring at the moon and the stars that shine so bright.
Seeing nothing but his face inside my mind’s eye.
Listening to my heart race, as I have to wonder why?
Is it him I really want, or essentially just the thought?
I do not know him for we have never actually talked.
He’s the lover from the books and the savior of my dreams.
The hero of the movies But why is it nothing is ever as it seems.
I know he’s real he’s been close enough to touch.
His dark hair and dark eyes sometimes seem too much.
But it’s my courage I am lacking, when it comes to approaching him
I don’t want to dive in the deep end I’m afraid I have forgotten how to swim.
So he’ll stay the distant, silent fantasy with in my mind’s eye.
Something pretty to look at and dream about as I stare into this night sky.

My heart has been damaged and of course so has your.
Our walls are high and strong and will remain as so, if we stay this course.
You don't start with love, you start with friend.
And if we are lucky we will still be in the end.
A good friend to have is something I yearn.
But the love of a friend is something earned.
I know this as should you.
So I am sorry that I am waiting on cue.
For that spotlight and curtain call,
To tell me to go and give it my all.
To be the best of a friend that I can be.
And hoping your striving for the something as me.

I sit here starring at a blank page wondering what to write.
Everything I start, ends with in three lines, and never seems right.
My mind is running frantic in a million different directions.
I can't get a hold on it, to even try and release the tensions.
I'm having a hard time concentrating on one single thing.
And even when I try, I have found it quite baffling.
It's a smile, an embrace and it's the eyes.
It's a someone to my surprise.
So I shake my head and try to clear my mind.
Hoping it'll be blank for a short time.
But it never does and never will.
And sooner or later it will just refill.
With worry and it's brother fear.
Making the future so much more unclear.
So I close my eyes and let my mind run.
Knowing someday it too, will come undone.
I will continue to sit here and stare at this page.
Till something comes along to help me engage.
To help me straighten out my thoughts.
Instead of just these jumbled snapshots.

Are you happy? You must be.

See, because you won the game, you're free.

And now you want nothing more to do with me.

And that's alright, yeah, that's okay.

As sad as it is for me to say.

Cause in your winning, you've lost too.

Instead of embracing, you withdrew.

Never letting forgiveness breakthrough.

And giving me a reason to say adieu.

I thought our love was strong enough to pull us through.

Our years together should have made that true.

How stupid was I to even assume?

I held on for far too long.

Thinking with you is were I'd belong.

But I was wrong and I'm makeing it right.

And believe me it's been one hell of a fight.

But today something happened...and it was unexpected.

I hadn't thought of you for days...who would have guessed it?

And when I finally did, I no longer hurt and my eyes were dry.

You are no longer a reason for me to cry.

I can breathe now when I say your name

It is me, for myself, I need to reclaim.

I am free of guilt, free of the pain.

Free of the tears, and free of the chain,

That bound me to you in more than one way.

But now it is over and you can walk away.

With your head held high, for you're the winner, You've won the game.

I saw you so long ago in a different light.
Once upon a time in a different life.
Your so different now and I'm not sure how to feel.
I keep wondering and asking what the deal.
Have you always been this damaged or is this new?
Did you do it to yourself or did some girl do this to you?
Was I blind before and did not want to see?
That you were teetering on the edge of the tee.
Or is what I remember the truth in it's smallest form.
But I guess this new you is you for now and forever more.

I hated your stupid baseball caps.
I hated your video games.
I hated how all our fights, were always so lame.
I hated your obsession with Star Wars and Lord of the Rings.
I hated your extensive knowledge, of both of theses things.
I hated I was the girlfriend, but felt like the third wheel.
I hated coming in second and wondering what was the deal.
I hated how you drank, when ever you where down.
I hated when you got scared, how you would run out of town.
I hated that your work, would always come first.
I hated how your apologizes, always sounded rehearsed.
I hated how you always knew, there was something wrong.
I hated how I pretended to act so strong.
I hated how I always wanted to run and hide in my hole.
I hated how you could always make me feel whole.

Now I am not with you and things are different.
How I wish I had knew, what telling you, would have meant.

But now...

I hate the fact that I mess up.
I hate the fact we didn't talk it out.
I hate the fact that you just gave up.
I hate that we didn't scream and shout.
I hate that I still love you.
I hate that I know you still love me too.

I hate that now we wait and see.
Till the day comes, that we agree.
That our friendship is strong and we can move on.
That once again we can see the dawn.
That our past has been dealt with and is now gone.
And once again be right and not wrong.