MrSmiley66 Poetry (18)

You look back on all the years, of heartache and the pain,
Why someone would do that to you, screaming out in vain,
Through all the years of loving him and laughing along the way,
I loved him with all my heart until that final day,
He never saw that I loved him, he always seemed like he was mad,
No matter what I tried, it broke my heart it would always make me sad,
He put a ring on my finger and my love would never be swayed,
And through tears of joy, I will make him happy I looked up and prayed
I waited for so long for him to marry me, I could never give him a clue,
It made me question all his love, if it was really, really, true
But all the times I couldn’t tell him how I really felt,
Things I’ve should’ve said to him that would of made his heart melt,
Should have stopped so many people from getting outta line,
Showed him I was his one true love and everything would be just fine,
Or put him on a pedestal like he always did with me,
And even if he was on the couch I should have snuck and slept with him,
So he wouldn’t end up feeling lonely and our love was growing dim,
Should’ve told him I wanted to go out just him and me,
Should’ve never made him feel like someone that just made three,
I believed sometimes it was enough that I just felt this love for him
And us being broken up and apart was very, very, slim,
When there was problem, he tried so hard to solve it kinda valiantly
Should’ve made his words important like they should of mattered to me,
He finally went and got the help that made him finally be happy,
But I won’t give him a chance to be the man he was suppose to be,
I will treat him like a stranger with which I have no past,
I‘ll keep being stubborn; nothing of him will be asked,
I will forget about all the good times we shared,
Never show him any feelings; I would be too scared,
One day I will be wondering, what would have been?
If I just have given him that one last chance, no matter how thin,
I knew he loved me in my heart, I was just too proud,
My mind saying, NO HE DOESN’T! Screaming just as loud.
I have to face some things alone, its something I must face,
One day I’ll thank him, instead of putting him in his place,
And if our love was true, we will finally be at peace,
And the hate I have in my heart will finally have release

I bleed ?
It’s you I need?
The only one I trust?

You see
?I can’t believe ?
You don’t believe in us

We need ?
To both succeed?
Never turn this to hate
?
Our heart
?Will never part?
Hurt its so hard to take
?
You'll never really know what’s really in my heart, ?
Hurt blinded you just from the very start,?
Wouldn’t let you see my love was here for free ?
Always guarded the truest love you would never believe,?

You may not understand the reasons why I left, I'm not so sure, ?
I really thought it could be alright it would finally be the cure,?
Would make us miss what we have lost,?
not realizing at just what cost,?
?
The empty place beside me when I close my eyes at night,
?Sleepless nights every night with no ending in sight,?
Please believe this if I knew you were hurting this bad,
?In my life I never wanted to make you sad,?

I lost my way, but so have you, we need for us to be?,
Cant we find a way to get along, I really need you to see,?
This has hurt both of us, I can see where we were wrong, ?
If you would just give it one more chance, our love would be just as strong,?

The hate that you are feeling is keeping you from me,?
What’s standing right before me something I couldn’t see,?
I know what we can do to make things heal,?
The only thing that I know our love will always be real!

A boy liked this girl, but didn’t know what to say
But he knew in his heart she'll be his some day,
He was friend’s with her and they became real close,
But kept it a secret what his heart wanted most,
Watched her laugh and watched her cry,
Kept on thinking that I'm gonna be her guy,
He told her best friend what was on his mind,
She said OMG! Its seems your heart is in a bind,
But she has a boyfriend as you can see,
You might have a chance cause shes not too happy,
That boy was glad he didnt know what to do,
He needed to know if what her friend said was true,
He went to find her to ask her what was what,
Stood there shaking with a knot in his gut
He stood there for a moment it was all a blur,
and he just started to say these words to her,
I wanted to say that you are my best friend,
and I know you know this, but I hope it wont end,
for what I need to ask might scare you away,
I would like a chance to be your boyfriend someday,
I don't want an answer, I know what you feel,
your gonna need time to find out that I'm for real,
so a year went by it might seem so long,
but what he felt remained real strong
he knew he loved her but did what boys do best,
he waited for the answer, and he just dated the rest
and one day she came to him with a look in her eye,
stood there staring looking like she wanted to die,
She opened her mouth she tried to speak,
It looked like her nerves were growing very weak,
He said what’s the matter, she smiled said "Guess!"
I don't know, as she whispered, The answer is "Yes!"
A year went by, ummm? What was the question?
He really didn't know, that was his confession,
She said "I want you to know, I want to give this a try,
Because your in my heart, and you will always be my guy!"
So thirty years later as their lives moved on,
Seperate lives apart, but the love never gone,
But they kept in touch, when their lives took its toll,
That kind of love doesn’t die, when its within your soul,
So this is a true love story that I have just told,
Will teach you that true love never grows old,
Remember that when things grow dark and bleak,
That only true love is a love that never grows weak.
But here’s the problem you should all know,
Would they ever end up together will it be yes or will it be no?

My heart was truly broken, but that’s in the past,
In my future, is the one I find, a love that’s going to last,
Seeing with one set of eyes, always looking onward,
Our hands locked together, our hearts moving forward,
Silly things to say and do, memories that we’ll remember,
Scary finding a new love, a love that could last forever,
Chances that we take, gives a new love a chance to grow,
When all of our emotions finally begin start to overflow,
My heart is always open, with no walls to break,
Honesty and integrity, make these feelings really hard to fake
Are you willing to take a chance, forgive my being so bold,
For just maybe our story can be the greatest ever told.

And then……..
Words whispering through the blowing winds,
A time of change beckons where no one wins,
Storms growing from rage held back from inexperience,
Thoughts of my existence of who am I, and just to be,
Believing in an invisible force that can never be seen,
Pain envelopes me in hells raging fires,
Hope yearning from past desires,
Clawing back from an empty void,
The light shines through the clouds above,
And from the darkness there grows love…….. And then

When will the nightmare end, when will you see
You say you will, you say you might
When all our words turn into a fight,

Everyday grows darker still, calm waters turn to raging storms
I try to reach those deep feelings that lie dormant inside your soul,
But the snake lies waiting in the shadows below.

Scratching and clawing memories try to remain intact,
Melting away like an ice cube on a hot sidewalk,
Fading away seems like the only impact.

What do I feel, what do I say, you knew there come the day,
The lasting embrace that would be our will,
Tears the heart apart and the beating will be still,

Say what you mean, say what you want
I can’t see through these twisted thoughts,
Help me see the pain I have wrought

When will the nightmare end…………