MrSmiley66 Poetry (18)

Calling from within, whispers of your name,
A smile casts a light that opens my eyes,
No expectations, only a simple chance,
Left are questions of what to pursue,
Your eyes make me feel the real you,
Lost in the deception of life’s game,
Holding on to hope as the last embrace,
That smile, those eyes, and the whispers of your name.

Your soul beckons from within,
Lost in the dark is the will to feel,
The abyss welcomes your pain,
Eyes closed and blind to all that is real,
Emptiness fills the remaining spaces,
Hate is revealed in stranger’s faces,
Alone is the word that screams sorrow,
Wrapped in roses the snake lies in wait,
Serenity welcomed, when it’s the end…..

The Eagle Will Fly

Growing up since I was a young boy my Grandpa said to me,
To live my life with honor and always have integrity,
Cause one day a call may come for me to join the fight,
To defend our Constitution, for me to keep that well in sight,

They say our Constitution is outdated and so old,
All around this here nation, that’s the stories being told,
If my Grandpa was here today, he would laugh, and say that’s just all lies,
He would tell me to look at him, to look him in the eyes,

He would say to me, my boy, there’s a story I must tell,
World War Two is where I stood my ground, where others died and fell,
There was only one reason, why I would want to stand and fight,
to defend my countries honor till the dawn’s early light,

To defend the people of this land of their God given rights,
To stop the evil fiends that has power in their sights,
Don’t worry what people say to you, and the lies they have bought,
You will be honored in the end, after the good fight will be fought,

I sit here and ponder these words I believe he would have said to me,
He would be proud I lived my life with honor and integrity,
I’ll keep on talking about what people cannot see,
Even, if they keep saying its crazy and all a conspiracy.

What will it take for everyone to finally come together?
Will it take their eyes to watch that single falling feather?
That feather belongs to a symbol that represents us all,
Wondering what that feather means it’s the beginning of the call,

That symbol is perched watching silent and patiently,
Staring down at the power being wielded with impunity,
Waiting for that little spark, when everyone starts asking why?
We will start our fight for FREEDOM, when the Eagle begins to fly….

I look at my reflection, who is that staring back at me,
That’s not the man I know, the man I'm suppose to be,
Lost is the light that shone from deep within my eyes,
My soul still wanders as it searches across the open skies,

I’m fighting so hard just to keep alive,
Using all my strength just to survive,
My heart is empty deep inside of me
I’m an empty shell of who I use to be,

Even if I try to understand the reasons why,
Even though, Even though
Even if I try to understand the reasons why,
Even though Even though,
There’s a stranger looking back at me.

Look in the mirror and tell me what you see,
That’s not the man I am or who I want to be,
Look in the mirror, there’s no one I can blame,
I’m the only one that can bear all the shame

Screaming in the darkness, screaming at the night,
Where are the answers, of a life that’s lost its light,
Trying to find a direction, try to find a place to start,
Just looking for some feelings to fill this empty heart,

Even if I try to understand the reasons why,
Even though, Even though,
Even if I try to understand the reasons why,
Even though, Even though,
There’s a stranger looking back at me.


Look at the mirror, that’s not the man I’m supposed to be,
There’s always a stranger, always staring back at me.

Look to the future brings me back to my past,
These two worlds the distance has become too vast,
Screaming to the sky, when will searching stop?
A lonely soul wandering, on a far distant mountaintop.

The heart grows weary to find its way back home,
Emptiness growing stronger, across the land it roams,
When the eyes become open it will all be crystal clear,
All your questions will be answered away from all your fear,

Blind to what your heart desires, blind but still you seek,
Questions your heart demands, makes the soul become weak,
Commitment and loyalty are lessons that one learns,
A shame to let that get in the way of what your heart yearns,

The answers will come to pass, to the questions you will find,
Your soul wandering lost, chaos within your mind,
Within the chaos you see the light,
A glimpse of a future, all shiny and bright

Listening to the voices, whispering in the wind,
Look to your past, against a wall your pinned,
Two souls that were torn apart by life’s cruel game,
Two souls finally found and no one is to blame.

Sleeping hearts grow weary, never facing what is true,
Content with the little things that will always see them through,
But to finally feel what true love is, life moves on way to fast,
The secret of a future love, you may find it in the past.

As time went by, the illusion was clear,
That wolf never changed, its what I always feared,
Manipulation was his ongoing game,
Brought disgust, to this family, a lot of shame.

An then it happened I had a child of my own,
It was the greatest feeling I have ever known
I could teach that child everything I’ve learned,
Of all the good feelings I have always yearned,

Something wasn’t right, I already knew,
This anger inside that just grew and grew,
I was at war in my head, because the past was still here,
Infecting my family that I held dear.

No matter what I did or how far I would go,
This is the part you have to know,
My family became numb to this mind-numbing fact,
That this sly wolf was always ready to attack,

They couldn’t see what, my eyes could see,
As they lived there lives blind, so completely,
When I would stand to stop all the drama,
I was the only one to feel the entire trauma,

It would always turn out I was the one that was wrong,
He would always start to cry that sad, sad, song,
“He never liked me, cant you all see,
He’s always picking, always starting with me.”

So there came a time, came the final straw,
When he stood before me, he tried to break my jaw,
He woke the demon that lived deep in that cage,
That demon that was filled with all that pain and rage,

I had enough of this, this life of lies,
I will avenge this child, this child who cries,
I couldn’t hear my own child, I didn’t care,
her screams and cries were too far to hear,

I made a pact, something I had to do,
I released the demon, in a rage it flew,
Evil thoughts twisting inside my head,
Its me or him that’s gonna be dead,

In all the mayhem of this ongoing illusion,
I heard a tiny voice through all the confusion,
“Please, please, You need to listen to me,
I don’t want you to go, please, please, Daddy”

From hell below what I heard from a distance,
The only truth I heard in this pitiful existence,
A voice of hope in the glimmering light,
Trying to make sense of this, trying to make things right,

That child that cries wasn’t me at all,
It was my child that would save me from this fall,
That voice was the push, the final release,
Which would make my soul finally feel at peace,

I am finally free from so long ago,
To my daughter, you will always be my hero,
Saved me from a life of pain and sadness,
Welcomed me back, from this journey into madness.

MY JOURNEY INTO MADNESS

When sanity bellows from the depths below,
Hear me now it has come time to know,
I welcome you all to my pain and sadness,
Welcome to my journey into madness.

Being a good boy wasn’t hard to do,
But always being told they were better than you,
Tears away at that child’s self -esteem,
Destroyed that little boy inside of me.

Growing and watching the deceit and lies,
No one really cared about that child, who cries,
Alone in his room, locked away out of sight,
I hid in the shadows with the moon shining bright.

Celebrations and party’s people all around,
No one noticed the boy wasn’t around,
Wiping away his tears, trying just to be strong,
Screaming to the darkness, “What did I do wrong?”

He became a teenager with a deep, heavy heart,
Just trying not let the anger tear him apart,
But low and behold, what did his family do?
Oh, holy hell, if you only really knew.

They moved someone in they cared so deep,
They never saw the wolf inside that sheep,
No matter what I said or how loud I screamed,
I was ignored I was always double-teamed.

So the day that came took me by surprise,
I walked in the room my mom tears in her eyes,
Your Dad and me are getting divorced,
In my mind, I thought, “Oh no!, It’s my fault of course.”

My Dad sat me down, told me he had to go,
And he said “Son there’s something I want you to know,
I want you to protect your brother and sisters from what I fear,
From that drug addict that will still be living here”,

I wasn’t ready for this; this was just plain nuts,
He just looked at me and said “No if ands or buts”,
You don’t understand Dad, but there is this side you never saw,
You didn’t see him grab a pipe and try to break someone’s jaw.

The days and nights went by very slow,
The pain and anger started to grow,
My strength and rage from hell below,
Time for me to stand up and be the hero,

That drug-addict full of venom and fire,
Somehow made me out to be the cold-hearted liar,
No matter what I said or how hard I would fight,
My family couldn’t see those wolf teeth, fists clenched tight.

Deep inside I already knew what would happen to me,
I needed to do something so I could finally be free,
I went to a place where my mind could rage,
Deep where the demons lived that I held caged,

I convinced myself this was the right thing too,
This is what good boys are suppose to do,
No matter how scared or how much you fear,
You protect your loved ones you hold so dear.

Years went by, those feelings grew old,
Only the first chapter, of this story being told,
Started my family, and started anew,
Tried to put my past behind me, the time just flew. (cont.)

I’ve been to the edge, and I stared straight down,
A large empty void, no escape, no sound,
Whispers from ghosts of days gone past,
Years ticking away, life moving on way to fast,
Reflecting on the person I was long ago,
Seeds of the future that began to grow,
Searching for something that seemed out of reach,
My soul for the taking, to Him I beseech,
Save this soul I screamed to the clouds above,
Aren't you suppose to be a God of love,
Questions arose that seemed so far,
Heartache and pain that left a scar,
To each that seek the answers to your own sin,
Search no further than your soul within,
The Man upstairs will leave you to ponder,
To let you decide if want your soul to wander,
Understand which path you have chose to stalk,
Understand in the shadows where the demons walk
The answers are the test for you to learn,
To fail the test in the fires you shall burn,,
There is no end to this story you have just heard,
Just comes from some feelings that have been stirred,
Still learning the lessons that this life still brings,
I just know it is God who pulls the strings.

I never should have loved you; I should have left long ago,
from the first time you told me to leave, I should of never loved you
I gave you what you really wanted, what your heart only desired, when she came you never really needed me, I should of never loved you
You never shared your love, maybe you didn’t know how to, made me feel all alone, empty and afraid, standing screaming in the darkness, I should of never loved you
Why don’t you love me? Your screams are just as loud as mine, cuts each other like a knife, maybe we don’t belong, I should of never loved you,
Wasted all these years away, laying in the other room, you made me feel all alone, when all I wanted was to be close to you, I should have never loved you
You pushed my love aside, was it hate or just your pride, you were always blind to the real me, I should of never loved you,
Now wiping all the tears away, thinking about how it all went away, don’t know if I'll ever love again, but in time my heart will heal, I should of never loved you

American people hear me now,
The time has come to make a vow,
Within our borders, there is a storm growing,
Nameless faces, never showing,

The time is now to make our stand,
And one day our children will understand,
The fight we fight, is for all to see,
The fight we fight, so our children will be free,

Things we learn and what we pass on,
Are slowly being taken, until they are gone,
They will seek to destroy in what we hold dear,
To hold us hostage, for us to live in fear,

Heartless souls with a false destiny,
Seeking their glory for eternity,
We the few who see the light,
Will never stop putting up a fight,

Through words of integrity of our strength and will,
The American people will never stand still,
To watch them destroy the fabric of this land,
Its something these people will never understand,

We the people its what we believe,
How this country was first conceived,
We salute the flag that flies so high,
It’s a feeling that we will never let die.

So bring your forces, try to take our rights,
We the people have you in our sights,
We are the ones that will save this land,
United we stand hand in hand.

Listen good and listen now,
This is THE AMERICAN PEOPLES FINAL VOW!

Mommy and daddy what have you done,
What have you done to your first-born son?
Screaming and crying please help me now,
You were suppose to protect me wasn’t that your vow,
Sleepless nights caused by terror and shame,
You should let it go, what? This isn’t a game,
The trust in me that was suppose to grow,
Was destroyed by this, you ought to know,
I was made out to be quite the liar,
As the hate just grew into a raging fire,
My heart is trapped with these heavy chains,
But life went on and but the pain remains,
Mommy and Daddy why cant you see,
How this all affected me,
I lost the trust from the ones I love,
Precious gifts from God above,
No one saw and but I only knew,
Why seeds of hate just grew and grew,
I had these things inside for so long,
And I thought I would always be strong,
But hate weakens your soul inside,
Damages your loving heart and with your pride,
Always felt like I was lost at sea,
That no one ever really liked me,
I was a good boy; I tried to be good,
Always behaved like you thought I should,
Never was good enough to be around,
The pain just grew without a sound,
Now I’m screaming, let it be shown,
The pain is still here and I’m all alone.

T’was the day after Christmas, and through every state,
All the sheeple were stirring, and in heated debate.
Their words were scary, as they said “WE ARE RIGHT!”
And the Patriots just stared in God-awful fright,

The sheeple were all happy with their government meds,
While Obama the savior danced all around in their heads.
With Patriots planning what’s our next move,
Eureka! “It’s the President we must remove!”

On the Whitehouse lawn there arose such a clatter,
I sprang to the TV to see what was the matter.
I grabbed the remote in such a flash,
I fell over the chair and landed with a crash,

The sun was high over the Whitehouse on the TV screen,
Gave the image of that building a weird eerie glean,
When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
The Patriots showed up and their message was clear

With their signs held high, with their guns in view,
I knew in that moment as the masses grew.
More and more they were coming in for the kill,
As they screamed, “You will never, break our will!”

"Now Patriots! Come one, Come all!”
“Lets stand together, strong and tall”
To the top of the porch! To the top of the wall!
No surrender! No retreat! We will never fall!"

Americans marched with one goal, one mission,
Obstacles were dealt with prideful tradition,
So up to the Whitehouse the masses they flew,
Hearts full of fury, the Secret Service with no clue.

And then with a blink , a commercial or two,
Something happened, but hey we already knew.
As they smashed through the door, and looked all around,
Through the halls and rooms not even a sound.

As word spread of what was found,
It got all quiet there was nothing , no sound,
And a voice rang out from way in the back,
As the patriots gathered and waited for the attack


The words were clear, strong and true,
“Hey, everyone just between me and you,
It was in his mind this country was his kingdom,
That little man thought he could steal our freedom!”

With a roar of victory, all the patriots cheered,
Really, is this the clown we all feared?
From his evil grin to his floppy ears,
This story will be told for years and years.

With the flag in our left hand, the Constitution in our right,
We raise them in unison, held high with our all might,
Our fore-fathers would be proud for what we have done,
As Americans held strong and stood as one.

This is a story is one that might become,
One of many, can be a final outcome,
Every patriot always keep one thing in sight,
“FREEDOM” TO ALL, AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT!