You look back on all the years, of heartache and the pain,
Why someone would do that to you, screaming out in vain,
Through all the years of loving him and laughing along the way,
I loved him with all my heart until that final day,
He never saw that I loved him, he always seemed like he was mad,
No matter what I tried, it broke my heart it would always make me sad,
He put a ring on my finger and my love would never be swayed,
And through tears of joy, I will make him happy I looked up and prayed
I waited for so long for him to marry me, I could never give him a clue,
It made me question all his love, if it was really, really, true
But all the times I couldn’t tell him how I really felt,
Things I’ve should’ve said to him that would of made his heart melt,
Should have stopped so many people from getting outta line,
Showed him I was his one true love and everything would be just fine,
Or put him on a pedestal like he always did with me,
And even if he was on the couch I should have snuck and slept with him,
So he wouldn’t end up feeling lonely and our love was growing dim,
Should’ve told him I wanted to go out just him and me,
Should’ve never made him feel like someone that just made three,
I believed sometimes it was enough that I just felt this love for him
And us being broken up and apart was very, very, slim,
When there was problem, he tried so hard to solve it kinda valiantly
Should’ve made his words important like they should of mattered to me,
He finally went and got the help that made him finally be happy,
But I won’t give him a chance to be the man he was suppose to be,
I will treat him like a stranger with which I have no past,
I‘ll keep being stubborn; nothing of him will be asked,
I will forget about all the good times we shared,
Never show him any feelings; I would be too scared,
One day I will be wondering, what would have been?
If I just have given him that one last chance, no matter how thin,
I knew he loved me in my heart, I was just too proud,
My mind saying, NO HE DOESN’T! Screaming just as loud.
I have to face some things alone, its something I must face,
One day I’ll thank him, instead of putting him in his place,
And if our love was true, we will finally be at peace,
And the hate I have in my heart will finally have release