Sweetcheeks210 Poetry (9)

Free spirited

Be the one
To care
If I'm there

Can anybody
Hear my prayer

Lost in silence
Surrounded
By enemies

Never standing
On
Solid ground

My
world
Shakes

Surrounded
By hate

I dig deep
In my
Sleep

My soul
Flies
High

The pain
Of
Existence
Far behind

Alone to the
Things that
Bite

Alone to
The
Devourer
Of Souls

Boy wonder

Fight to live
Fight to be

Never lost
In reflection

Do you
Hear
My objection

Like
Rain
Falls

You feel
The drops
Of life
Fall endlessly
In silence

Wrapped in feathers

Eyes like the sun

Passion
Burns Deep
Within

Never
lost
In sin

A lost warrior
To the pad
And pen

Writing
With the only
Ink you
Knew

Your story
Written in blood
Through Trials

Temptation
All around

You guard
Your heart
Of gold

Sing your song
The song of
Your hope

The song of your calling
Last of a dying breed

The night whispers

Wind blows
Fire burns

Tears fall

But you
Stay true to
The call

Chanting
With your All

The lion
Of the field
Hunts for you
On the prowl

Knowing determination
You fear nothing

Relying
Only on
Instincts

Intuition
Itself

The spirit
Calls to
You

The world
May crumble

But the
Father
Knows
Best

Be still

Never
Lost
At sea

For your
Star shines
Bright

Ever lighting
Your way

To the
Beat of the
Drum

The beat
Of your
Heart

You close
Your eyes

Laying down
You dream
Of grandmother

Eyes closed tightly
You rest eternally
In slumber land

Hidden
To the world

Heaven is in your eyes

Now
Rest your
Head.

(Transcendence)

I fall to pieces daily

Living but not

Seeing but not

I see a world that doesn't see itself

The pain of struggle awoke
The dreamer within

Many tears I shed

In silence I am dead

Through my experience I penetrate
Reality to that which is unseen

What my eyes see I don't want to see

Fear is there

Face to face we stare

My mind isn't there

Dead To the world

A slave to my mind no more

My spirit sets me free

I fight to be

At night I bottle my tears inside

I wear them around my neck

Invisible to the world

You cannot see me

But my spirit shines brightly

In darkness no more

My soul flies high

Surrounded by temptation

I remove my limitation

As I transcend to what you don't see

My soul finds peace in the wind

High in the clouds

Do you wish to see me

Search to find the way

The way of peace.

(Losing yourself)

Searching for fun

Searching for truth

All behind her eyes

Behind her smiles

Behind her lies

Behind the laughs

The reality of false love fading away

There's more beauty in truth

The beauty of honesty

The beauty of hope

The beauty of success

The beauty of perseverance

The one with a beautiful mind

The one who shines bright within

A soul knows but says not

In silence I let you walk away

Better to see

Better to know

Better to of found all I searched for was finding myself

Instead of knowing

Whether Love was real.

(Knots)

It's in her words
It's in her lies
She's blinded by the world
Around her
Lost in her own
Thought processes
My hand is slipping
Her world is too big
Of a mess
Thrown to oblivion
I am left falling
Down a tunnel
That's never ending
My heart took
All it can
Barely beating
My mind is
Losing it
I'm stuck on the outside
Looking in
Look how far I've fallen
These tears our
Puddles of myself
Lost in my reflection
Attached to my son
My last chance at love
My one love
My son
The son you care
Less about
When it's more cool to
Be a thug
When it's more cool to be
Cool with your friends
Your so
Lost to what's real
Somebody Help
Me
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Trapped in a nightmare
That never ends
Every break in
My heart kills
Me
I die daily
To the fool
Caught up in
Her selfish ways
I'm tied down
Thrown in
An ocean
Lost in this
Sin of an abyss
I cry but my eyes
Do not cry
Anymore only
Its worse
There's more then crying
Folded over in silence
I'm stuck in the closet
My stomach tied
In knots
I can only stutter
Alone in the
Dark
What love
I have for
Anyone I only
Have left for my
Son
What love I have
Is spent on
Suffering
In silence
To cry to
Myself
The side
Of life
I was never
Ready for
Awoken To
The lost...

(Seeing what it was)

We struggled hard
But that camaraderie
Kept my head up
Lost to the world
Searching for a cause
We puffed til our eyes
Turned red just to
Kill the pain
I'm lost in reality
Seeing hate
I see
I see pain
I see monsters
I don't wanna see
No more
No more
Times got hard
The street got cold
Hurt left me in wonder
That beer got me Numb
To the pills we swallowed
To the shit we did
Just to hide
The pain
My fingers are cold
I see tears in his eye's
Staring in the mirror
I see fear in his eye's
Oh no Lord
Don't let me wonder
In my sleep
I hear thunder
These tears fall
In my slumber
This beat in my
Chest sounds like thunder
Memories got me feeling hunger
Why did I wonder
Searching for a home
Lost to the world oh no
You see these faces
Lost in cases
While he chases
My heart races
Down here
See my fears
See my tears
Am I still here
Somebody hold me
I've lost reality
Old memories got me
Seeing pictures
Childhood dreams
Shattered in pictures
Lost in my reflection
You sit and wonder
What it's like to
Lose your soul
Waking up in bed
Oh wait
Is that a roof over
My head
On my knees
Lord God
Hear me please
Don't let me go
Lost in silence
I'm awake
No wait
I'm just dreaming

(Life)

Nowhere
Anywhere but here
When these tears fall
Nobody but me
Caught up
In this world
Left amongst
The forgotten
My souls hurting
This pain
Goes nowhere
The change
Is killing me
letting go
Of who you
Were to me
Alone to
These tears
Alone to my
Fears
Like walking
Amongst lions
Waiting
Which one
Gonna be
The death
Of me
Seeing blue
Feeling blue
Lost to my
Thoughts
My eyes
Are Watery
I'm going
Insane
Hiding these
Feelings
Searching
For someone
To fill
My void
I'm Losing
my voice
Like losing
The will
To live
I'm losing
The will
To breath
I'm lost
With out
You but
your
Nowhere to
Be found
My life
Is this
Big nightmare
I'm tired
Being apart of
Pretending is
Getting hard
To do
Because behind
My smile
Behind my
Eyes
Are thoughts
Of me
And you
Except
We haven't
Met yet
For now
Your
Just the
Woman in
My dreams
I'm praying
For
My rock
My strength
The woman
To keep
Me together
When
Life tears
Me to
Pieces
Your hands
Are the
One
I can
Crumble
In.

(Hope)

I'm the kid
who never
Grew up
Surrounded by
Many things unknown
With only the
Desire to be loved
Defeated many
Enemies of
The Soul
To be here
In the mists
Smiling at the
Thought of
What it
Took
To be bold
In action
To be broken
Enduring everything
As the world
Ripped apart
A young
Boy
Into a man
My hope
Could only
Be in the
Lord to
Take What broken
Pieces I had
Inside
To show
Me that faith
Would hold
Me together
During my
Battles
With the
Demons
Of self doubt
Self worth
Fear
To believe
That inside
Me was
The Strength
To be
To overcome
All
To win
What meant
Most
I am found
In one
My heart
Is whole
My soul
Is one
With
The spirit
Of truth
Of hope
Of love
All I needed
To keep
Going
Was
That my
Prayer
Was
Answered.

(Liberation of self)

A world without words
Silence touches my soul
Stillness whispers
From within
The world you
Walked in
Is mine
A friend like no
Other
I made a friend
Out of sadness
From the silence
Whispered many
Things
The realization
Of what strength
Lied inside me
Tears only made
Clear what
Was changing
Me from the inside
Acceptance of Fear
Alone to the world
Inside me my world
Expanded
I seen sorrow for
What it was
I seen hope for
What it was
I seen friends for
Who they weren't
Slowly what happiness
I knew faded instantly
To a cold world
To where all I could
Do was take suffering
And attach it
To where only
My dreams could
Take that
Broken part
Of me
And
Release it
To heaven.

(Staring at my son)

Voice of one

Hard To run

Come one

Come all

See the one

Flying solo

Fighting solo

Heart of gold

On the road

The road to awe

The road to all

On eagles wings

We fly to the sun

With all I am

With all I can

Lost no more

Wind in my face

The Harder it hurts

The journey within

The journey to win

Heart of warrior

Heart of lion

Courage within

Defying my limitations

All I have all I am

All you hear

Is the beat of my heart

Heart To win

I fly I fly to be lost in the sun

Strength of the son

Imma be the one

The one You can't contain

The one to praise his name

Most high

The world will know his name

Whether I fade in life

You can't hold back the soul within

The soul to win.