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Many times I notice that empty space
beside or infront of me
as I eat my meals and feel this just is no way to be ...
Many instances I find something funny and I chuckle,
but can't help feel that it can be more of a good roar
if he were just here to laugh with me ...
and then some more ...
Many evenings or nights I can't help but wish,
for comfort ... that there's more
than the pillow to hug ...
in place of a warm living loved one
who can respond with his own embrace
that would feel so lovingly snug ...

Until he returns
back into my arms that miss him so ...
I try my best to catch and savor
every drop of happiness around me ..
And hopefully, with this poem
he will surely know...
That no problems, distance, or worries
can ever make me forget or not see
my deep-seated wish for him & I
to eventually become that " WE" ...

Together we can do anything ...
Be happier instead of alone,
stressing & worrying ...
Together we can be everything
that we wish for, before this life
comes to its inevitable ending ...
Together ... why don't we
give it our best try ...?
Instead of balking at , fearing or doubting
all the reasons that justify the why ...

For together, all the good & positive
becomes best from better ...
All the sad & challenging
become more bearable
through all that passing rough weather ...
Together, life simply takes on
more facets & dimension ...
Instead of feeling flatter, monotonous,
bland, and lacking clearer direction ...

Because together, we can flourish even further,
thru drawing from each other's strengths
and, thereby, be able to go so much farther ...
We can likewise be the loving support
where our vulnerabilities
can cause us to sometimes fall short ...
And lastly, together we need not worry as much,
about our shortcomings in that respect ...
For all the while being perfectly imperfect,
we'll be there for one another,
and forever ... love, protect, and hold each other ...

Let me love you my Darling,
so I can prove to you
that the sun rises through the clouds
and is still shining ...
Let me love you my Dearest
so I can show you,
even when you are at your weakest ,
that I'll always be there ...
Let me love you my Honey,
so you can once more taste the sweet
after suffering the bitter ...
Let me love you my Sweetie,
so you can live all your following days
hearing yourself sweetly called
in all the most endearing ways ...
And let me love you my precious Love,
so you can once more be
the best partner, friend, and lover
as you surely will, in turn,
bring all those out in me
wherever... whenever ... forever ...

Long after my sight fades even more with the passing of time,
when I can no longer write these verses that rhyme
Long after my boobs and bum finally give way to gravity ,
and the passing of time has erased most of what
you call my beauty ....
Long after my memory fades ..... when names I may not so clearly
remember ...
Yet never will I stop recalling Love’s ember ...
For I’ll love you as much then ,
like you now make me simply glow all over ....
and on being near you,
just makes my heart go beating aflutter ...

The way I love ... need to be loved ... and feel,
   I may as well be as antiquated as Da Vinci...
But I dont mind, because that is simply me
   and I can just hope to find a man 
who can value and appreciate that ....
   instead of seeing it as some sort of an oddity ...

I long for that ever tightening but tender embrace ,
    such as I hunger to experience and taste ...
His mouth and fingers passionately 
    caressing every part of me ,
as if saying " I love you" to my very soul
    and every inch of my body ...

Viggo Mortensen's words about the love of his life
    will forever ring in my head and reside in my heart ...
 Inspite of many things 
    that threaten to tear Love apart ,
        it proves such men exist ...
Their innermost longings and desires
       pursued till their heart
           by the grace of Love .... is finally kissed ....
It has awakened me 
    there lives in these times still ...
Through life's hinders
    they shall prevail by strength of will ....
 
The cares and ills of this worldly life ,
    do not have to necessarily weaken us
       when the bond and love's strength is right ...
So trials and foul weather need not be seen
    as a dreaded fateful blight ....
For nothing can extinguish
    the invincible fire of true love's might ...

I miss having family
that gave me countless memories
of happiness & security ...
Now in its absence, I would love
to have a mate or life partner,
whenever that will come to be , if ever ...

Someone you can talk to
when your heart feels heavy...
Someone you can laugh with
during moments happy & funny ...
Someone I can share the very best of me ,..
Someone who'll always be lovingly there ...
To be with through all kinds of weather ...
content, fulfilled, and undoubtedly happy ...

If it be me, for you ...
that would make me immeasurably glad too ...
But if not me , and it turns out to be someone other ...
Good luck then to you,
for then, my happiness surely lies
in the heart of a still unknown another ...

In my mind's eye, when I looked
at what should have been our "holding hands" ...
I saw that yours had silently released its hold ,
like mute falling pearls let go
from its strand of gold ...
Loved you too truly to make any demands ...
And understood you genuinely
to realize the why
that my heart understands ...

You told me,
maybe I should let you go ...
That maybe,
I should find somebody else to know ...
That after all, you're still too broken
to give committed affection with no reserve ...
Can't therefore love me the way I deserve ...

You have been the most I've connected with, though ..
Fit nearest perfect
intellectually, emotionally, and physically ...
As I look back tearfully ... sadly ...
Deep in me, I do know
it is something we can keep together
only if we work at it with one another ...

So eventually , I just as quietly set you free ...
If you ever come back when already you're mended.
that's entirely up to you ... not anymore me ...
And now, like a book in the midst of writing ,
I take my pause and lay it aside ...
Explore once more the experience of living ,
notwithstanding the challenges with which it is rife ,
To go out into the expanse and breathe in Life,
with all its joys and promise of all possible good ...
I look forward and onward to my just due...
As for love, I hope it will encompass that too ...

With heart against mind
you find yourself drawn
to that love's tale spinning... forming ...
That hope for its happy ending
increasingly growing ...

Yet often, not as simple as that ...
Heart's unfounded fears ... mind's tormenting demons
can conspire against love's bud
where it's at ...
Stifled of light
before it gets the chance to grow ...
Denied the chance
to blossom and its seeds to sow ...

You hold on as devotedly as you can ...
Fight the damning cold winds
that threaten your heart for this man ...
But like a slippery hand,
it slides out of your loving grasp,
The birthing bond,
as surely, gets unclasped ...
Still ... not like Freya you'd wish to be..
blamed on love that hindered her
with clarity to see ...
For it's fears, bitterness, or hate
that blights the eyes to go blind,
from letting the light of mind and heart to shine through
like a guiding beacon ... the homeward path to find ...

The poem's title need not be so ,
for as long the delicate balance
we remember, accept, and know ...
Our reasoning is that which whereto should steer us,
with love's brightness from the heart
gently assisting ...
To help us through what hinders awaiting ...
Where thereby lies
the wisdom of this delicate equilibrium,
which ... if not done ... will time and again
cause heartbreaking delirium ...

As the setting sun appears
I see you off to sail nearer its horizon...
Your memory I most hold dear ,
will always hope for your return, is my decision ...

And as the light in the sky is fading fast ,
your ship moving farther
into the sea's immense vast....
I wish that you carry with you
my words like a distant faint voice
calling,
familiar from the times with me
remembering ...

Where no more falling of sadness' tears ,
no more grappling with crippling fears ,
Only warmth of safety back in my enfolding arms,
no more worry you will come to grievous harm ...
I someday hope to see
you sailing back to me once more ,
heading off to ... never ever leave ...
my waiting loving shores ...

Ever so often, we may find ourselves
cringing and bracing ...
But no need to suffer too long...
No need to go through it alone,
for together we can indeed be more strong ...

Maybe if you look into mine,
inspire you it might ,
and help you with your own pain...
To see how I deal or cope with it,
even though the grief
seems to not willingly wane ...

Maybe if you witness
how I try to see Life's worth ,
so instead of each day just surviving
I'm somehow also thriving ...
Then perhaps it will aid you
to realize more , its own beauty and value,
so to withdraw into one's self
won't come back once more
in deceptive stealth .
For as it jeopardizes your very health,
I would loathe to see you, my Love, so crumpled,
your very essence imprisoned & strangled ...

Though it's not always the sauce for the goose
applies for the gander in real life ...
Maybe there's anyway
always something good to learn
and be gleaned
from a loved one's own strife ...

And while we more often start alone
facing our shadows, perhaps there
for reasons unknown,
And because I believe in you ...
to not be a Shakespearean tragedy,
but instead, your own success story
that you have every right to be ...
Maybe it won't be so scary
to take that hand ,offered lovingly,
of one who cares for you truly ,
of one who sees all the good in you openly ,
(even though you may fail to see
your valuable worth with clarity ...)

Together to strengthen, inspire ...
I can keep you company
in life's challenging but worthwhile journey,
affectionately ... understandingly ...
and, not the least, devotedly ...

For a time, you took him in
and loved him back to health ...
For a time, you did what you could
so that test his once broken wing ,
dare once more , he would ...

Sometimes it's the RIGHT thing to do
so he can try
to spread his wings
and once again into the wild he can fly ,
be the best man he can be
though every part of you
is mourning with this goodbye ...

Sometimes, it's the ONLY thing you can do,
even though to your eyes it brings tears ...
Hoping against hope,
amidst all your fears,
he will, some day, find his way back to you too ...
And you're left deeply wishing, eventually, he realizes
that, all this time,
his heart has, in truth,
already found its home in you ...

There comes a time
when we don't get impressed
with the "butterflies in the stomach"
or the "fireworks" any longer ...
There comes that time when we look
for that feeling of deepening connection
growing stronger ...

The "sweeping off your feet" ,
wining and dining ... fail to make you feel complete ...
The good looks or flashy things
have long felt stale and quite obsolete ...

It's more the yearning
to truly connect intellectually, spiritually,
and emotionally ....
So conversations never falter
but flow fluidly like forest spring's water...
So the most trivial in life everyday ,
gives much more gladness
in every imaginable way ...

It's nothing to do anymore with any material thing ...
Instead, it's already about
that often elusive indescribable feeling
that only the right human connection can bring ...

Which in the end gives the affirmation,
that to arrive at true Love's destination ...
Simple is often the best
for that thing called human happiness
when we embark on the precarious quest ...
Where inspite of the hinders & frustration,
that put many of us to the gruelling test ,
With unwavering hope and perseverance,
their faith has come to be finally blessed ...