YURIMA Poetry (11)

THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU BACK 2002
I NEVER FORGET THAT YEAR..BECOUSE
YOU TATTOO IN THE DEEPEST PART OF MY HEART.
I REMEMBER THE FIRST WORDS WHEN YOU CALLED
ME(SIR)THE WORDS THAT LEAD ME TO MEET A
WONDERFUL PERSON OF YOU,

BUT AS THE TIMES GOES BY..I WONDER WHY I DIDN'T
SEE YOU AT YOUR FAVORITE TABLE..
I ASK SOMEONE TO THOSE WHO IS CLOSE TO YOU
AND I DONT KNOW IF I CAN STAND THE WORDS
(CANCER)YOU...ARE READY TO GO ANY TIME?

WHY...YOU LET ME LOVE YOU & PUT YOU IN MY HEART.
THAT ONE DAY YOU LEAVE ME IN TEARS,,
WHY IN THIS WORLD ..YOU LET ME SMILE & LAUGH
THAT ONE DAY I CRY ALONE?
YOU ARE MY SHOULDER TO CRY ON..BUT NOW YOU;RE
GONE..YOU PLANTED IN MY HEART YOUR FACE..
YOU'RE KINDNESS...YOU TEACH ME TO BE STRONG ENOUGH
BUT I NEVER THINK THAT YOU LEAVE ME ALONE IN
THIS LONELY WORLD..WHEREVER YOU ARE NOW..
YOU SEE ME ..PLEASE ..GUIDE ME STILL..
I NEVER FORGOT YOU,,,I MISS YOU..

by
yurima~edna

I COME TO CS TO SEARCH FOR TRUE

LOVE. AND I NEVER THINK THAT I MEET

MANY GOOD FRIENDS HERE, FRIENDS THAT

READY TO EXTEND THEIR HAND WHEN I'M DOWN.


MY CS FRIENDS ARE THE ANGELS ON EARTH THAT GOD

SENDS, YES..I ADMIT THAT BEFORE I HAVE THIS THINKING

WHY? A BIG QUESTION IN MY HEART ..BUT IT COMES

THE DAYS WHEN I HAVE MY UPS & DOWN HERE...THIS

FRIENDS...COME TO ME AND GIVE ME A HAND TO

KEEP GOING.. MY CS FRIENDS THAT I NEVER MET IN

PERSON, BUT I FEEL THE KIND HEART FROM EVERYONE OF THEM..


MY CS FRIENDS I DONT KNOW HOW TO THANK YOU ALL,

WORDS IS NOT ENOUGH TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS FOR HAVING

YOU WITH ME.. AND I THANK GOD TO SHOW ME THE CS SITE

NOT ONLY FOR SEARCHING A LIFETIME PARTNER..BUT HE

SHOW ME THAT GOOD FRIENDS IS HERE AND,I NEVER LONELY

AGAIN..I HAVE MY FAMILY MY CS FRIENDS & I WANT

TO THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING HERE WHEN I'M DOWN & LONELY..

WHEN THE TIME IS COME.. AND I NEED TO LEAVE THIS PARADISE..

REMEMBER MY FRIENDS..YOU ARE ALL IN MY HEART & MIND..

I NEVER FORGOT YOU ALL..Ahh!! MY CS GOOD FRIENDS IS MY

FAMILY... I PRAY THAT SOONER OR LATER, WE FIND WHAT WE ARE LOOKING

FOR...MY CS..FRIENDS.. MY TRUE FRIENDS... I LOVE YOU ALL..

FRIEND FOREVER,,

YURIMA~EDNA,

``You come into my life when i need a shoulder to cry
You help me to find my the way to survive
To see the beauty of life
You are there always when i need someone to listen
To give me hand when i'm down,

I use to live my life of being with you closed to my heart.
You teach me how to smile..how to laugh..
But i never think that one day..
You leave me behind..i though that you are true
That i know everything about you...becouse
You never told me that you are not free anymore..

I want to die..becouse i dont want to know that
The man i learn to love is not free anymore..
I dont like to hear your name..that name that
I love to write every minute in my heart..
I cried a tears..tears that washed my face ...tears
That help my heart to forgot your memories.
I want to hate you.to curse you..but i cant do..
My love is forgiveness...i will let you go..go
And follow your heart..your dream...your love
Its time for me to face the truth ..that.
You are not belong to me..
I forgot you already....

Still,
Yuri~Edna,

Kind heart is all i have & i don't have the
gold or silver on my pocket to make you like
me,
I only have this true feeling of heavenly Love
that god give to me to show the honest way of me.
You are the biggest things that i have in my life
you're love is all i need,

Day's are come & by but my love for you is true
And never ending,
I promised you dear that i will cherish you untill
my life on earth is done,

How can i repay your good heart?
Only you the one i need & ask from heaven above
God is my witness,i ask him to send you to me
to have you in my life..to love & to care

The days are gone..the pain is done.the sorrow are now
just a history,you...you that have a heart of gold
you that accept me for who I'am..you that never ask for anything
to prove my love except to Marry you & love you..

Thank you my love for having you in my life
for sharing me your though & honest love.
you make my life whole..
you made me smile when the worlds is lonely

Thank you God for making him for me
he makes me the luckiest woman on the earth.
With out him I'm nothing..I love him
B-cos you made him for me..stay to us & never
leave us..

In the road of life often have a pain & happiness
But behind those happiness & Pain there is a shadow
that we never forget,
And times allow us to think the past
Even that past is the Cos of suffering,

Why me Lord?Always the question in our Heart
we have been in deep pain & Sorrow but WHY?
Still he allow us to feel those Pain?!

Now i know that he make us suffer just to make us strong
& remember the good thing's he made in our life,
Don't be afraid to face the pain..He Know our pain
How can we be a good human if we can't accept the truth
that WE! are just a human..He love & guide our Broken
heart,,he just wait for us to be strong enough to be a good
follower of Him!

Why me Lord? its my often Question..but now i often
Say..Thank you LORD for making me whole to serve
and follow your step..I love you for giving me
What i have in my life now,
Why me?because I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING
IN THIS WORLD!!

When i walk the path of pain
i always think of how to be strong enough?
like a tree without branches,branches without
leaves,


But there are Angel's among us.i feel them
with me and i don't need to worry anymore
Some times we think that we're alone..but
we never understand that God send an angel's
to guide and protect us,

Forget the pain,,they make your heart cry
Let your tears go ..and your pain are gone,
True, the pain is a branch of your life
But don't let the leave's fall down to the
dirty ground,,,think of forgiveness!!


Feel the Angel,

Yuri~Edna,

I DO LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS EARTH,
I GIVE MY TIME MY LOVE,MY LIFE TO THE ONE I LOVE..
I TURN MY BACK TO ALL MY FRIENDS & JUST BE WITH
YOU,

I NEVER THOUGH THAT I MAKE THE BIGGEST MISTAKE
OF MY LIFE....TO LOVE & WORSHIP YOU ...
THAT SOMEDAY MY LOVE FOR YOU IS KILLING ME.

HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO MY HEART?HEART THAT FULL OF GOODNESS
HEART THAT ONLY TO LOVING YOU IS MY MISTAKE?
I LOVE YOU..MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY!I EVEN DON'T CARE
WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY..JUST..ALL I KNEW IS I ADORE YOU..
SEPARATION???DO YOU FEEL THE PAIN? OR..YOU ENJOY ..YOU USE
ME TO COVER YOUR ANGER TO ANOTHER LOVE...LOVE THAT YOU
HAVE EXPERIENCE ...NOW YOU BRING TO MY HEART & YOU MAKE ME
CRY AS WHAT YOU CRIED ON THE PAST..

DARLING...IT'S NOT ME THE ONE WHO MADE YOU CRY..
I LOVE YOU & I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU..
I OFFERED YOU MY LIFE..JUST TO SHOW MY LOVE TO YOU..
SEPARATION IS NOT MY WAY OF BEING FORGET THE ONE
I LOVE..

LEAVING ME IF YOU ARE HAPPY FOR THIS..
BUT REMEMBER..WHEN YOU ARE FAILED TO THE LOVE
YOU HAVE CHOOSE ..I'LL ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU..
YOU ARE THE LOVE THAT ..GOD..GIVE TO ME..



Edna~Yuri.

What is the meaning of Love?
Love is the key of every parent that's why we
wanted to get married & have our children,
Child is the most precious gift that GOD has given to us.

But why we let this gift gone suddenly just b-cos of
our own satisfaction?
Getting married & get divorce for just a misunderstanding?
we are the one who choose our life..why we let our child suffer
for our own fault?

We don't know what our child feel about parent's who leave
in different home,but deep in they're inner heart they
cry..cry for help..but afraid to voice out..Child of
god ..do we like them to have a happy life or empty heart
that lead them to a Broken mind & heart!!

Think first my friend about leaving our love one's just
b-cos of narrow minded thinking..love your family
& think about the future..they are waiting for US..!!

Time has come and go,and the day's become lonely
my heart longing for love that i dream and still
not find?my heart is ache because all my life i ask
the peace & love for my dream,but still hang on up there!


The love that my heart wanting is far behind the sky
there are time's that look up to the sky and have my breath
in deep just..as thinking of give up of all my dreams,,then
suddenly there is cold thing that touch my inner part of my
heart and i feel someone told me to keep going on..and
never give up.

When i almost give up ..true love come and i found that
God test me how i trust him,how i deal with those trial
in life before he let me see the light and love that
only for me,i thank you ..pain b-cos of you god give me the
most loving & kind person in the whole world,

Don't give up...instead..ask God for help and clean your
heart for everything you want to have in life,
I'm the living evidence of god work..i see the heart of
man who is true and kind..i love you lord for all the
things that you made for us.


Beloved

Yuri~Edna,

You said goodbye
I fell apart
I fell from all we had
To I never knew
I needed you so bad

You need to let things go
I know, you told me so
I've been through hell
To break the spell

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling
I once knew ,,,

Maple leaves seen from a distance are lovely,
When,urged by undue desire,I get near to the tree
and watch the individual leaves,
I only encounter them in their wounded and torn state.

As we know the appearance of the maple leaves
When they are wounded and torn,
we hesitate to go near them.
We want to maintain an appropriate distance,

We try to stay away,
at a distance we can manage,,

True love is just here..but its hard to touch!!