Quisiera poder teletransportarme de la oficina directo a casa. No fui criado para habitar con las palomas. Ni para soportar los boludos con complejos de inferioridad que pintan un segundo de mi existir con un ruido muy fuerte y motorizado. Qué pelotudos de mierda.
A veces todo movimiento frente a mis ojos se vuelve algo hostil e inaguantable. Pero yo digo ahora eh, en el bondi vuelta a casa, ver la repetición de rayas en el asfalto hace algún cortocircuito en mi cabeza y me siento mal. Es como si necesitase estar colgado de algo inmóvil. Como si necesitase una crucifixión de mis sentidos.
Mis sentidos deben ser crucificados a veces, para salvaguardar mi bienestar.
Being watchful over sheep.
Yeah you're being watchful over sheep, aren't you? Of course you are, you bloody bastard, that's what you're supposed to do. You are watchful over sheep as though I was not a liberation to the relationship between them and the land. If you knew me, if you knew my intentions, you would deliver your sheep to me.
Porque los corderos que yo acecho, se entregan solitos a su liberación ;)
And no, I am not the wolf. I am far from being the wolf.
Until I am ;D
There are several stories about me becoming the wolf, and I don't know what's all the fuss about, since me becoming the wolf has been described as, well...
AND THEN EVERYBODY GOES "omg why? why you became the wolf and why do you howl and scream and bite, and lick, and then bite some more and lick, running your tongue all over, being a wolf??
" . Cos that what wolves do" , I say.
I am a wolf. I said I wasn't, but now I am. And the pigeons, the pigeons I was talking about in the begining, I don't like them, cos, see, us wolves we don't like pigeons, and we don't like cities. Wolves dislike Buenos Aires, they belong to wherever is colder, to wherever is darker. I am a wolf and I show my teeth to the people riding this bus. That's what wolves do.
I am a wolf and I smell the fish around and think of delicious crime. I am cheeky and shameless, and I know many fun things ;)
Argentina is a country for wolves. Argentina is not a country for wolves. Do you know of any other country for wolves?
Look at him crying. And look at the other one being violent. Look at me being peaceful.
It got dark. It always gets dark. What's the f*cking point in it? It just, got, f*cking, dark. And this place, is completely different at night, as it is at day. Which brings me to the conclusion that I must look for answers.
BUT BEWARE, I HAVE BEEN RECEIVING ANSWERS FROM SOMEONE. And if we're able to pull this up, it will be a success!
I have decided it's time to re-invent myself.
Again I have the urge to look at everyone and connect, but I am not of their kind today. Over 40 people in the bus, and no one I can connect to.
I am the black sheep. I am the wolf. Black sheep, wolf. I am wearing a black shirt today, I am the black sheep. I am bad, but I am better.
This wolf is getting back home. I didn't get my day off tomorrow, grrr! *wolf growl* but I get monday and tuesday off!
online today!
I have a few friends in the US, and I have always wanted to visit, so I went on Google to see, how cheap it would be for me to take a round trip in May 2020.
$473. Not that expensive, if I am honest. I have written to one of my friends there, to see if she would be able to entertain me at that time. I am just waiting to hear back from her. Or maybe I will do what I have always thought of doing - go to the US on the 1ts of July and then leave again on the 8th. That way I get to see how the US celebrates their independence day. But for now, I will focus on the 1st of May 2020, since I can't see dates further than May 2020. It gives me just under 11 months to save up for spending money to bring with me. If I use 100 dollars per day, that means I need to save up at least 800 dollars in total. 1000, just to be on the safe side. I also need an ESTA, but that isn't expensive. I might go for that next month.
The place I will be flying to, hopefully is New York. I want to have a slice of NY style pizza, as they say it's the best in the World. I have only had Danish, British and Portuguese pizza, so I look forward to try it. If it's as good as they say it is, I might become so addicted, that I will move to New York on a permanent basis, lol.
I don't need a visa, because Denmark is a part of the Visa Waiver Program, meaning that I can stay up to 90 days in the US without a visa. But for now, I will just be there for one week. If I love it, I can always come back.
This kid next to me (he's maybe 15?) listening to Snoop Dogg and Dr.Dre and then I thought 'damn,kids listen to shit music' AND THEN I REMEMBER A FEW MONTHS AGO I WAS BUSTING SOME CANADIAN BACK-FLIPS AND 360s AT THE FREESTYLE ICE RAMP TO THE BEAT OF JAY-Z. Not forgetting, I have several friends thirtysome years and really good skateboarders. There's no difference between me and this kid. Maybe my tie and shirt, but we both have the same Converse shoes!
But what the f*ck, he listens to music really loud on those earphones. That can't be healthy.
I need to get a hold on some Nike or Mission skates. If anyone from Canada, USA, Sweden, Finland or Norway plans on coming to Argentina, please let me know!
Did you see that coming?! No, you didn't f*cking see it, did you? You never gonna f*cking know what's gonna happen next with me. Did you think I was coming back to the ice and this time NOT IN ICELAND? Ah? You didn't see it coming :)
'Some sort of connection'. You hear me saying this very often. It's my personal mantra. There's is some sort of connection. Some sorta connecting to the ice. Let it be proclaimed that the ice is now part of my life again. Let the ice come back to me.
This lady, she's got a black watch with white details. I f*cking want it. It's beautiful.
Coming to the ice again. This time I don't have Marcos' company. In fact, this time I don't have anyone from the past. I think I should start looking for teenage time lost friendships or new ones interested in winter sports. Anyone care to join me? ;D
I remember when I dated this girl that looked exactly like Michelle Williams, I remember I started dating her cos of that reason (shallow much?), however now I am watching this changed and ugly version of her, in the same place, at the same time. And so many years after (not that many) I think Oh God. And then some will charge against me and my cruelty; my f*cking shallow cruelty. To what I will explain I'm a human being, mundane and tired, thus I need to rest too, not just contact Heavenly bodies and if you want, once chosen by one of these, only then I'll realise. YOU HAVE TO DESERVE WHAT YOU ASK FOR.
I am sorry you did what you did. I am sorry you made your decisions and not mine. I am sorry you ruined your life and I'm just begining mine. How come are you so stuck with your lives and I can't barely grasp the concept of sticking? And no I did not leave you alone; you just left yourself alone.
I am close to home and that brings peace to my soul. And that peace in my soul brings thoughts to my brain. Thoughts that bring energy to my spirit, which feeds the blood that moves my body. Which direction should I turn?
... I can't sleep at night. ???????????????????????????????????????
When sailing past St Vincent on the 3rd of May we saw a halo around the sun. It was really beautiful.
Im not sure why its caused or what it means but now that I have internet again for a few days will try reasearch.
All men have secrets and here is mine, so let it be known:
For we have been through hell and high tide
I think I can rely on you...
And yet you start to recoil
Heavy words are so lightly thrown
But still I'd leap in front of a flying bullet for you
... we shall meet, I know ––
online today!
Helped a fellow sailor install an amateur radio/single side band radio/back rig antenna on his 34 foot sloop here a decade ago. He was bound for the Med. by way of Nova Scotiia and the Azores. Chickend out on his offer to join in the crossing. Rationalized the presence of young twins, etc. But kept in touch via short wave daily, and relayed the info to his wife by phone in her home in Bethel, Alaska. Vicarious travel. Regret it to this day. Bucket lists. Carpe diem.
After spending 3 weeks in Tobago yesterday we left for Trinidad. We started sailing at 7 am. It was a clouded and drizzly day but started to clear up in the afternoon.
I didnt really want to visit Trinidad because of security reason but I must say that last night the entrance was impressive. Sorry for the bad quality in the photos
Sunset as we approched the bay.
Welcome by dolphins
And then the moon
Annleerose I have tried to message you but I seem to be blocked for not being male. If you would like to meet while Im here please let me know.
A cosy little balcony with a table for two.
Clear blue ocean with almost dead corals.
But somedays my own company is the only company I want.
I needed a break. To rest.
Now every one is calling me to go here and there.
Can't I take a break.
My friends and family must be assuming something.
Nevermind!