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Why Am I Sad For?..

I know i shouldn't be sad right now on account of finding myself an okay boyfriend, but my mind just feels so horrible right now.

My phone really does suck, so i end up getting texts from Saturday today?..it really does bother me frustrated. So anyway back to the story, my ex sent me this massive essay message saying i had deceived him..He knew i had a boyfriend?. And he said that he never wanted to speak to me again and that he could finally move on and give someone worthy his affections, to be honest i dont think anyone will ever live up to his expectations as he was always trying to change me and he was never really that affectionate towards me, if he does actually get affectionate towards someone god help her is all i can say. Or i hope she gives him V.D or stamps on his balls!..Grrr he's made me so mad!, and thats why im hurting, oh and he called me like 5 times this afternoon, last call was 1.16pm..Dunno what he wanted though..

But i know deep inside i shouldn't hurt as thats a good sign he's out of my life for good, but half of me still wants to talk to him and see him!!, my minds driving me crazy!, i love my new boyfriend and thats the end of it and nothing going to wreck him not even some spiteful shit of an ex! very mad

I know he's not worth me getting my blood pressure up about, im seeing my boyfriend this Wednesday and if the weathers nice we're having a picnic in the local park so fingers crossed for nice weather!.

My birthdays 1 week today wow and im getting my pink guitar when my parents order it for me, my friends and boyfriend are coming over and we're going shopping with the money ive saved when i was at college so its going to be a very entertaining day to see what my boyfriend has brought me as he tells me its a lot of money whatever it is laugh

So without rambling anymore than i already have!, thank you for reading my blog =)

Much Love

- Brunetteteen 18 lips purple heart
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A Beautiful Day..

Today was amazing.

Im definitely enjoying the taken life again, my boyfriend travelled all the way from Nottingham to where i lived because i was skint, but ill be going to Nottingham tomorrow and i cant wait to see him again, its like i ache when im away from him and then when im near him i cant stop smiling blushing

Well my parents know i have a boyfriend now, i cant believe its taken me since Sunday to finally pluck up the courage to tell thema bout him, i think i was just scared of their reaction as its rarely my parents like my boyfriends but they seem to like him a bit from what ive told them, ive always been very scared of my parents' reaction to the people i date but i dunno why i was so scared of telling them about him dunno

And tomorrow he's taking me to the cinema, okay ill admit im not looking forward to the early morning because i love my sleep too much but im willing to give up my sleep for the guy i admire :)

But today was by far the best day ive had in a while, not many of my boyfriends saw me two days in a row, i know my ex did but that soon weaned off when he got his new car it was like he cared more for the car than his own girlfriend which i find very baffling roll eyes

So, im going to try my hardest at this relationship and try and make things work the best i can!, ill be damned if my ex is spoiling this for me because he can balls lol! laugh

Thanks to the people who read these things and im sorry if ive bored people, yet again haha! i chat for england rolling on the floor laughing

Much Love

Danielle (Brunetteteen18) lips lips
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Happy Ending Finally?..

For once somethings going right!, so ive got so much to say and so little time to say it!

So anyway, i know in my other blog i said i didn't pull some guy Saturday but i was wrong!, my friend gave this guy my number and to be honest i think she did the right thing this time, because we started texting each other and it was like we connected in some way, and so that Sunday he asked me to be his girlfriend and i said yeah, well what more could i lose? laugh

And today we spent time together and for the first time in a long time i was happy, he spoilt me and brought me a packet of fags (cigarettes lol, and everyones probably thinkin big deal but to me this some gesture lol), and he brought me some chocolate and he's brought me a birthday present because my birthdays in 1 Week and somethin days lol! laugh

But on the downside my ex boyfriend rang me earlier and he was moaning at me, well apparently he still likes me but as i said he has a very strange way of showing it, even in the first few weeks when he wanted me back i didn't want him, well then after a few weeks i asked him if he wanted me back because true to my word i did miss him a lot, and then he was the one who said no so i look at it as his loss not mine right now, besides i cant keep hanging around for him stringing me along and stuff i just dont have the right mind for that kinda thing, besides i think im onto a good thing with the one i have now :)

And im not gonna lie about my feelings, i do still like my ex a hell of a lot but at the moment im trying to move on and try and make something of this relationship and try not to mess things up like i always do =)

Thanks for reading my blog, and im sorry if your bored lol!.

Much Love

- Brunetteteen18 xxxx lips
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The Party..

So, i promised to keep some people up to date about what went on last night..I cant remember a great deal as i had a fair bit to drink so i was pretty merry and drunk most of the time laugh

It was pretty much a proper girly night apart from one of my friends brought her boyfriend along, who i must admit was a piece of alright there i said it but i know i cant have em lol!, i was a shoulder to cry on at one point in the evening as my other friend (the birthday girl) got very upset about her ex texting her as they've been apart for a while after he dumped her out of the blue, the night was then a tragedy from then on really.

What makes it worse, with the amount of make up and how high my shorts were no one was interested in me! i couldn't believe it, mind you my other two friends got all the attention only because of how they we're dressed, they went out in these skirt things from Ann summers and stockings and big shoes and im the only one that thought about how i looked?, maybe i should dress like that next time maybe i'll have some more luck!..I know i should stop complainin' bout guys i guess lol!

Apart from that the night wasn't bad, i danced loads and my feet hurt this morning and so does my head lol laugh, the bunny night wasn't bad and i have another party this Friday but this ones at my uncles as his girlfriend's having an ann summers party for costume ideas for the hen night, ill probably use my bunny costume again as im pretty much tight on money after ive finished college which is this Friday as well! :D..So im quite excited about that party too :P.

So now its paracetomol time again so im probably gonna go have a lie down and dope up lol! =D

Ill probably write more when somethin' good happens ;D


Much Love

Brunetteteen18 lips
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So Much For My Mouth..

Honest, its so bloody annoying!.

So, anyway im registered with more than one dating site beside this one and i thought finally things are looking up because i was talking to this guy and he sounded awesome we had loads in common and he wasn't too old for me, so we started talking a few days ago, and then today until a moment ago.

Well What happened?, well i was talking to him about my costume for the weekend (as its my friends birthday tomorrow and we're all going out dressed as bunnys on saturday), so i was cracking jokes about how much ive spent and how id have to scrounge for drinks and then it was like hey maybe they'll buy the bunny a drink and then joked about wowing people with my clevage and looking but not touching and then he was like you do know thats making me back off lots dont you?, so obviously i messed things up as he invited me out for his birthday on the 24th of this month and there was even a large possibility of us getting together and now that looks bleak all because i cant keep my mouth shut! frustrated

And then one of my old friends is after me but i dont want him, he's a nice guy and he made me laugh loads back when we we're at college but i just cant go out with him..:\

I Dunno and i thought things we're getting better obviously my mouth was the cause of all this shit lol!. never mind im sure i can make some sort of amendment for Saturday, i just hope i pull after all the 23 quid i spent today, i could cry lol!

Anyway, im going to talk to my friend because im bored and my hands aching haha :P

Much Love

- Brunetteteen18
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Anger Management..

Daft Blog title i know, but i think ill explain it later.

So, i haven't written in a while or a few days to be exact. Probably had nothing good to say and that ive been focussing on other things like my college work and finish date and giving my future a bit more thought, i have no idea whether to go back and do my follow on year or not, its just money at the end of the day because ill be 20 when i go back so anything over 19 and they make you pay like 100 quid (pounds) for the course and i have no idea if i can afford that with my parents being on tight money and me not working.

Anyway, enough of the dreary debt troubles..whats with the title you ask?, anger management im just wondering about it a tthe moment as i think i might have a very big problem i have no idea if its my mind or me being stupid or somethin?..Okay so my friends think i definitely need it, because i get so worked up and end up either breaking something or taking it out on the wrong person.

My ex doesn't exactly help matters, i remember he was messing with my mind once and i told em to knock it off basically and then he goes off in a mardy and puts the phone down of me, so i just went apesh*t and started punching my door and i have a rather nasty dent in my door, other times i take it out on my wardrobe and the amount of times my dads fixed that is unbelieveable lol!. laugh or i just shout at people i dunno what makes me snap and its not really a nice feeling, i feel like people tread on eggshells around me i think their either frightened of me or frightened of my temper lol!

Then, i have my uncles wedding in August and my dress doesn't fit me properly so im stressing over that because im on a diet and trying to quit smoking at the same time both of which aren't going well, i started smoking again on Friday and since then ive just found it impossible as im trying to go all natural and not use any of that nicotiene shit and no its not working, ill find a muse or somethin' lol!..And then i have my friends party coming up this weekend and im stressing what to wear as everyones going out in these rediculously short skirts and im definitely not gonna do that because i dont like my legs and im really self concious so ill likely be hiding my legs lol! laugh and then ive got my 20th birthday in about 2 weeks and my parents are stressing me out because they wont let me have my bank card as im going shopping with my friend, i find it utterly rediculous that a teenager of my age cant even have her own bank card on her person, i get to pissed off!! grrr lol!

So, this blogs gone on long enough and im sure im boring everyone :) so i shall leave everyone alone =)

Much Love

Brunetteteen18
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Happy June 1st

A New month. ive got so much going on this month its gonna be a busy one, my birthdays in 4 weeks and then ill be 20 im going out with friends on a shopping spree and i cant wait, and then i have my friends 19th birthday to celebrate and hopefully that night we're all going clubbing dressed as bunny girls so im hoping i get some kinda male attention hehe laugh and then i have my fathers birthday and everythin' so yeah a busy month for me lol

Well, i finally met my ex from 2 years ago things between us we're so awkward well i felt awkward myself i just had no idea what to say to him after what happened between us :(. We just sat out in the sun and chilled and he talked about his friends and moving into his own flat and in turn i told him about all my problems and stuff, it seemed to be a lot better after i told someone face to face about it, he seemed sympathetic and heard me out really. So i finally agreed to put what happened behind us and start again as his friend which im quite proud to do because i was awfully cut up about him for a long time after the relationship ended.

And my other ex won't really talk to me thesedays, even though we're suppost to be friends all he says is hello and then he'll be quiet i sense awkwardness or the fact that he's avoiding me or somethin'. Boys really are a complex species lol laugh

Apart from that everything seems fine at the moment, im slowly starting to get over my ex even though its been nearly 3 months since we split up its a work in progress i guess, i know he was complaining to me the other day that he might not be moving to be closer to university, and to be honest i was secretly glad and then secretly disappointed, the disappointment side was it would take me longer to get over him because we usually always hang out together and then the glad side of things would be that i could finally work on moving on and getting out there again.

Im so glad i finish college this month :), i finish on the 19th and then its a nice big long break until September when i go back and do a follow on for my second year i just hope all my friends are coming back because i'd hate to be the girl in the corner who always kept herself to herself lol!.

So thats all i have to say, sorry ive bored everyone rigid again lol! laugh

Much Love

- Brunetteteen18
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It Wasn't Ment To Be..

So i haven't updated in a few days. Cant say ive been in the mood really, but i know i need to keep things here updated for people who are actually interested in my crappy life lol. laugh

Well?, whats with the title?, well mainly that me and ex definitely aren't getting back together and yeah im very upset but i suppose theres not alot more i can do to convince him otherwise so with great and very deep regret i finally have to let him go and try my best to get my head together again, well he gave me the lamest excuses so really i think he's moved on from me already even though how many time he still says he misses me, i think he's definitely messing with my mind.

So what we're the excuses?. One was my parents, they seem very old fashioned and dont believe that sleeping at boys houses is a good idea so therefore he doesn't like them?. Errrm second reason was he doesn't think i miss him enough, that reason made me laugh because my friends could easily tell him how upset i usually am when i talk about him to them and how much i regret letting him go, and then the third one was that i lust over emo guys?, and what girl doesn't lust over other guys?, i hear the saying its alright to look but not to touch, id understand if id of gone and shagged the guys i lust over but i dont, it really is the most frustrating thing ever, and he always insists on meeting me and getting close to me only on his terms, i can bet myself a tenner (£10) next time we meet we will always cuddle and kiss like nothings gone off between us, i really need to start saying no more but its so hard :(

Well, in the meantime now i have to start moving on, though theres a very deep paranoia inside me, as he's moving away to be closer to University in August and he's sharing a flat/house with a girl and theres a thing nagging in the back of my mind that the both of them will get together at some rate and that would destroy me even though we're not together, i just dont understand myself at times =S

So now i find myself completely on my own, with only my friends for support and thinking that being singles some kinda punishment for what i did, so i have to take it i guess.

Thanks for reading my crap once again =)

Much Love

- Brunetteteen18
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I Dont Think He Realises.

So now im just so confused and depressed i find it hard to sleep at night.

Its driving me absolutely apesh*t. So from April 30th's blog i told you how much i miss my ex boyfriend, and i still miss him, so today we went for a drive in his sports car and i really had fun because we watched tv and chilled out hugged and kissed like nothing went on, but its like he doesn't realise how much i miss him. I know he says he misses me but im so not sure he means it or not.

So yesterday i got news that he was moving half an hour away to be closer to University, and yeah i was gutted and still am a bit but i truely think theres no hope for us getting back together as i text him the day after April 30th and told him how i felt and if he still felt the same and wanted to try again?, and he text me back saying that i should think about it more and that he needs time to think too, so i think i take it as ive hurt him too much and he doesn't trust me or somethin' and its driving me crazy how i feel about him...Its like i want him back but i know he probably doesn't want me after i dumped him for an emo guy who messed with my mind and shit!, and yeah i feel the biggest dickhead ever :(, some nights i just lay there and think how many months we could of been together or how much of a fool i was and i just lie there and honest to god i cry about it.

It just feels like theres no end to my problems, i just wish i hadn't of dumped him and stuff and maybe we would of been together still now and he wouldn't be moving in August i bet he's only moving just to get away from me, which honestly i cant fault him for as id do the same.

Today in the car he was talking about how much he wanted some naive student and stuff and yeah it did make me cry a little but i didn't want to cry in front of him, i dunno if its me being over sensitive or what?, its just when he talks about other girls it makes me feel so small and obsolete and angry i just dont know where to turn or what to do, its honestly driving me crazy.

I know, people have told me to get out there and have fun and stop moaning about being single, but its so hard when all your friends seem to have this whole stepford wife relationship thing going on and i just cant help but envy them and wish i was them partly :(

So, again im so sorry about the essay but it feels good to get things as complex as this off my chest so im not driving my friends crazy lol laugh

Much Love

- Brunetteteen18 teddybear
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Realising It..

Well, so much to say so little time as they say.

Since i haven't been around in a few days now i have so much to talk about!, so taking everyone back to Thursday afternoon i was in lesson and my phone rang so i answered it to find it was my ex, so i answered it and he asked me if i wanted to hang out with him for a while after college so i would, so he picked me up in his soft top car and we went for a ride..And we stopped in the local park and he turned to me and he said he misses me, and true to my word i miss him too.

We went to his place, and watched a movie together and we had hugs and cuddles and true to my word i just realised how much i miss him, id be a crap lier if i said i felt nothing when he held me and we fell asleep together and the kisses we're much sweeter than when we we're together originally, i just dont understand why i dumped him for an emo guy who enjoys messing with your mind or stringing you along.

And speaking of emo guy stringing me along, guess who had the cheek to message me on facebook today?, yeah, the emo guy!. I couldn't believe what he said, he said that even though he was spoken for (yet again) he still thought i was hot and that i should meet him again once he was single, and believe me i was in no mood so i just told him basically that he has been single loads and each time it feels like he forgets about me and goes off with someone else, i have no idea if i did the right thing there?, and he said he was sorry and that he'll get it right this time, and i was secretly thinking to myself i hope there isn't a next time, and i just basically told him i couldn't wait around anymore and he said i shouldn't wait around.

So again, i was speaking to my ex earlier, and of course this morning i really did think about yesterday really carefully and decided to take the plunge and ask him if he felt the same to trying again, and he spoke to me earlier and said that i should think about it more..i honestly do feel really stupid for sending that text, im just wondering if he doesn't trust me anymore or if ive hurt him or somethin', or does he need time? im just confused to all the signs here :(

Annd look how much ive rambled..Proper sorry about the essay i love keeping this place updated when i can =]..So thank you again for reading blushing

Love

Brunetteteen18 x sad flower
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Why Do I Bother!!

Honest to god, i have no idea why i bother. Its gonna be a relatively long story so i think you should get comfortable if you want to hear me out laugh

Firstly, my emo guy from facebook has a girlfriend again. After all the time he seemed so keen to meet me he's gone and done that again, i don't know why i waste my time with him. It just feels like he's stringing me along because im probably coming across as eager to meet him and he probably knows im easy to screw around, i think he knows i like him so of all the times he wanted to meet me and i said yes, and nothings ever come of it. i just dont know why people do this to me. Yes im a sucker for emo guys i think their very hot lol! sigh

So now i find myself back at square one in the guy department, in other words im nowhere, miserable and very upset about the emo guy which i know i shouldn't be but i am. Like i said in the other blog i like him that much it hurts, literally. I dont think im ever going to move on if he forgets about me anymore, we we're talking even before i went out with my ex boyfriend and now he has a girlfriend i just dont know where to turn or what to do.

I spoke to my cousin about it, and she thinks he's just messing me around too and she thinks the fastest way i can find an emo guy is to go out with her on St George's day not this Thursday but the Thursday after, me..Im not so sure about it yet, as much as i love my cousin very much, its just the thought of her and her boyfriend who've been together nearly a year and then theres me on my todd just staring into space everytime they facehug (Kiss)

Honestly, i have no idea what the hell to do. Its like ive lost my happiness now he has a girlfriend, it was like when he ended it with his last girlfriend i was grinning for days and everyone said i look good happy, and now the next time their gonna see me there gonna know whats happened instantly, my friends know me too well.

So now ive bored everyone, once again with my boy problems lol im sorry =(

Thanks for reading

Brunetteteen18 kiss
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It Finally Happened..

Well..I know i haven't been here for a few days but ive been too busy celebrating. :)

So, a few days ago my emo guy talked to me on msn and he came up saying that he'd dumped his girlfriend and he was single and could finally meet me, i wasn't so sure because ive had that trick pulled on me way too many times, so i checked his facebook and true to my eyes it did say Single, so i was like..Wow, and then i asked him if he was sad and this was shocking because he said no he was okay.

I know what i was like when i dumped mine, and i was the one doing the dumping, i cried for hours. Well guys must be emotionally stronger than woman i suppose im not really sure.

So yesterday i was suppost to be going on a date with him, and he came onto facebook late at night and he was like sorry i forgot all about it because he was busy with somethin', now i dunno if thats a valid excuse or not as ive heard nearly all the excuses in the book, so i just shurgged it off and said it was okay and so im hoping to meet him sometime soon and try my best to bag him because i like him that much its unreal. blushing

And all this time i have been sitting here when he was in a relationship wishing and hoping that he'd dump her and meet me and now it finally has happened, i do partly feel a little bad about it but hey, the guy i like is now available and that just cancels out the feeling of guilt :D

Im on easter holidays from college at the moment, for 2 weeks and when i get back im going to have loads to do because they want the portfolio in order ready for May and im not sure if i can do that because my folder is the size of a doorstep and they tell us we dont need half of it and im like, i wish someone told me this before i started reeling off my work and placing it in there, i dunno doh

So thats me done, i just wanted to come on and update this for the people who are interested/read this for somethin' to do lol laugh

Much Love

- Brunetteteen18 xheart1
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