Realising It..
Well, so much to say so little time as they say.Since i haven't been around in a few days now i have so much to talk about!, so taking everyone back to Thursday afternoon i was in lesson and my phone rang so i answered it to find it was my ex, so i answered it and he asked me if i wanted to hang out with him for a while after college so i would, so he picked me up in his soft top car and we went for a ride..And we stopped in the local park and he turned to me and he said he misses me, and true to my word i miss him too.
We went to his place, and watched a movie together and we had hugs and cuddles and true to my word i just realised how much i miss him, id be a crap lier if i said i felt nothing when he held me and we fell asleep together and the kisses we're much sweeter than when we we're together originally, i just dont understand why i dumped him for an emo guy who enjoys messing with your mind or stringing you along.
And speaking of emo guy stringing me along, guess who had the cheek to message me on facebook today?, yeah, the emo guy!. I couldn't believe what he said, he said that even though he was spoken for (yet again) he still thought i was hot and that i should meet him again once he was single, and believe me i was in no mood so i just told him basically that he has been single loads and each time it feels like he forgets about me and goes off with someone else, i have no idea if i did the right thing there?, and he said he was sorry and that he'll get it right this time, and i was secretly thinking to myself i hope there isn't a next time, and i just basically told him i couldn't wait around anymore and he said i shouldn't wait around.
So again, i was speaking to my ex earlier, and of course this morning i really did think about yesterday really carefully and decided to take the plunge and ask him if he felt the same to trying again, and he spoke to me earlier and said that i should think about it more..i honestly do feel really stupid for sending that text, im just wondering if he doesn't trust me anymore or if ive hurt him or somethin', or does he need time? im just confused to all the signs here :(
Annd look how much ive rambled..Proper sorry about the essay i love keeping this place updated when i can =]..So thank you again for reading
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