Stop thinking about it!
My minds in over drive. Over stupid things, all that ever swirls around in my head are problems!.Okay, so in March i managed to pull myself a date and it was kinda good, we got on pretty well and had quite a bit in common, but now im just not sure if he's right for me, he's 3 years my junior. Im nearly 21 and he's gonna be 24 next month and im so paranoid about what my parents will say, as they want me to have a good looking boyfriend and what not, their the typical shallow, old fashioned folks and it annoys me..Ohh its so complicated.
And then my ex is still chasing me and wants to see me soon, and to be honest i just want to be free of him but still talk to him as a friend, he does admit he still misses me and it messes with my mind even more, he has a girlfriend and thats what annoys me i guess!..How can anyone love someone who's like the otherside of the region or in a different one full stop?..From what ive learned long distance relationships just dont work and yet he's been with her forever..Arghh!!. lol!
..I dunno, my tempers just everywhere thesedays, so ive lied to him and told him and said i was on holiday, but i dont think i can keep him on that lie for very long. But the question is..Can a relationship reheal itself from like a year ago? 
I just wish i was one of those people who could find a perfectly handsome boyfriend, who was thoughtful, kind, funny and polite with no hitches whatsoever, and keep them for many years. But unfortunately my life lacks such luck i guess, i have so many problems with the male race..Its like you find someone you have feelings for and their either never returned or their never after anything more serious!..Ahh, its torture!!
What do you do here if your not interested in someone?, part of me feels bad for being rejectful of everyone who messages as half the time their too old, or just not my type..I feel awful just saying 'no thanks'..Or 'your not my type'..There must be a more subtler way of saying eww lol or no thanks?
Anyway, im boring everyone now so ill stop it and shut up about my problem filled life.
- Brunetteteen18
Comments (4)
I know that everyone craves the intimacy that we think is only available with an other. Truth is, if you can feel the love for yourself that you so want from a man, you will have the whole world to choose from. The whole world, because everyone and everything will look like Love when you love yourself. It will be reflected back to you everywhere you go.
If I had known this when I was your age...I can't even imagine how much more of my life would have been as joy filled as it has been in the few years since I have been practicing Self love. People think that means being selfish. Nothing could be further from the Truth! For you can only give what you have. And no one else can love you if you don't love yourself.
Wish there was an emoticon of a little guy on a soapbox.
find joy, bring joy and let the rest flow to you naturally.
Lol… Who doesn’t wish such kind of wishes and who can really fulfill such kinds of wishes?
Some people love crazily, as a result, they collapse like an earthen wall.
Some people are always dreaming, so they are always a step away from what they want.
If you ask what is the most beautiful thing in the world, love is absolutely a miracle.
You know, there is always a heart in the distance, no matter how far he is, you will always find him. You can even recognize him among so many people at the first sight.
Un beso
Julián