fallin for a wrong guy..

,dont know if u guys will understand my situition although i know its wrong and its just a part of god challenges..,but it cause so much pain in me,although i know he has his own family but i never did anything to brake them as a family,he is confused we both dont know what we are doin but we just only knew that were fallin from each other but its wrong..,iam single and his already merried his a good guy and nothing i can say his been good to me were been together for almost 2yrs,am always tellin him that do the right things dont stay with me cuz i feel guilty cuz dont want anything to happen with his family..,im not a badgirl or what i just fall and never expect that to fall for the merried man,i hate to hear from other people that im just mistress no one wants to be a mistress its just unexpected.,and time goes by he needs to leave for good..,my minds confused and this the 2nd time ive been hurted and maybe im really unlucky to love and be loved,i dont have any direction dont know either what am doin in this world im scared and im afraid to fall again cant start all over again,.,life is really unfair for me..,in my age ive been through lots of pain espritually ang physically..