It's not where, but what is your soulmate?
Related with my previous blog about quotes from Eat,Pray,LoveI have my mind occupied, thinking about the true meaning of soulmate.
I have four relationships in my whole life, I wouldn't call the two of them relationship though...
first relationship, he's my good friend, we have lots of things in common. really a lot. I said love in the night and ask for break up the next morning.I lost a very good friend because I mistaken comfort with love. (almost 3 years of friendship)
Second relationship, we met, we enjoy each other companion, and we had fun. Only short time, but no sadness and no regret. Just to clarify, all we did mostly just go to the cinema, eat dinner together, and hang out with friend in the cafe. So it's more like 'mate'. (2 months)
Third relationship, this is when all the pain begin. I would like say he's my 'first love'. I was so blind. I listened to everything he said..then learned that everything sweet he said once could never be kept. (1 year)
Fourth relationship, because I got burnt before, I tried not to keep my hope and expectation too high, I used my logic and lock up my feeling.However he exceed all of my expectation. But we want different things in life. And I decided to pursue my dream, not him. He met someone and I didn't fight for him. I don't deserve him.(8 months)
The broke up is still fresh, only two days ago. I made the decision but somehow I felt so scared that I have missed 'the one'. I continuously asked myself, "what if, what if he's my soulmate?"
Then I come to realization, that he is, and also the three previous guys. They all are my soulmate. I was happy and hurt by them. Quote my friend, Charmvarine from Thailand, said :
"Fortunately, I have to thanks for them. They made me even stronger, hotter, smarter, and more happy than before. I have more time for work, friends, family and myself. Right now it's time for me to enjoy my life."
I don't bother to find where is my soulmate. I already know what is soulmate. So love will find me again when it's time for me.
oh,and happy belated world vegan day!
Cheers,
Comments (4)
what i have been thinking is how to enjoy everyday.
Well mother_like I also enjoy my life, I really do, even I enjoy the bitter side too :)
@siebesiech
thanks for sharing too!
what you said also so true. There might be lies and fight in a relationship, but there is this mutual connection on the level of heart to heart as you called it :)
anyway I pas a visit on your profile, wow you live in Bali?That's cool. I went there quite a lot and will go there again this new year, big change of plan after the broke up. As Felipe in Eat,Pray,Love said : "Every body has love affair in Bali". I met him (my last bf) in Bali too. So many memories :)