thankful

tho im fat and ugly, im thankful im not quadripalegic.
tho i have a dead end job, im thankful for an income.
tho im lonely and single, im thankful i have family get-togethers to go to.
tho it is small, cold and lonely, im thankful i have an apartment to live in.
tho i have no one to talk to, im thankful that i can speak.
tho i have no ones pretty eyes to look into, im thankful that im not blind.
tho its a piece of crap rust bucket, im thankful for my jeep.
i could go on.
since it would be crazy to go out today on this black friday, i laid around a lot. i put up my meager mostly homemade christmas decorations, tho it is pointless since no one will see them. i still have the christmas stocking that my lovely ex gf gave me and the one that i made for her. ill probably throw them both away. as usual, ill get no tree, just a small fake one that doesnt even have to be put together. i call it my charlie brown tree, cuz it reminds me of the one he had. im glad that im doing fairly good money wise. i should be able to buy everyone presents who i need to buy for. it was nice to see my family at our thanksgiving feast, tho i didnt get to visit much, but i never do. the little brats running around were annoying as always. but it is a nice touch that my mother has a wood burning stove, so it feels very homey and cozy and all stuff. i baked a pumpkin cheesecake and made a tree design on top out of cinnamon. there is another little get-together at my sisters on sunday but its going to suck because my crotchety old pee soaked grandparents are going to be there. but im going, cuz if i wasnt id just be here alone again.