point of ridiculous

id say its reached the point of ridiculous now. thats the point where im starting to go from being hurt and sad, to almost being kind of amused. i had emailed my ex because she said wed talk in september and we didnt. and she didnt respond to my email, so now im like, its almost funny, the way she is a little con-artist. i sometimes think how nice it would be to able to approach the world the way women do, with the uncanny ability to twist reality around to suit themselves. i had read her blogs and she is actually saying that i had "betrayed her trust". in reality, what i had done is refuse to help her get gangf*cked by me and some other guys. that may be some peoples thing, but i guess im old fashioned. but i dated her for 3 years and i know her and i know what shes doing. shes going to not tell anyone that dirty little secret of hers so that way, tada! it magically never happened, and she looks like the little victim. i was starting to deal with her attempt at sluttiness but what i couldnt get over is how she kept trying to rewrite the past and say that she never actually wanted to do it. i wouldnt let her get away with those little head games, and i think thats why she dumped me. its so much easier to just get rid of the guy who knows your shameful secrets and find some other guy who doesnt know. that way, it never happened. so, anyway, its starting to be kinda sorta funny. i hope she has fun living in her little fantasy land.
but im thinking that no girl is going to want to date a guy who doesnt let her delude herself. but like i told my ex, if it makes you feel less guilty to tell yourself stuff that isnt true, go for it, but just dont try to get me to play along.