bang your dead
it seems foolish to me to talk about how lonely i am. the world is full of lonely ppl. nobody cares. its even made into a joke a lot of the time, by ppl who have someone.this isnt the place to talk about it, and i shouldnt, but i know just how id go. id do it in the bathtub so the mess would be easier to clean up. it would be quick, no chance of winding up a vegetable. id leave my front door unlocked so theyd have no trouble getting in to find my body. id make sure that it wouldnt be anyone in my family, especially my nephew who would find me, i wouldnt want to put him thru that. id leave my journals out to be found so that at least ppl might get to know who i am, after im gone.
it might seem like cutting something short, but i already know im not long for this world, whether it be by heart disease like my father or some cancer, its very likely that i will not live to see 50. that gives me less than 20 years and if they are to be as empty, cold and pointless as the majority of the ones ive already lived, it is best to not live them.
"twas not worth feeling what small fleeting joy life brings..."
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praying for you!!
you are here on earth for a purpose!