Alone
My most recent relationship failed after 4 days of being together. I think what I did wrong was…nothing. At this point I have learned enough from dating to know what not to do. I’m over it. If a man doesn’t want to invest his time into me then he’s not worth it. I’m back with a vengeance. Lol not really. It just sounded cool to say. I’m back with a cool air. Keep it low key they say. You don’t want to be high maintenance now they say. Guess what? I do not care. I know I’m not high maintenance. If I appear any way at any given moment it was just how I was feeling at that moment. I’m so tired of not being able to be myself. That’s all I feel relationships are. Gotta be someone else to hook em’. No I do not. I highly disagree. You get to the point where you date so much that being alone takes on a whole new meaning. In a sense that you can have peace and freedom…and happiness. It’s possible and I’m not going to let anyone tell me differently.I get joy now doing things for myself. The last 5 days my resting heart rate has lowered from pushing myself in the gym daily. I signed up for a CPR course on Friday so that I can advance professionally. I’m doing things that are important to my mental health and growth. It’s a real challenge just to keep the environment around me clean. It’s a daily struggle. I get a sense of fulfillment when I actually do keep it clean. I may not be where everyone else is in life but feeling my own sense of achievement is what’s important to me. I don’t compare anymore. I can’t. It gets me down every time.
Oh and I have long flowing mermaid hair again. Very happy about that. And there are no knots. Lol. Having hair this long can get stinking difficult.
Comments (10)
Nice to read you have learn how to better treat yourself.
Never change for another. If you're not compatible move on.
I think we all have puzzle pieces, but I can't find my fit either.
Nice to read you have learn how to better treat yourself.
Never change for another. If you're not compatible move on.
I think we all have puzzle pieces, but I can't find my fit either.
Thanks for the welcome. Good to see you.
As for being alone, I'm sure you will find a really good guy.