looking to a future of lottery and love ...

So what do I want for 2012? True love, happiness, lottery win? Well, they'd all be nice and I'm sure with the latter the first 2 might become if not a little more attainable, then at least easier to live without

A quote from Shakespeare has come to mind several times - and it is to this I aspire, yes I fear I may be a trifle melodramatic but what the hell ...

Perdition catch my soul, But I do love thee; and when I love thee not, Chaos is come again.
I want that churning, irrational and despairing emotion that we get from those heady days of romance - when a day can be made by his smile or broken by his silence.

I was talking to somebody this evening who finds themselves deep in the heart of chaos, only partly of their making and to them I have to say - faint heart never won fair lady.
As things stand you face only uncertainty, perhaps it is time to see which way the die is cast - you're actions will not seal your fate, only clarify your future.
Be brave young warrior! Send that card but write a small note and place your heart within it - search for the words you really want to say, not the ones that you feel that she may need or want to hear.


Finally, spare a thought for a really special lady and her 2 children who lost their partner and daddy suddenly today, he was just 38 and count your many blessings.