HERE I AM THE GUY WITH NO HEART " WHY " COS SOME

I LOST MARRAGE THIS YEAR !!!!! I LOST LOVE THIS YEAR I LOST JOB THIS YAER I EVEN NERLY LOST MY LIFE THIS YEAR UNTIL I FOUND SOMEONE I LOVED AND THEN THEY WENT AND I LOST AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY ME I SAY MY EXS AL WAYS SAID BE STRONG GET YOUR LIFE BACK ITS EASY TO SAY BUT WHEN YOU WERE ENGAED TO BE MARRYED THEN THEY DUMMP YOU WHEN YOU HAD LIFE PLAND THEN FIND ANOUGHT THEN THE SAME HAPPENS AGAIN ............. ITS HARDER THEN YOU THINK I WAS TOLD TO EVEN JUMMP BACK IN TO MY JOB BY THE GIRL AS I JUST HAD NEVES BRAKE DOWN AND THEN I WENT BACK AND SECOND BRAKE DOWN HAPPEND AGAIN AS IT WAS TO SOON BUT I JUST WANTED TO GET BACK THERE COS WERE I LOST THE LOVE OF MY LIFE ........... I WAS FINDING IT HARD TO START EVEN TO MEET THE OTHERE ... NOW I REALISE THAT SHES GONE COS I BROUGHT UP SOME THING THAT MY EX DONE WHICH WAS STOLE MY MONEY .......... AND I EXSPLAND TO THE OTHERE GGIRL AND SHE SAY I LIED TO HER COS I WOULD NOT TALK AGAIN BUT I TOLD HER I DID IT WHICH WAS TALK ONLY TO GET MY MONEY BACK THOUGH.......... BUT LISS GIRL DIDNT REALISE HOW MUCH SHE HURT ME YES I DID FOREGIVE HER I EVEN SAY SORRY WHEN I NOT NEED TO AS SHE NEED TO LEAN PUNISHMENT FOR STELING I HAD TO AS I WENT TO PRISON AND I BEEN THOUGHT SHIT LARST YEAR THAT WHY WANTED TO CHANGE THIS YEAR BUT I LOST MARRAGE.... I FEEL IN TO DRINKING FOR MONTHS AND I WENT TO DOCTOR COS I TRYED TO COMITE SUCIDE........ AND THE DOC WANTED TO GIVE ME DEPRESTION TABS BUT I NOT TAKE AS I BEEN THERE BEFORE AND MESS ME UP MORE AND COUNCELERS WAIT 3 TO 4 MOTHS TO SEE SO I HAD TO TRY SOME THING SO I DECIDED TO JOYEN CHURCH AND YER IT HELPED BUT IN SIDE YOUR SELF IS WERE YOU GOT TO BEGING AGAIN IT WAS LIKE CLIMING A TALL MOUNTING FOR MONTHS EVEN YEARS SOME DAYS YOU GET THROUGH THEN YOU FALL BACK TO BEGINING........ IM SLOWLY GETING THERE BUT WE ALL GET OLDFER IN TIME ,,,,,, AND WANT THING TO HAPPEN NOW.......... SO I JUST PRAY EVEN WISH SOME TIMES THAT THINGS WILL CHANGE I COULD TELL YOU ABOUT WERE I GROW UP EVEN THEN WAS WOEST TIMES SEEING BEST FRIEND DIE AND BEING BULLED ALL MY LIFE AT SCHOOL .... MY PERENTS BROKE UP RELASTIONSHIP SEE THATS WERE IT STARTED REJECTION FROM FRIENDS LOVES FAMILY AND FROM LOSS AND THATS WHY WE HAVE PIT FULLS FROM PARST THAT WHY IM HERE TODAY TO SAY WE ALLL LOVE AND LIVE FOR HAPPENESS SO WHY ARE THERE THESE STILL BRAKE UPS AND SHORT RELATIONSHIP AS THESE DAYS POEPLE GIVE UP TO EASY AND FALL OUT OVER THE SILLYES THINGS THE OLD DAY EVER ONE WOULD MARRY BUT NOW POEPLE ARE MORE INDRPEDENT THAT WHY THES TO MUCH CONFLICKED IN IT JUST TREASURE WHAT YOU GOT AND MAKE IT WORK AS THESE NEVER ANOUGHT TIME !!!!!!!!!!! SO MAKE TIME AND APRECEEAT IT WILE IT THERE LOVE COMUNCATE AND AND SHARE AS THESE ONLY PURE VALUE IN ! LIFE TIME GOOD NIHGHT AND GOD BLESS EVERY ONE MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERY ONE ...... AND HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVE SIME !!!!!!!!!!!!!