Sad from a lost.

I been into music since I was little. singing and playing guitar. I had some ups and downs in my life. Tried to Overdose once. Been in the hospital 3 times. Now I try to turn my life around. Went back to music and it's been really good. But in the same time I been drinking a lot. My anxiety is getting worst the more I drink, because of the hangovers I get for drinking days at a time.

I trying to cut down and stay away from the friends who drink alot and locked my self at home. I felt the side effects of depression again. After hearing this girl who is 15 took her own life a couple of days ago. I felt really sad, because I would of committed the same actions as she did before. Now she's gone and I'm really down and sad about the news.

I look outside everynight and think about the goodtimes I've had. Is it worth losing your life over someone who took theres by there own hands? I play guitar and write about it all night yesterday. cried sometimes , thinking about the song the news put for the late girls tribute video. I darken myself from sunny days and play guitar and sing in the darkness. thinking about her. Sad. very sad.