lonely while others are happily in love

Hi SPCG, no I don't identify with that in that way.
I'm fairly realistic, I have too many friends and family members who are divorced or where a relationship is not going well. Personally my focus wouldn't be on the fact of getting married and babies, but to have a relationship in which both are happy and can make it work. If that works for a good while, then works for living together for a while, then I would see about the rest. It's sad, but I don't currently envy anyone of my family or friends the relationship they are in.

Another thing I observed is, how can someone expect to be happy with another person if they are not happy with themselves? Desperation or wanting something badly, what kind of people does this attract? No one who wants a healthy, equal relationship is my guess...

I do wish you best of luck.

my brothers and sisters are married too, 3 of my nieces have children and the oldest almost 8 yrs old.. (so indirectly am a grandmom .. )

indeed sometimes i feel sad, when in my big family had a family event, usually every 2 months, cos i came alone without a chaperone. but in my belief said that mate and death are prerogative of God, then am sincere with this situation, it make me feel enjoy it. i assume them like my own grandchildren, encouraging them to play, go to the mall, watch a movie..

You may not have someone to live with at the moment, but you have plenty of time to do anything you like while you're still single. Go and mingle more, taking new activity, taking job overseas, traveling solo, making new friends and so on. Cheer up and good luck.

Thanks for commenting, for the advice.
K Nenagh, thanks for the comment. I am happy in myself. I have done a LOT of thinking over the past few years and really know what's important to me. I'm not desperate. I wouldn't want just any man. I am in good form most of the time, love smiling, laughing etc but I do sometimes think of being happily in love and it can make me sad.