I'm not what I think I am. ( Archived) (57)

Nov 21, 2006 4:37 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
gentlepaws
gentlepawsgentlepawsAny town, Ontario Canada1,019 Threads 13 Polls 9,583 Posts
Just when you think that your past baggage wouldn't fill a tea-cup, it swells to the size of a Greyhound bus. I experienced this recently and I wasn't ready for it. There are some triggers that hide away deep within us, just waiting to be pulled. In my case someone placed a bullet in the chamber and I pulled the trigger. I shot myself in the foot, then the bullet ricocheted and hit someone else.

I am not all that I think I am. I live. I learn. And with more experience I trust that my baggage will fit and stay in a thimble. Paws
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Nov 21, 2006 4:42 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
TabooN
TabooNTabooNClaremont, USA47 Threads 12,843 Posts
leo,

I don'r have the years on me that you do...though I feel a century or more alot...

My feeling is this;

We do not get past it. We carry it with is, and embrace every experience we've had. Like a patched up, well worn coat. It is all of us. Every smile, tear, shout, and whisper. Every slap, touch, and kiss...
Nothing should be forgotten. When we do, powers that be remind us of just how small we are, and that is a nasty lesson most times.

Hugs to you.
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Nov 21, 2006 4:44 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
gentlepaws
gentlepawsgentlepawsAny town, Ontario Canada1,019 Threads 13 Polls 9,583 Posts
Other than making me feel ancient, you make a good point. Leo
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Nov 21, 2006 4:52 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
TabooN
TabooNTabooNClaremont, USA47 Threads 12,843 Posts
hell, I don't make you feel ancient.

I do that myself just fine.lol
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Nov 21, 2006 4:59 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
rivame
rivamerivamemelbourne, Victoria Australia54 Threads 3 Polls 4,601 Posts
Paws I cant imagine you hurting anyone deliberately,so please be gentle on yourself.We do not live in a perfect world and best laid plans and intentions can go astray.I like to think we can get rid of baggage and most of us strive for that, but deep pain,insecurities,etc often reappear when least expected.When this happens to me I try to work out why and how to better deal with it in the future. Do any of us REALLY know ourselves.hug
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Nov 21, 2006 5:01 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
Mike1162
Mike1162Mike1162Over the Rainbow, Pennsylvania USA70 Threads 1,694 Posts
Each turn we take, Each new path we choose, Each and every decision we make adds another bullet to the chamber Leo.

Everyone owns a full metal jacket just waiting to be fired.

When the trigger is pulled we hope there is a misfire, however this doesn't always happen. When the bullet gets set free someone is going to be hurt.

Look back on your life and understand where you went wrong. Deal with whatever happened because it is now in your past. In your past is where it belongs.

Make peace with yourself and then make peace with the one(s) that your bullet hit.

There is no changing the past but there can be peace found in understanding what went wrong.



handshake
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Nov 21, 2006 5:01 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
gentlepaws
gentlepawsgentlepawsAny town, Ontario Canada1,019 Threads 13 Polls 9,583 Posts
"Do any of us REALLY know ourselves" ? We often think we do. I have my doubts. Paws
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Nov 21, 2006 5:02 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
SimonCowellsMum
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Nov 21, 2006 5:08 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
gentlepaws
gentlepawsgentlepawsAny town, Ontario Canada1,019 Threads 13 Polls 9,583 Posts
I'm not blaming myself or anyone else. Neither can I hang the blame on the past. Lessons learned day by day. Growing up. I'm 60, 42, 15, 55, 5. Tonight I'm 28. Paws
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Nov 21, 2006 5:09 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
TabooN
TabooNTabooNClaremont, USA47 Threads 12,843 Posts
Don't you feel we can be at peace with ourselves and carry with us?

I liked your analogy, though.
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Nov 21, 2006 5:10 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
WhiteAsh
WhiteAshWhiteAshTurtle Lake, Wisconsin USA7 Threads 688 Posts
I have wondered this myself. Sometimes, I think I have it all figured out, then some one says something that makes me change my mind. But then again how we see ourselves in the mirror,is not always how others see us.
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Nov 21, 2006 5:12 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
SimonCowellsMum
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Nov 21, 2006 5:14 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
gentlepaws
gentlepawsgentlepawsAny town, Ontario Canada1,019 Threads 13 Polls 9,583 Posts
When we look in the mirror, we are us. All of us. Different mirrors, same us. Paws
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Nov 21, 2006 5:15 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
AdventureBegins
AdventureBeginsAdventureBeginsZanesville, USA66 Threads 1,718 Posts
I have no words to give credence to this statement...

Therefore I will quote the monkey from lion king.

'What does it matter... It's in the past'

grin

AB
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Nov 21, 2006 5:15 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
SimonCowellsMum
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Nov 21, 2006 5:16 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
Mike1162
Mike1162Mike1162Over the Rainbow, Pennsylvania USA70 Threads 1,694 Posts
Absolutely we can be at peace with ourselves and still carry the baggage from the past.

It is just when the past comes back to haunt us like Leo has just gone through that the peace and solice must be found before moving on.
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Nov 21, 2006 5:16 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
Assets52
Assets52Assets52Littleton, New Hampshire USA125 Threads 2,174 Posts
Very smart monkey!
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Nov 21, 2006 5:18 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
PeachesandCream
PeachesandCreamPeachesandCreamConcord, North Carolina USA43 Threads 675 Posts
Paws, we All have bagage..it's called our History in life...it shapes us in positive ways and shapes us in negative ways...it makes us stronger in some things and more vulnerable in other things...You're a Very Adored Gentleman here on CS..so you may modestly say you're not what you think you should be or even what you thought you were, but the CS Panel...ranks you at least a 10 applause hug
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Nov 21, 2006 5:18 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
RedHeadedTaurus
RedHeadedTaurusRedHeadedTaurusHere, Michigan USA17 Threads 1 Polls 8,455 Posts
thumbs up
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Nov 21, 2006 5:18 PM CST I'm not what I think I am.
TabooN
TabooNTabooNClaremont, USA47 Threads 12,843 Posts
I was thinking along that line. was curious, though.

thanks=o)
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