Just when you think that your past baggage wouldn't fill a tea-cup, it swells to the size of a Greyhound bus. I experienced this recently and I wasn't ready for it. There are some triggers that hide away deep within us, just waiting to be pulled. In my case someone placed a bullet in the chamber and I pulled the trigger. I shot myself in the foot, then the bullet ricocheted and hit someone else.
I am not all that I think I am. I live. I learn. And with more experience I trust that my baggage will fit and stay in a thimble. Paws
I don'r have the years on me that you do...though I feel a century or more alot...
My feeling is this;
We do not get past it. We carry it with is, and embrace every experience we've had. Like a patched up, well worn coat. It is all of us. Every smile, tear, shout, and whisper. Every slap, touch, and kiss... Nothing should be forgotten. When we do, powers that be remind us of just how small we are, and that is a nasty lesson most times.
Paws I cant imagine you hurting anyone deliberately,so please be gentle on yourself.We do not live in a perfect world and best laid plans and intentions can go astray.I like to think we can get rid of baggage and most of us strive for that, but deep pain,insecurities,etc often reappear when least expected.When this happens to me I try to work out why and how to better deal with it in the future. Do any of us REALLY know ourselves.
Mike1162Over the Rainbow, Pennsylvania USA1,694 posts
Each turn we take, Each new path we choose, Each and every decision we make adds another bullet to the chamber Leo.
Everyone owns a full metal jacket just waiting to be fired.
When the trigger is pulled we hope there is a misfire, however this doesn't always happen. When the bullet gets set free someone is going to be hurt.
Look back on your life and understand where you went wrong. Deal with whatever happened because it is now in your past. In your past is where it belongs.
Make peace with yourself and then make peace with the one(s) that your bullet hit.
There is no changing the past but there can be peace found in understanding what went wrong.
I'm not blaming myself or anyone else. Neither can I hang the blame on the past. Lessons learned day by day. Growing up. I'm 60, 42, 15, 55, 5. Tonight I'm 28. Paws
I have wondered this myself. Sometimes, I think I have it all figured out, then some one says something that makes me change my mind. But then again how we see ourselves in the mirror,is not always how others see us.
PeachesandCreamConcord, North Carolina USA675 posts
Paws, we All have bagage..it's called our History in life...it shapes us in positive ways and shapes us in negative ways...it makes us stronger in some things and more vulnerable in other things...You're a Very Adored Gentleman here on CS..so you may modestly say you're not what you think you should be or even what you thought you were, but the CS Panel...ranks you at least a 10
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I am not all that I think I am. I live. I learn. And with more experience I trust that my baggage will fit and stay in a thimble. Paws