i want to but im so scared ( Archived) (32)

i need some advice and i guess that imthinking sometimes talking to strangers about something like this is better than talking to someone who does know me. so if you care to comment or tell me your thought i will be more than happy to listen to what everyone says.


a little over a year ago i was involved in a car accident. it took the life of my very beloved finace and also caused me severe injury in my right leg and ankle. i was in the hospital for 5 weeks and 3 weeks into being in there not only did i learn that my finace had died ( he lived for almost 19 days ) but that the injury was so great that i would most likely never be able to dance ( ballet ) professionally again. i was devastated to say the least the two things i loved most in life were now gone. i had to move back in with my dad after soming home from the hospital because i was still unable to move around without someone always having to assist me. i have always been extremly close with my dad but after several weeks of being back home and with all the things that had happened i just broke and one night after a rather big fight with my dad and brother i packed a bag and called a cab and went to the airport. i didnt know where i was going i just wanted to get as far away as i could possibly get from where everything had happened. in my anger and upset i didnt leave my dad anything telling him that i had left or where i had gone. lately i have regretted that action so much and i just want to call him and talk to him yet there is another part of me that just cnt erase what was said between us ( id rather not disclose that part) and i dont think my heart is ready to forgive.


please share your thoughts


-sam

Wow girl you need time for yourself and when you are ready it will feel right for you to talk to him GOOD LUCK SWEETIE!!!!!!


Breelynn

Sam--I believe in life, family is all we have to rely on (for most people). I implore you to call your dad and mend fences. Go back home and try to get a hold back on your life. Make decisions from a solid base...home. I am sorry for all the heartache you have been through. I have a friend who became paralyzed in an auto accident, and he went through alot of the same things you are going through. He fought like crazy with his family, but it was more out of agony and misery on my friends part, and out of frustration from his parents part. But they eventually found their way to each other, and he had a solid base to make very important life decisions. He is now very successful, and has a great relationship with his parents. So try to go back home and you make the 1st move towards reconcilliation with your dad...he will appreciate it and you will too in the long run. God Bless and good luck.

I would call. You do not have to forgive But this will open that door.

Sam,

What is past is past, you can't change it but you can make amends and move on. I can't walk in your shoes and tell you how to make things better but there is nothing which can not be worked out as long as both parties are willing to try. Many small steps will bridge the distance between you. Having lost family members and friends the one thing that I have learned is to never hesitate to tell them that you love them because it only takes a moment and you can always remember that moment in time when they are no longer with you. Good luck with your life and make every moment count.

do they have any idea wether your dead or alive?

You've beem dealt some huge emotional blows.. Take the time you need to deal with all that has happened.

If you don't want to talk to your Dad maybe you can just se3nd him a card???

Hope all goes well for you..

no. i havent had any contact with anyone from back home.