Our Pasts!!!!! ( Archived) (148)

Sometimes I wonder just what my past experiences in this department has taught me; what have I learned that is really of any significance; does it really matter in the end...
Aside from the irritating little things that grow into most relationships and continue to grow if left alone, watered with disregard and neglect, they grow into big things that eventually can call for rather drastic measures for different people...ie. toe nail clipping in bed...%D
The problem seems to be that whatever it was I learned , the same or even similar circumstances never repeat themselves to apply that knowledge; those lessons. In the end those lessons do ever seem applicable, so where does that leave one? What was the purpose of it all; the pains, the heartache, the tears, the despondency....Maybe for the other person their lessons become applicable to their situation, then again perhaps not.....I gave up trying to make any sense of it all and just watch others try and cope with their own situations that sometimes they need to tell you or someone about...and once in a while you find yourself thinking that 'I wish that I had someone even with that problem'...but no, you have no one. Your only hope is that in Time the memories will fade along with whatever lessons you may have learned as you try and deal with your immediate reality that you are not part of anyone else's reality...day by day...Is it any wonder that at times I hate this particular reality...