Today the much stronger woman decided that the child inside who found something special for the 4th time and was crushed needs to be protected, and these men who promise to protect her I can see will always hurt her, she's too crushed to feel right now so the woman is putting her into a gold soft cage with love and gentle bubbles and sending her to the clouds where my angel Julie will keep her safe..
The woman left behind is stronger alone and will in time grow hard and be able to cope.
For now she doesn't need to feel too much and maybe even that in time will fade, the yearning to be held and wanted, loved and protected and to give my whole soul and body will die and I will have peace..