Fear
Is a simple thing but it eats me up inside
It tells me lies
Controlling my perception when I let it drive
Then there is the sound
Of electric blue letting in a melodic tune
That brings me down
As my eyes follow the music that I find in you
Reminding me
of who I really am and who hides behind this mask
Is just a boy that never grows
Only a longer list of more hurting truths to add
Then I take a band aid
and I stick it to my head
As I try to learn the definition
of failing self acceptance

Behind a box of excuses
the shelf is growing mold
Of all the time that I've waisted
and you still kept your eyes closed

Sober
Is the affect of my flesh growing mad
And death
Seems to be the only solution to being sad
I build my faith up
Just to let realization bring it back down
As I held your face up
My eyes were lost inside the clouds
How can I return
to find my life again
I sit here in silence
And my smile just pretends
Don't say that it will be OK
And that this is just a phase
I have been pushing this rock uphill
now it seems for days

As your voice speaks in words
That I have never heard
I began to realize
that this hell is something that I deserve