She told me to let go it's not that I haven't tried
To get past all the darkness keeping me from the light
When I wake up in the morning before the sunrise
I'm still trapped in this nothing that I've kept inside
So don't be alarmed that I'll have to lie
When you ask if Im ok and I say that Im fine
It's to keep me from falling to pieces or falling too deep
To not see their dead faces when I go back to sleep
I thought it'd get better, but it only gets worse
And the older I get the more echoes are stirred
But please understand I need to clear the air
Free from suggestions and not living in fear
My first defense and armor are my skin and my bones
So I sandblasted my flesh then tore down the walls from my home
Now my friends and my family can see where I've been
I wear this all on my sleeve theres no need to pretend
I've battled addiction, myself, and the end
I fought with my demons, but I didn't win
If I ever felt peace that part of me died in sand
Trapped with the lives that I cannot give back
If you believed theres a Heaven than how would you feel
To know that nothing could save you from going to hell
I should have said this all sooner and made you aware
Because I'll choke to death if I don't clear the air
~ JJf ~
Comments (25)
You are truly wonderful Poet with great talent
Just joking Jesse we know you aren't vain
Takes a real poet
to write and share
the darkness
with the light!
we know the abyss
all to well,
and the only way
to breathe is with your pen.
But you knew this!
Great read, thought provoking
reminded me of many I know
in this place
~SAS
And produces the best writes !
Loved this.........Mick.
Ken
A very cathartic write baring all that which make up who you are. Your body and your soul..Never mind that you have to hide a little bit of the truth within the confines of your own cell, just let it be that you will try to be understood when all is said and done.
The last lines are the most powerful testament of wanting to bare the truth, no matter the angst and pain that comes with it.
And so it goes my loved brother.
Powerful write as always from you...
Your WCS who will always love you...
Mahal din kita....
I wear this all on my sleeve theres no need to pretend"
Only proves the beauty of your heart my dearest friend!
Rob