MY NIGHTS


Here alone in the deep dark night
Waiting for the things that give me fright
Nasty memories
Of people lost and gone
And broken affairs
A hundred schemes that came to nought

Of being alone
But not wanting to be a burden
Aware of my age
Of my state of health
And my chances slim
Of reunions
Or new meetings
Of hearts and minds

Hating to be awake
But dreading the dreams


Contemplating life
In the dark
The equation with two x's
What does it mean
The endless enigma of life

Cryptic clues
That cannot be solved
The way of the World
And the suffering in it
And to be able to do nothing

All are sleeping
Drunk or have been paid
Or are getting laid
Or are softly asleep

All but me
A sentinel
In the velvet
Of the night