Sparkling hazel eyes
laughter filling up the room
screaming and giggling
Out of breath chasing runaway balloons
five or six I can't recall
the years flew by
zoooooooooooooom zooooooooooooooooom lol

your elfin charm
sucked me in
I never had a chance
at times it was hard
being led on a merry dance
teaching me
lessons to be learned
that sometimes stepparents
have to earn
the right to be part of a
ready made family

daring brave heart girl
gutsy one
how you survived
us idiot adults
I will never comprehend
Too many times
you just needed a friend
at my best I was your champion
at worst I let you down

You toughened up over the years
angry words and tears
rebellion and trouble
following you
parents not always around
metamorphose to a teen
defined by attitude
and a ever present frown
Lisa Pizza turned
into bad a** girl
You couldn't depend on any of us
in your mixed up world
when you were only thirteen
your friend's life was
ended
just down the street

Struggling now a single mom
trying to mother your little boys
mommyhood and responsibilities
just as you put away your own toys
seeking some direction
not always knowing where to go
my dearest hope
that sorrow and anger
will be replaced with peace
and grace
when the time is right
a loving deserving man
will show you life can be very very sweet


no flawless humans exist
certainly not me
not quite everything
a stepmonster should be lol
Was ignorant and selfish
lacked clarity
whatever happens
as we travel this journey
I am glad I loved you darlin
as precious as if you were my daughter
and not a soul
can take that away from me