I’ve fought hard, over and over again, trying to reach someone, trying to reach love…
I’ve only found pain, deception and people fooling me all the time…
What now?
My only decision is to give up, to forget and never look back!
My only hope, for the sake of my feelings safety is to look no more, to hope no more, to quit this hopeless quest that leads nowhere…
I’ve quit all I’ve dreamed, I’ve gave up on all I’ve ever wanted, I’ve lost all desire for more…
Wasn’t that bound to happen? How couldn’t it be if all I’ve ever got was one way or another hurting my soul?
I’ve closed myself, I’ve restricted the access to who I really am!
I’ve built a wall of cement bricks, reinforced it will steel and lead layer after layer so that no attack can reach me no more…
I’m still reinforcing it, enlarging my defenses, perfecting my shield…
My only consideration is that this might prevent from the true one for actually reaching me… But hey, that has not happened and it will most likely not happen, so what do I care??? Anyway, I’ll be better off behind my shielding protection, that way I might be sour and lonely but at least I won’t be having the deep painful pain of deception and mischief…
There’s no hope for the future, but there’s also no wishes (or that’s what it’ll look like…) …

Goodbye my friends, the hopeful dreamer is gone…


João Henrique da Silva Nunes Jales Ribeiro @ 19:46 – 9/8/2010