Love for me is my son and family whom I immensely love @ will die for,...my bf whom I'm not willing to die for but I would also love @ I'll do so much to see him happy,...good friends whom I'll do my best to value and nature which I'll do my best to take good care of and make better.
Nice blog, just made me realized that I'm quiet lucky...I wouldn't change a thing , things happened for a reason , I wouldn't be where I am now or who I am now if those things didn't happened.
I'm ok...any good things that will come will be considered as bonuses....
That's what I'm trying to do...find a way how to make it work but I'm only willing to go halfway. I really don't have the heart to make someone who's loving me that much unhappy. I feel quiet lucky but it's overwhelming and threatens my freedom and independence...the word marriage gives me goosebumps.
Hi Mimi! It's ok to cry...if it makes you really feel good, cry till you feel better. I did that too when my ex husband and I had to go our separate ways. Crying did make me feel great but then when I look at the mirror the next morning and see myself looking so bad, I felt angry at myself for crying.
Those worst days of my life made me do some crazy things too: I got drunk, I went out of the house in the middle of the night not knowing where to go and to top it all I jumped into a rebound relationship that made things worse.
Those things I did were part of my grieving process. I woke up one morning, put my favorite music, felt good and greet the day with a big smile and I realized then that I'm ok and don't want to be a loser all my life. I decided then to wear a smile and get a new life. I did just that, now I'm feeling better and found good friends here on CS .
There was a time when my ex wanted to have me back but I already grieved and not interested to go through that grieving process again. Now I feel free and stronger...happier cos I let go of those miserable experiences and didn't even save them in my memory...it worked for me.
I hope you'll find much happiness when you wake up the next morning...
I'm not sure that only one person in love is enough to make the relationship work..but maybe just maybe, I could give it try again but within my boundaries this time around.
You're one of the good ones I admire here on the blogland too...It wouldn't be complete without you and our other friends here.
Don't worry, I always come out of any vicious cycle...I'm kinda relentless when I badly want something. I have tremendous self respect, honesty and love for others that bring colors and spices in my life and guide me to where it is that I want to be.
With so many things going on with me, all at the same time , I'm in a dilemma.
I've tried to move on a year ago but he didn't accept it. I know how much he cares about me and did many things to make me happy so I feel guilty and somehow pressured to do my part to make the relationship work.
Few months back I simply didn't think about this complicated relationship, I do my thing and didn't let it bother me but now I've reached a point where I have to face it and make a decision...not an easy one,
It's kinda difficult to sort things out when you and your partner want different things...But I have loyalty and honesty on my side that somehow help sort out the problems...hoping for the best here.
Hi Ekself! After being married for 10 that ended in divorce almost three years ago, I start to believe that marriage doesn't wholely define the relationship. When I got married, it was perfect , a perfect life with the perfect guy but it didn't last forever. What's the point of getting married if we can't keep our vows for a lifetime?
I want to have someone but he wants a "perfect relationship" . I don't think there's such thing. I'll be happy to share part of my life with him but not to totally change it for him. Now we've come to a point where I have to chose to give in to him or we go our separate ways which he is not willing to do also. I don't feel good being pressured but I don't like the feeling of losing him either.
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Tainted love...
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