Maria, my first crush, a year older than I am. I knew her since we were toddlers, our dads used to hang out (hippy stoners). Now she's a stoner herself, a new boyfriend every other week from what her family says, I haven't seen her in years...hope she straightens her life out.
Anastasia, a bold little redhead who still haunts me, she tested my principles and I turned down many men's dream. She proposed marriage if I would "play house" with herself and her sister...who was on the bed next to her...
I'm afraid because I've been conditioned to believe that there will only one true love of my life, that destiny will sweep us along and we should be happy forever. I'm afraid because I think that once I find that person, they won't love me for who I am. I'm afraid because I think that if I fall in love I'll be locked into a certain role. Mostly, I'm afraid because I've been burned before and I don't want to go through that again.
We're learning creatures; if we learn that something hurts us, we don't want to do it again.
I'm afraid because I've been conditioned to believe that there will only one true love of my life, that destiny will sweep us along and we should be happy forever. I'm afraid because I think that once I find that person, they won't love me for who I am. I'm afraid because I think that if I fall in love I'll be locked into a certain role. Mostly, I'm afraid because I've been burned before and I don't want to go through that again.
We're learning creatures, if we learn that something hurts us, we
I was out standing on third story scaffolding today, holding OSB (chipboard) and the scaffolding shifted a foot to one side under the weight of my coworkers...looking down at the scrap boards and shingles below that were full of nails...and I thought to myself...I need a new career.
There seem to be two places for Cali girls to settle/migrate through, SC and OK...I've lived in both. So far they all meet stereotypes...Like...What's that about?
Whatever you do, make your decision final because flip-flopping between relationships is an unhealthy way to go. You could lose your friend perminantly or you could end up losing both, matters of the heart are fickle that way.
There are so many other "catches" out there, I think you know the answer that will make you happy. If you would feel guilty, your heart has already made the decision, IMHO.
...And a woman's intuition is an incredibly bad thing to ignore.
Pretty sure hers is the same as mine. ...and Dusty's and Asianboys' and...
My belief is that true religion is in right action, respect and compassion for others, beyond that, we can argue until we find die...then we'll know after we've wasted our time (that was supposed to be used tending the "garden.") Honoring our position in the world by honoring those above and below.
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G'night.
Wall socket, I haven't tried that one. I'm such a noob.
Time for travels in Europe, hillbilly edition.
RE: first loves
Maria, my first crush, a year older than I am. I knew her since we were toddlers, our dads used to hang out (hippy stoners). Now she's a stoner herself, a new boyfriend every other week from what her family says, I haven't seen her in years...hope she straightens her life out.Anastasia, a bold little redhead who still haunts me, she tested my principles and I turned down many men's dream. She proposed marriage if I would "play house" with herself and her sister...who was on the bed next to her...
Ow...