I have chronic progressive Multiple Sclerosis. I'm not in a wheelchair yet, but will be someday. My motor skills are not what they used to be, my eyesight and memory are failing me. I take 19 different medications a day.....all due to exacerbated peoblems from the MS.....plus I take injections 3 times a week just to attempt to slow the progression.
I still thank God every day for what I DO have, and try not to dwell on the independence I have gradually lost. Do I blame God for my illness? NO!!!
Thank you again everyone. My kids and I had a great Thanksgiving together. 'Cept we all ate too much, as usual. My daughter and son-in-law offered to clean up the kirchen.....but before they did, they decided to finish off the 3 different bottles of wine that had been opened (to save space in the refrigerator of course). I woke up from my 'nap' after dinner around 11pm to hear this laughing and giggling coming from the kitchen. When I went to see what was going on......my daughter was lying on the kitchen floor and my son-in-law was trying desperately to get her up......both of them laughing hysterically. When I asked 'What happened?'......my daughter looked at me very seriously and said 'I drink we thank too much wine, Mom'. The dishes still weren't done......I just my eyes and went back to bed.
I would like to have ALL FOUR of my grown adult children and my grandchildren home for a change. We just can'r seem to make it happen.
Other than that....I would of course want world peace and for every child throughout the world to have enough food to eat, warm beds to sleep in where they could dream about all the wonderful fun things a child should dream.....instead of the daily terror and heartache some live with. It's going to take a lot of adults to ever make this happen.
First of all.....I'd like to thank those of you who offered your help and support during this past week or so. On top of being sick again, I think I was finally feeling the true impact of my aunts death just one month ago. She raised me and 2 of my brothers from the time we were babies, so she has always been more like a mother to me and I love her so much.
I have taken this time to reflect on my life and the daily problems I face with my illness. I took a good look at how fortunate I am to have 4 wonderful and healthy children and 3 grandchildren, as well as all my brothers and sisters and friends who truly care about me and my well being. And once again I had to slap myself and say 'What the hell is wrong with you?' 'Life is not always a bowl of cherries, so get off the pity pot and thank God every day for what you do have instead of moaning about what you don't have'.
As I have said in my profile, I am female, Irish, Catholic, and a Capricorn.......which makes me prone to be a fighter and stubborn at times. I have had MS for nearly 15 years now and dealt with it. And I refuse to allow it to get the best of me now!
So please forgive me for my moment of weakness. I'm getting back to my old self again and looking forward to joining you all back in the forums for fun and laughter.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!! to all of you and your families. I hope your holidays are both safe and happy.
I've been reading the forums hor over an hour about lost loves.....health issues.....current events in the Middle East.....etc. It's all so very sad and depressing. I don't know what to say. I'm very happy for those who have found happiness and true friendships here.......sad for those who are experiencing hard times. I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself and on the 'pity pot' today......wondering when my time for real happiness will come. A few of you I have talked with about my problems and issues I face on a daily basis. Many of you see me as a wise cracker and a person who is always funny and upbeat. The truth is......I feel so lost and alone with my problems......maybe it's just time for me to take a break from these forums and trying to make friends here and try to find myself first.
Love's formed......love's lost......pain and heartbreak without ever meeting? I am sure the 'pain' feels real to you......just as the 'pain/fear' feels very real to her/him. Is this reality? Or are we all just fantasies to each other? Welcome to 'My reality won't allow me to fantasize about someone I don't really know'.
Fabs......What a sweet gesture on your part. It's going to be a very lucky young woman who one day finds her way into your heart again.
The last man I truly loved was almost 5 years ago.......I sent him little notes every day.......We always said 'I love you' to each other several times a day......Little gifts that meant something special only to each other. I loved that man with all my heart. I still do to this day.
I think it would be very hard for me to say those 3 little words to a man again and feel it the way I did with him. I think those words are said too often by many people and without the true feelings behind them that should be there.
I can only hope that someday I will meet a man that I will be able to love with the same depth of my soul and will feel the same about me. Then my actions as well as his will show each other every minute of every day how much we love each other......Once again I will have those feelings of knowing when he is thinking of me even when we are miles apart.......And feeling that giddy girlish tingle when I know he about to walk through the door.
Only then will I again be able to say those 3 special words......I LOVE YOU!
RE: do you belive in life after death
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