leelhet Poetry (9)

My heart is like a whore
For I've given it to many men.
Without questions, without expectations;
With only one exception:
The only thing I've ever asked for;
The only thing I've ever expected
Was for their love in return.
But without exception, without fail
Each one took my heart,
Crumpled it up, and threw it away.
Like my love was worthless, a simple piece of trash;
Something that was easily and frequently discarded.
So now pieces of my heart are floating around,
Like pieces of paper tumbling in the wind
And I have to gather them up.
But some of them will be lost forever;
Some of them I'll never be able to find again.
But those pieces that I do regain,
I will try to put back together with what remains
So my fragmented heart will once again be whole.
For now I realize that it isn't worthless
My love is valuable, priceless
And I'm saving it for someone who will treasure it;
Who will treat it like a special gift
That I've given to him and no one else.
And I hope that he will forgive me
For the pieces that I gave away before.

Thinking of You

When the nights are long and cold,
and the days are lonesome and blue,
and the tears begin to get old,
my thoughts always drift to you.
When my heart is quickly breaking,
and I'm forced to search my mind
for something to stop the aching,
you are the one I find.
When I'm feeling helpless and weak,
you give me the strength to move on.
When I'm broken and cannot speak,
you give me the words through song.
The happiness I know with you
is like nothing I've felt before.
When once all was closed from view,
now you have opened the door
and released my hidden emotions,
released my heart and soul,
my deepest love and devotion,
finally making me whole.
If we are forced to be apart,
throughout everything you do,
please know that you are in my heart,
and that I'm always thinking of you

Life is but a stopping place,
A pause in what's to be,
A resting place along the road,
to sweet eternity.
We all have different journeys,
Different paths along the way,
We all were meant to learn some things,
but never meant to stay...

Our destination is a place,
Far greater than we know.
For some the journey's quicker,
For some the journey's slow.
And when the journey finally ends,
We'll claim a great reward,
And find an everlasting peace,
Together with the lord

Just Thinking of you

I picture your face
and I know it's true
another minute flew by
just thinking of you
I sit here and I wonder
I dream and I daze
people all around me
try to follow my gaze
smiling and grinning
wondering too
how many minutes flew by
just thinking of you
I close my eyes
and what do I see
your cute little face
staring back at me
I am always happy
dreaming about you
I could sit here for hours
just thinking of you

In this life we must all learn to bend a little
It matters not he who does the bending.
We are all forced to play the game of give and take.
It matters not the taking or the giving,
For, in cycles, Life presents us a ticket on the next ride
Up or down, we learn as we do the riding.

I see them down while I am up and sailing
I see them cry when I am pausing in my laughter.
It is my moment now to reach down within me.
And note their moment and their sense of being.

I must learn from each and every turning
I must understand the gravity of earth life,
The constant pull that keeps me spinning
Toward what I cannot change nor alter.

In one more trip around the sun now,
One more piece of time expending
I must learn that in my own space given
That good and bad, life and death are blending

My own and others...It is a true unyielding
So at the end of this business we call living
A business fraught with dangers and good moments

I want to say that I was more on the giving
I did learn from all that made me bending
To be a little better for the bruising
To see ahead a Cycle filled with learning
And to know that I can go on loving.

U heLd my hand so tight
We laugH togetheR & crieD
But stiLL i realiZe
TheRe's sOmetHinG in ur Eyes...

The wAy yoU say yOu love me
And that wE arE meAnt to bE
Is kiLLing EveRy pieCe of mE
If yoU couLd onLy seE...

TheRe's nO doubt yoU reaLLy cArE
But it's youR heaRt yoU cAn neveR shAre
And thOugh yoU tRied yoUr beSt tO lOve me
It's juSt nOt meAnt tO bE aNd sO I set yoU freE..

It's haRd for mE tO let gO
But it's thE onLy wAy I knoW
To spaRe yoU froM suffering
And to sAve my heaRt froM dyiNg.

It's tRue yoU waNt my happineSs
But it's tiMe to bE hoNest
And as mUch as it huRts I'm going to sAy it nOw
It's tiMe foR uS tO bReak ouR vowS...

StiLL i thAnk yoU foR eveRythiNg
And it's youR loVe I'll foReveR be missinG
And now that I have to go
RemembeR whAt wE hAd was never a plAy

I loVe you bebi and sO I feaR
You'll bE miseRable if I aM neaR
So taKe thiS chaNce aNd exploRe thE woRld
Let your heart be your sword!

Goodbye my love & my wHoLE liFe
aNd keep smillin' & be happy
u nEed tO go witH uR reaL hoMe
wiTh uR reaL woRld..
wE haVE too end this damn feEling...

I'll bE fiNe yoU haVe nothiNg to woRry
WRonG thing caN neVer be rIght bebi
Take heR haNd aNd yoU wiLL seE,
That i wAs neveR youR destiNy..

RemembeR bebi thAt iLoveu
But i nEed tO saY..
gOodbyE...:(

aT thE agE of 18 waS a fall for onE guy
hE wAs my fiRst bf...
i gAve hIm 100% loVe...
hE neVer sAw mE in anyWays
he'd nEver apRiciated mE..
mY lOvE foR him...
eVen hE hurted mE a lots of tiMe
i nEver giVe up to lOVe him
hOping tHat onE day hE will chAnge...
yeArs passes by hE is StiLL desaME
hurting mE emotionally & physically
i wAs so bLind..
tHen oNe daY woKe up witH thE wHitE bAckground
suddeNly am at tHe hOspitAL id trY to end up my liFe
i neVer gAvE any imPortanCe with my fAmiLy
aLL i kNOw iAm dUmb inLove wiTh thE wRong gUy
guy wHo nEvEr gAve any rEspondS for my lOvE
but thAnks god im keep goin and fight for life...

I kNow i pRoMiSed id neVer cRy
I kNoW too it hUrt a lOts
itS haRd tO dRy a
pain tEars...

SometiMes yOu reaLLy don't knoW
wHeN it stop faLLen frOm uR eYes..
cAusing sO mucH pain
cRying is thE way to caLm..
a bRoken hurted heart its haRd
to kept insidE..
sayiN iLOVEu but it meAns goodBye
pain it take a millions yeaRs
to heal a broken heart..

giVing soMeone
aLL uR LOvE
iS neVer an aSsuRancE
that tHey'LL
LovE u bAck
sOme peopLe are jUst nOt
meAnt to bE in Ur
LiFe....
nO mAtteR hoW muCh
yOu wAnt tHem
to bE....
yoU huG hiM gOodbye
liKe it's nOthing
wHile aLL u wAnt to do
is hoLd on 4Ever
I uSed tO smiLe whEn
i toLd pEople
tHat u weRe minE
but noW
I cAn't evEn smiLe
& saY ur namE
at tHe saMetime...