You came into our lives unexpected,
in no time you had shown your inteligence, your kindness.
No matter what they said to you, you would Always remain calm and polite. With this you gained the respect and friendship of many of us.
I believe you truly were at peace with this world and with yourself.
And now I think i know why. It's easier to see the important things in life once we realise how short it can be.
When I first heard the news, I was shocked. I couldn't believe this could happen to such a peaceful person.
You have made a lasting impression upon yoru friends you made here. You will never be forgotten by us.
Knowing your legacy after such a short while and realising how much we will miss you.. can only make us think about how much harder this loss must be to your family and loved ones back home.
Some of them might have made some wrong choices but i'm sure they regret that now. But either way, nobody should hold you responsible for the actions of others.
Dear Nina, you have been a pearl on earth, Now be a pearl wherever you may be. Someday we will all be united again.
Good luck my friend.
ps. Since i do not want the same discussions as on previous blogs i have decided to keep this one closed. It is here to pay my respects to someone i admired.
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remember the day you joined Cs? I don't remember all of it.. but i came to the starter page.. read the terms and conditions... questioned myself should i join or just walk away? I left, only to come back the next day.. what could it hurt to join a dating site.. who knows i might actually meet someone.
So ok i clicked create profile... ok thats all easy.. and then you get to the box.. describe yourself. I hate that box. I never know what to write. And now here i am today.. mesmerising.. who am i?
I look back at my childhood.. I grew up in a family mom dad 3 sisters and a brother. All was normal.. Untill i reached the age of 5.. Don't know what i had but it was a problem with my hip.. I laid in a bed for about 6 months.. After that i've spend 6 months walking with crutches. that year would really define who i became today. I've had been entertaining myself for about a year.. so never felt a real need for others in my life. At least not to close. The only friend I really had was the boy next door.. he was just a year younger then me and had visited me so often.. the hours he spend next to my bed. Amazing.. he was an only child so guess he had nothing better to do.
Anyway since i didn't had friends around I focused myself on reading, I would read anything.. My parents had to explain God knows how many words to me... But i would read everything, newspapers, books anything i could get my hands on.
When I returned to school, i was bored to death.. I had learnt so much more about real life, interesting things.. It was hard to keep focus. I remember how i would spend more time with the girls they were so glad to see me again.. feeling sorry for what had happened to me.. and I was so much smarter then the others.. more grown up so they loved that. School was so easy.. time for a real challenge.
Then finally highschool.. Something i had been looking forward too.. finally something interesting, something challenging... but oh no.. parents wanted me to learn a trade like my dad and my brother.. Lucky enough a teacher could convince my parents to let me make my own choices. Highschool could never live up to my expectations.. it was still boring.. I knew all that stuff years before.. So why not create some trouble then? I've spend so much time in detention.. That actually was the best part of my schoolyears... Then when I was 14 maybe early 15 I met sylvie.. What a girl.. Fell for her head over heels. I've had so wonderfull talks with her.. We waited for eachother every evening to ride our bicicle home.. What were a few extra miles if i could be in her compagny? She learned me so much about normal things.. I could listen to her for hours. And she never minded if i started talking about politics or some weird science experiment.. Not sure if she was interested but she would listen as long as i was talking. I was so busy enjoying my time with her.. I never got to tell her i loved her. I was to busy with being happy.. i never noticed the signs she gave me. So after about 2 years of a really intens friendship.. she gotten herself a boyfriend.. what??? How could i not notice that???
My world crumbled, I was so hurt.. I think i hated her at that time. I remember it was during the summerholiday so i told my parents i wanted to change schools.. I never wanted to see her again.. she called many times, written letters.. I never answered I never read the letters.. I was broken.
to be continued...
I have been told i take myself way to serious..
So ok let's see how i can change that..
Maybe i could post some pics of me from the last time i was drunk???... Would you people like to see that???
I'm sure some of you would enjoy that wouldn't you????
Oh well why not.. i gave up drinking anyway so what do i care.. here ya go...
Yes i know.. i was ashamed afterwards.. but hey it was allot of fun at the time.
Allot of people have been talking about how peacefull things have been here untill a few months ago. I'm sure it was..
Me and a few other members are being pointed at to disturb that peace. I wonder why.. is it because we speak our own mind? because we don't agree with some old regs? Because we don't tolerate lies? is it because ....
It reminds me of a certain society, A peacefull society, as long as everyone did what they were told their wasn't a problem.. any resistance to folow the rules of the leaders would lead to prison or death. Sounds familiar doesn't it?.. here one gets reported by so many that blogs dissapear... make the opposition dissapear. Lies and propaganda is used here as much as it was in that society. People out of fear supported the regime and many had turned into the ones they hated most..; they themselves became corrupt, they commited crimes against humanity. All out of fear for becoming victimised themselves. Soon they didn't know how to act normal anymore.. this bad side had taken over their entire being.
But no matter how strict that regime has been, no matter how much lies they spread... A few brave men and women Always stood up.. time after time.. the voice of truth would Always rise above their crimes. This stayed pretty level untill one day.. People became brave enough.. they were fed up with being dictated.. they were fed up with the lack of freedom.. NO MORE FEAR. The masses rised up against their leaders. And that was the end of the USSR.
Now here on Cs we are seeing the same thinsg happening. Me, Nessa and so many others will never submit to the surpresion. We will stand tall and in the end, our voice of truth will be heard. Maybe we will become martyrs as many have before us.. But even if that is our faith, others will rise. Freedom will be our faith. Freedom for all on CS. Power to the people.
I was on facebook right now having a small convo with a friend of mine about highschool. It got me thinking at some of my teachers. I Can't remember all of them but I do wonder what has become to some of the ones i liked. Some really left an impression on me.. even if i didn't notice it at that time.
One of the ones I really didn't looking of getting was Mr. Van de Velde (math teacher). Bolleke was his nickname. It was claimed that the devil himself was scared of him... But yeah i've gotten him in my 3rd year... Suprisingly enough he was quite funny.. A somewhat britisch kind of humor.. very dry.. but oh so clever. I can't remember him to ever lose his temper.. he Always seemed so calm no matter what kind of trouble we (well the others ofcourse) created. I have had many wonderfull discussions with him.. about math but also about all kinds of topics. I mean you could Always count on him..questions about drugs, alcohol, dating... He would never get mad at you and respect your opinion... He would never force you to make a certain choice.. he just made you think about what you are doing or planning to do and the consequenses of those actions.
He sure was one of my favourites.
One of our fellow bloggers enjoys putting up clips here.(loving them btw). and I noticed allot of his recent ones involve cakes and other delights.. Made me think about the things i really miss eating lately..
I took the time to look up some pictures for you.
ofcourse their are other things but these i think of most often.
We are on an international site. We all have different backgrounds, cultures and beliefs. But i have noticed these last few days that we don't seem to respect those differences in some cases.
We all have seen the numerous christians spreading the word of God. We might not Always like them but then we just ignore them. But when someone comes out and preaches the word of Allah, that person gets more attacked by other bloggers.. Why???
I'm a christian myself so i know a bit about that bible you claim to follow. I have never seen it written anywhere that you should attack people with other relegions. Why isn't a person with other believes allowed to do the same as you are, with the same freedoms that you enjoy? They ignore your blogs where you are preaching, how about you do the same? Would that be so much to ask?
I personally find it interesting to learn about all religeons, better understanding of eachother is the only way humankind will ever survive and will ever reach global peace. So instead of attacking eachother we should embrace eachother. Especially on an international site.
Anyway thats just my opinion.
I was thinking maybe this would be a nice encore to my latest series of blogs about my country. One of my major passions.. I am no expert in any way but i do recognise wonderfull paintings when i see one.
One of my favourite painters is Rene magritte.. the creativity of this man was so wonderfull. I suppose he is a classical belgian.
a few of his most famous works.
another painting i really admire is the Lamb of God.. It is located in ghent only a few miles from my home and I have been watching it numerous times. It is also very famous because of the missing parts that were stolen long time ago.
Painted by the brothers Van eyck
This is when it is open..
The same painting but closed..
And 2 more favourites of mine.. pieter breughel.
The elder
and the younger
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Again this is just a small part of what Belgium has to offer but it should give you an idea to get started.
I was wondering.. why do some value this kind of popularity so much?? Do they have no better ways to give value to their loves?
How can you even determine your own popularity?? It sure isn't from the numbers of views.. because I can think of a few reasons why they would get way higher then they should.. I've even heard rumours that some would ask friends to just click on a blog as much as possible to get the numbers of views up.
Ok since that won't be a good way how about the number of comments?? That would work, but what if they aren't real comments but you just start smalltalk with anyone that reacts on your blog??.. That would get you loads of comments but nothing that really is about the topic and are just intented to keep people active on your blog no matter what.. So that wouldn't work either in my opinion.
Then what??? Well for me it is more important that the ones that truly are here for blogging as it was meant to be would respect me and are able to have clean discussions with me. I will never agree with anyone here for 100% but i do feel closer to some then others ofcourse.. But i would consider allot of people here friends or at least people that i respect. Their are even people here that i don't like or respect but still i like to debate with them now and again. Because sometimes they have some really wonderfull topics.
Another thing that i find important is... I rather be liked by only 1 blogger because of my opinion.. then to be followed by 100's out of fear or plain curiosity.
Offcourse people with low selfesteem would easely mix those 2 up to defend themselves and their own behaviour. Nobody really likes to be confronted with their own weakness and for some this internet stuff is just a way to escape their sad lives. By pretending to be intelectual, by alliances with unpopular and other fake people they get a sense of feeling important while all they really do is create another fake reality. An escape from their pity lives.
Another lesson about my country..
Not sure how i can explain our political system to outsiders... even allot of belgians don't understand how it works.
But believe me, no matter what you may end up thinking.. It does work in the end... Its just the belgians way.
We have 3 offcial languages, dutch, french and german.
With that also comes we have 3 cultures, 3 mentalities, 3 cultures, 3 histories. And we have to combine all that in 1 nation. It doesn't take a scientist to know that these differences lead to conflicts almost on a daily bases. We don't agree on anything.
The flemish are very liberal, the French are very social. I won't mention the german part because they are almost Always like the flemish or in the middle.
The French part is very focused on france, even more then on the flemish part of their own country.. while the flemish part is more oriented towards the english speaking countries such as Uk and USA.
YOu might have heard before about the differences between north and south europe... The border of those differences goes straight true the middle of my country.
One of the most important struggles in my country would be the different view for the future. Flemish want more independance and more respect for our language and culture.. while the wallonian want to get more united once again but they also want to push out the dutch speaking and dutch culture of the flemish.
Untill today we have been able to compromise on all major issues and i have faith we will be able to do that in the future... Not sure how long .. and i do believe independant flanders would be a great next step for my part of the country.
Belgium is also very active in europe and world politics.. Herman van Rompuy as first president of the european council does what my nation is famous for. Unite the ones that can't be united. My nation has transformed itself to one of the most diplomatic countries in this world.
Allot of people think CS is a dating site.. and for some that might be the case. For me however I think CS is much more then that. It does exactly what it states in its own name.. Connecting singles. In the few months that i have been an active member here I have connected with allot of other singles.
Some of those other singles I consider to be friends, some i just like spending time with or enjoy reading them. Others i just find very interesting.
What matters most to me in daily life and here is respect, respect towards eachother. No matter how much i may disagree with someone, no matter how far apart our opinions may be.. Respect can always be part of the connection.
A few things that I would consider very disrespectful:
People with fake profiles. A group all scammers would fall into.
People who aren't honest about who they are.. As we have some over here, the most famous one in this category lefta while back and I consider that one of the best things happening to these blogs since i started here. I do feel honoured that it was partly because of me that she was exposed.
People who are only here to cause trouble.. Someone who have no positive contribution to make at all shouldn't have a place on a place designed to make positive relations between people.
People who are blinded by their own madness.. Some here have a very outspoken point of view and i respect that .. I respect that untill they get blinded by it.. I have seen many discussions already and great defences from some but the blind one doesn't look at the evidence provided, doesn't hear the arguements put forward. If confronted with their own misunderstandings they either turn to personal insults, ignore all negative comments that dissaprove with their point of view, sometimes they will just sneak out of the lost arguement, or they will call in some friends to back up their false claims.
All of this can be found in real life and in blogworld. Nothing much we can do about it. But for all the wonderful people out there I would say... never let them take away your fun. Keep blogging about what you want, when you want. I know i will. I will be here for many years to come. Maybe i will remain single all that time, maybe not.. But still i will always be here with all of you wonderful people.
Much love to all.
PS. This blog isn't about any of the current active bloggers in particular. I know some might think so but really it isn't. It is just a general view on things and this is only my opinion about this wonderfull blogsite.
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