Vanity Fair and City I (14)

When we were young, we always made the same mistake even though we knew it clearly. You just couldn’t avoid it.

Melanie kept asking about him. I won’t give my potential prey to my potential opponent so I told a lie: “Now he has the fifth girlfriend. A French girl with blonde hair and green eyes.”

“Oh!!!” said Melanie disappointedly. “He would rather choose a foreign girl!”

“That’s not strange.” I said. “Those foreign girls are as brilliant as the sunshine. They are colourful but our colours are only black and yellow.”

Yes, compared to those western girls, our appearances are not so glittery. After all, golden hair, white skin and blue eyes remind people of the sunshine, the beach and the sea. And men are very visual.

So is he. That’ why he has so many girlfriends but none of them can work. He was always attracted by those beautiful, tall and sexy girls. However, since they had nothing in common, they just couldn’t go on the relationship.

Now he remains single. Maybe he is still thinking why.

And I have been making the same mistake these years. I was attracted by his handsome appearance, and ignored the fact that we have nothing in common and nothing to share. Yes, everybody is different, we can’t find somebody who is exactly the same with ourselves, but at least should have something in common. I knew this truth six years ago when I finished reading the famous novel “Gone with the Wind”, but I still couldn’t avoid making the same mistake like the main character Scarlet in the book.

Scarlet overturns my rooted idea about marriage. According to our cultures and our traditions, we should be loyal to our marriage and we should stick to one eternal marriage. However, Scarlet makes me think that it is ok to get married more than one time.

After all, the eternal marriage is much more like a fairy tale, especially in this so-called “Modern Time”, especially in big cities where power, profits, material and money are stronger than the true feelings. Everybody seeks for true love and eternal marriage, but only a few of them can really get them.

Sometimes I think, if people around me choose to divorce, they will be much happier.

Sometimes I even think, if my parents had divorced many years ago, they would have been much happier. As a daughter, I shouldn’t think like this, but it is real.

I hope Juliet and her boyfriend can have an eternal marriage. I hope the stories of those old grandpas and grandmas who have been staying together since they married can encourage people here. On cs, so many people divorced or separated, so many people have broken hearts and so many people cry alone.