My Disease-song

Finally finished the last song I`ve been working on!! This is a look at trauma and pain being both something that I`d cling to as something familiar and as a disease that I`m trying to win over.

My Disease
My disease has plagued me for years
You taking away what I wouldn`t give you
Now you have the power, all the control
Everyone can save me
But they`re in a different world
I`m out here in the darkest of nights
It`s the loudest one I recall
With my heart thumping up a storm
It`s like I`m on an ice flow
In the antarctic
With the great whites baring down
My fears taking control over me

Why am I here?
On this desolate ground
Why can`t I be home
With the sun on my face
And the grass under my feet

Because__ You`re my disease
Leaving your calling card
In all the places I __ used to be me

I wish you would leave
I wish you would stay
It`s a love hate relationship
And I don`t know how I feel
You`re my security blanket
You`re my disease
Who am I without my pain
When pain is all I know
Thoughts filling my mind
Spilling over the precipice
Jumbling in a mass of conformities
That tears can dilute

Why am I here?
On this desolate ground
Why can`t I be home
With the sun on my face
And the grass under my feet

Because__You`re my disease
Leaving your calling card
In all the places I__used to be me

You`re my disease
Like a fire consuming all of me
Leaving nothing but charred hollow remains
The day will come when I`ll say goodbye
No peace offering will I make
I may not see it clearly
But I know its there
The day will come
And you`ll disappear
Taking your shadows and your misery
Letting me walk the path home

Why am I here?
On this desolate ground
Why can`t I be home
With the sun on my face
And the grass under my feet