Keep on going...

Just got home from work, been a busy day and im having a fever. When i left my house this morning around 6am to work, the rain was so heavy and i just knew im going to fall sick. Feel awkwardly cold and my throat feel so dry...

Anyway, im home now, 5 mins to 9pm. This is the only time i can check all my personal emails and log on into CS...

Received approximately 5-6 emails here in CS everyday since i open my account. but, it seems like most of the emails are scam mails, which i dont normally reply. At the beginning, i try not to look at it and just delete them right away...

But it seems to keep on going and going and filling my inbox and i just cant differentiate, which is scam and which is real. I just keep on deleting and blocking people and there goes my chance of meeting someone real for once in my life...

Or is it me? Am i too nice? Or maybe too boring for most of the guys here? What should i do? I just dont feel right and i found that i can talk and chat pretty well with some people, but later on the seems to fade away and here i am, still looking and searching for the right one...

Im not going to give up, that is for sure... But the journey seems so far and deep. im scared if one day i'll get tired and try to find the nearest exit, be gone and be forgotten forever...

What should i do?


Dinda