Sunday the 24th would have been my 12th anniversary to my late husband, Harry. He died Feb. 12th 1995 after 5 and 1/2 months of marriage. We had however lived together for 4 and 1/2 years before.
The reason I am asking this question is this. I was just clearing some stuff away and ran across some of his clothes. Very few. And I can't part with them. You see I lost everything I ever owned, I mean everything. Baby pics and memorabilia, school records and wedding stuff, death certificate,everything. Which in it's own way may have been something that needed to happen, in order for me to let go of the past. Is there something wrong with me that I can't even let a couple of shirts go after 11 years??? Talk to me please. Do I need help?
no its not, i know a lady who has kept everything of her partners things and just couldnt never part with them, if his items make you feel safe and secure keep them
sorry for ypur loss, very sad but idf keeping is items makes you feel better then keep them for ever
I don't know what the reason,but the reason only matters to you,maybe scent,maybe holding on,whatever the reason your far from "nuts",I feel if you have allowed yourself to grieve and have been able to move forward,we never forget,you can hold unto whatever it is you wish to,however is his memory and the memories you share that will remain with you forever.He forever is branded in your heart.
No there is nothing wrong with you for wanting to hold onto to memories of the past. We do have to move forward, though. I let my deceased wife angels go except the angel on unicorn which is by my headboard. I kept her one Neil Diamond shirt but donated the rest of her clothes to the church. Her daughter has been at me for the mother's birthstone ring which had all the kids birthstones in it. I have searched the house over and even had help but could not find it. I tried to open one suitcase with the love letters but slammed it down when I seen one. I couldn't read it any ways because I was crying to hard but some pictures in another suitcase I managed to go through. It has been one year and three months since her passing. It is good on the days that I can keep it together. The physical pain has abated except when someone asks me if I am married. I took the marriage license down and it is packed away now. The picture of us is on the television. The griefshare lady that leads our meetings told me that one day I could look at without it hurting so bad. I can do that today and remember the good times. If her kids want something that belong to her they can damn well come down and get it. Sorry I just went up there recently to hug her sister. I couldn't find her grave but I forgot how to get there but I got some closure. I focus on the positive or what we call the dash in the dash news letter that you can get online. The dash represents the time they were alive after the birth date on the tombstone.
Thank you for that. I kept his boots in the floor where he left them for over a year. Everyone kept telling me to get rid of everything. Not!! I get this way every year about this time. I have started to get worried about myself. My therapist-counselor guy told me that I may never get over either one of my late husbands. I don't ever want to get over them, I just want to move on and find happiness again. Do you think that there is a chance that this may be holding me back? I am afraid of being alone forever.
There's no reason you should let go of the past. He was part of your life. Oftentimes memories are all that's left, and if the shirts hold a symbolic meaning to you, then you should keep them. Don't worry about being crazy; I think it's perfectly normal.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I had to have grief counseling for a couple of years. It's good that you are doing that. I didn't even have one pic for years after he died. My sis found one she had of the two of us and gave it to me. I look at it when I go to my photos on line. And yes honey, I have plenty of great and loving memories of our lives together. I will cherish those forever. Thanks.
Yes to both. To me it was like a part of me died when she died. We were very happily married. She was my rock. I was devistated. I had to grow up and be in this world without her. She had done so much. I just went to work and earned a living. She had tried to wean me off her by making me do things with her that needed to be done. I had to learn how to get tough, again. I had to learn how to pay bills. I had to learn how to manage a check book. I had to leanr how to feed myself. I had to leanr how to clean up after myself. I had to learn how to make friends, again. I had to learn how to live in the real world, again. I had to learn how to get stable and be responsible, again. I had to learn how to buy groceries. I had to learn how to make sure there was gas in the tank. I had to learn how to cope without her. Her last words were, "You will be better off without me." That is the cruelest thing I ever have heard in my life.
OH HONEY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. SHOCKED ME TO SAY THE LEAST. I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO ASK. I DO HOPE THAT YOU HAVE FIGURED OUT WHAT WAS MEANT BY THAT. I AM SURE IT WASN'T MEANT TO HURT. BLESS YOU MY FRIEND.
I don't think it wasn't meant to hurt now. It just remembering her. I don't want to forget her but moving on is a real thing I have to deal with. I have friends and we do our work study book together on Sundays. We get to watch the videos and fill in together with the work book at our griefshare meetings. We share the common traumas together. We try to prepare for when someone new comes in so that we can help them. Grief does some weird stuff to the human mind.
catwmSomewhere in the middle, Florida USA6,683 posts
I sift through reminders of the past on days as well, most have long gone, some I choose to keep.
I know that they are there to stir the mind of what was, whether good or bad, those past experiences have made me who I am now. I would not change it, would not go back.
Is there anything wrong with remembering? I dont think so, as long as it is healthy for you.
Sometimes the quiet gentle reminder of those days stir my thoughts of tomorrow.
I once told a friend to shut the doors behind her and sometimes it is necessary to move on.
Always remember every road has an end, every mountain has its peak. If you can hold on and keep climbing you will get up and over the mountain.
MY REMINDERS ARE WITH ME THERE EVERY SINGLE DAY IN MY MIND AND HEART. SOMETIMES MY TOMORROWS ARE ARE A REFLECTION OF MY YESTERDAYS. I AM WHO I AM BECAUSE OF THOSE YESTERDAYS.
THAT WAS GOOD. "If you can hold on and keep climbing you will get up and over the mountain." THANK YOU SO MUCH.
cutelildevilsmomportsmouth, New Hampshire USA7,772 posts
Working in an assisted living home I see people who have had to give up 12 rooms of memories so they can fit the most precious ones in one room.They have keepsakes from parents,siblings and other friends and relatives which they have have moved from place to place even though the people they remind them of have long passed.your husbands live on in your heart and mind and have helped shape you into the woman you are today.you can find happiness with a new love because you have known what a good,solid relationship can do to make life wonderful. and isnt what we all want ,to be remembered by our loved ones so we might get a small taste of immortality?Keep the shirts for they represent times shared not a crazed obsession.
On June 5, 1981, my second child, a girl, was stillborn. Not until June 5, 1985 when my fourth child, a son was born did I begin to let go of any of the pain. So many questions.....so many 'what ifs'. I now have 4 grown, healthy children and 2 grandchildren. Many times throughout the year and especially on my son's birthday, I am reminded of her. Tucked away in a closet there is a small box. In it is a journal, a nightlight of a child kneeling in prayer, and a small faded bunny rabbit that stood in the corner of the bassinette she would have slept in. I take these things down now and then.....and just think. Am I crazy? Are you crazy? I don't think so. We are simply holding on to momentos of those we cherished.
sadly my husband took his own life 7 years ago and we have 8 children. i have had rotten times bad times and good times since john died but i kept his dressing gown. It is hanging in my wardrobe so each day when i open it i see the robe. And think of all the times he would moan at me for wearing it as i bought it for him and as the kids would say nowadays thats a homer present. I smile when i look at it. So hold on to your shirts they are your ties to your past with you lovely husband so cherish them.
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The reason I am asking this question is this.
I was just clearing some stuff away and ran across some of his clothes. Very few. And I can't part with them. You see I lost everything I ever owned, I mean everything. Baby pics and memorabilia, school records and wedding stuff, death certificate,everything.
Which in it's own way may have been something that needed to happen, in order for me to let go of the past.
Is there something wrong with me that I can't even let a couple of shirts go after 11 years???
Talk to me please.
Do I need help?