My Lil Angel Boy ( Archived) (8)

Sometimes I sit and think and sometimes I sit and cry
The question I always have is, Why God Why?

I live my life daily and you are never far from my mind
On the May 26th, my family is truly kind

Your brothers and sister love you and they keep your memory alive
Tatti loves her uncle Christopher, we talked about you from the day she arrived

I wonder what you would be like, you would be a big boy now
No hugs and kisses from mom allowed

Somedays are ok, I guess I am doing fine
I can talk about you now son, without even cryin

But every once in awhile for no reason at all
The pain in my chest grips me, I sometimes even fall

Memories of your tiny little hand...........
Thoughts of never seeing you grow into a man..........
Birthdays, Christmas and school years come and go.......
My lil angel boy Christopher whom I will never know........

A lot of pain and passion in your words. I understand.

He will live in you heart forever, thats a good thing.

not a single word I could write will ever ease that pain.

Wow, I've seen this title in the threads for a while now, but I stayed away. Why? I have no idea. Sometimes I just get that urge to stay away from threads. The reason must be is I share simalr pain. Not as deep as yours, but I know it's a pain that no one can possibly imagine. Nor can anyone even console you unless thay are in the exact same situataion , or have experienced such a loss. You've seen me enogh already to know I'm the happy joking guy, I don't post these deep comments. My heart is out to you, even though I know I can never fully understand what you are feeling. Just know this. Many are feeling that draining feeling that pulls you down, that makes you week. You are not alone. It's something we must deal with on our own. Peace.