There is no shame in asking for help.....the shame is not asking for help and finding yourself in a place that you don't know how to get out of. I tried to send you mail, but for some reason, I am blocked....
You have made the most important step of this process...admiting that something is wrong. And yes, you sound as though you are falling into a depression. It is normal, actually, for those whom have had drinking problems and are trying to over come them. Honestly, it would be a great help to you if you can find an organization or a counsleor to talk to. You need somebody....it is quite important that you discuss your thoughts openly with somebody and get some insight as to what it is your are going through.
There are a great many people out there who care.....all you have to do is ask....
I do......almost every night........as soon as I come in from work, I'm taking my clothes off as I walk in the door.......which can be rather embarrassing if, by chance, there is company over and I didn't know it.....................
Lova, I'm sure is just in hiding........Wizzie....I fear, is probably kicked off....after he had words last night with Blueboy......oh my.....another one bites the dust............
When I got off work knowing that tomorrow is a day off..........well sort of....a day of from work...still have to study and go grocery shopping, and do laundry and................... What was the question again??????
Continue with the ppo.....you don't know when she might just "show up" and then things could get really bad. You need this kind of stuff.....just in case she lives up to her promise to call dcps.....you can use that opp and your phone records to show that she harrassed you and made a false claim. This is just my opinion, but I think it is best to continue with the order of protection.
It is very true....we are responsible for our moods. Society around us can try to influence our behavior and thinking, but ultimately, it is our decision weather to allow it to make us in a bad mood or to blow it off. For example....when the alarm clock goes off in the morning.....what is your first thought? For most of us it is, "I don't want to go to work or I don't want to get up". Most of us begin our days on a negative note. I'm guilty of it from time to time, but I have trained myself, for the most part, to think of the day as another chance.....I'll roll over and look at B and thus I start my day on a positive note.
It's not an easy thing to break yourself from.....thinking negatively about yourself. It takes practice. But...research has proven that people who looked forward to the day ahead of them do better in their jobs or at school and in their personal lives.
How about..........a guy walks into a bar with a duck on his head and the duck has a HUGE beak.......
They walk up to the bar and the guy orders a drink and one for his duck......the bar tender says, "I can serve you but not THAT duck"....the guys asks "why"...........the bar tender says, "because we don't take big bills here".................(insert laughing guy, because my damned emoticons aren't working)
I can see that my words have no influence on anybody involved in this.......so.........I shall remain silenced for as long as this stupidity continues............
And yes........I'm talking to EVERYBODY involved..............
At the risk of pissing all sides off.........this is what I have to say......
It is incredibly annoying, to say the least, to be thrust into yet another forum war......personally, I'm rather tired of it all. I had words with a single member yesterday, but we ended it by agreeing to disagree......and that was that. Nothing more said...laid to rest.
If I can't come here without worrying about who might be waiting to pounce, I don't want to post anymore.
Now.......to ALL sides concerned: give it a rest will ya? It's not funny, it's not entertaining and it's definately not the way adults should act.
I'm annoyed and frustrated with all concerned on this matter. Enough is enough.
We are here because we have friends here. We live together....in the same house......
We enjoy each others' company very much......and when we are working or I'm not at school or studying...or reading...or writing the endless papers I have to write....we come here.
And....yes....I have been asked many times over for advice........
Thank you.......I have learned a lot from my life......and those experiences should be shared....even at the risk of going against what any text book might say..........
RE: Where do you go from here...
There is no shame in asking for help.....the shame is not asking for help and finding yourself in a place that you don't know how to get out of. I tried to send you mail, but for some reason, I am blocked....