Yeah but you love me Besides who else could you think of that would love ya even though you pick on them on a consistent basis....Aside from my sister in that communist state
Sometimes we just need time to figure out where our lives are at the present moment and we're at a fork in the road and unsure which one to take. This was where I was when I decided to leave.
I was at that fork in the road and I wasn't sure which path I was going to take, if any. I decided not to take any. I'm going to stay right where I am for the time being until I can make an informed decision. I know that getting away for a few days helped in that respect, because I didn't have a million things distracting me from looking at all of these things.
I'm just grateful and thankful that I have some very close wonderful people in my life that I can call friends.
I just got back home from being at my Mom's for Christmas. It was definitely something that I needed. I needed to be surrounded by family and friends, and I was. Next week will be hard because I have to say goodbye to them at least for a while.
This move to Arizona is making a huge impact on my family here, but they know it's for the best. I think the best Christmas gift I got this year was spending yesterday sitting at the table with my Aunt/Godmother and just talking the day away. Her and I never had a good relationship over the years, but something has changed. I'm not sure whether it's one of us or both of us that's changed over the years, but it's definitely for the better.
Thank you to those of you that emailed, messaged and called me. For some reason though I don't believe that "Thank you" quite covers it. It meant a lot to me.
We all have times in our lives when some things just don't make sense. There are also times when we hit a brick wall and can't find a way around that wall no matter how hard we try.
This is one of those times where I've hit the brick wall. The foundation that was cracked underneath me even though I've repaired it many times, it has finally crumbled.
This is part of the reason for my leaving. Just know this much...It has nothing to do with anyone here, nor anything that has happened here. I can't go into more detail than that right now. Maybe in the future, just not now.
Danny Boy - My grandpa used to sing that song now everytime I hear it I can't help but hear his voice. Unchained Melody Prayer by Lizzie West Concrete Angel The Little Girl
Bill Clinton's infidelity didn't get Hillary elected as the New York Senate. Hillary had the backing of George Pataki and Rudy Guiliani both of which are well respected. Why did she have their backing...Because Hillary and their wives were involved in extra curricular activities together.
So what if you are in a relationship and morally and ethically it's right and you're in the relationship because you want to be. It's what you want but there one aspect that's missing. Do you stay in it or do you close the door on it?
For instance...
You need to be challenged intellectually and mentally. You have a mind that is constantly wondering about things. You question everything in the who, what, where, when, why and how. In the beginning of course with all things are fresh and new, but after a while you realize that you are no longer able to have those long conversations about life and the things in it. You are no longer challenged and you need to be in order to be "satisfied" with where the relationship is going and the foundation of it seems to be cracking and crumbling.
Alex, thank you for reminding me that the canvas is mine to do with as I please. I sometimes forget how flexible the boundaries are and that with certain people or things that those boundaries sometimes are ever changing. As always I appreciate your words of wisdom.
GuitarPlayer, No you are not off base by any means. Priorities can change day by day and even moment by moment. I believe that it's part of living life to it's fullest and enjoying the moments that we have.
Angel, I think you are right. No matter what the relationship is, the couple is made up of the individuals. If we lose part of that individuality then we can lose an essential part of the couple. I love when you are brutally honest.
BlueWarrior, I know that understanding oneself and accepting who you are as an individual is a necessary part of being able to have a relationship with another person. The moral and ethical aspects of why come into the picture when we choose to get involved with another person. You're right no one should rush into a relatioship for all the wrong reasons.
I posted a response to someone and it made me wonder about this...
We all make choices in life good, bad or indifferent. I've realized that I've become accustomed to being single.
I know relationships are give and take, but where do we draw the line? What are the boundaries? Are there boundaries in a relationship? Is it due to our past experiences that we make some of the choices that we do? Do we put ourselves in a holding pattern when we are trying to achieve a goal in our lives?
I guess I ask this because I guess I've gotten used to doing certain things on a daily basis and doing things spontaneously as well. I also know that I'm very head strong and independent, sometimes to a fault.
I'd really like some HONEST input here...Even if it means brutal honesty.
I'm Back & I Missed You All
Thank you Luis