I do understand that, Vonny. Time makes loss easier, but it doesn't provide what you missed. When my 19yo nephew died, my aunt said that you don't learn to live with it, you learn to live around it. That's what she had learned when she lost her 19yo son, and it's what I had to do when my mother died.
That's a wonderful way to look at it. And yes, soldiers know the risks, but losing your best friend is certainly something you never expect to happen like that. I'm glad you had that moment together before his death, and that you focus on the positive. You're an impressive young man, Nick.
My most wonderful memory is the first time I held my daughter. We almost died and it was late at night when they finally got her stable enough to bring her to me. The first time I held her, we were all alone. Just the 2 of us. It was the most precious moment of my life.
I was luck, Vonny. My child lived. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Don't worry about SF, Nick. We've all gotten used to him. He isn't as bad as he sometimes comes across. You're doing great here and a nice addition you are.
Also, now that I look at your profile, so much of it is about your disability. In fact, that's the first thing in it! Don't put that in your profile! That is something for you to share as you get to know someone. Not to hide it, but don't make your whole life about what you CAN'T do. JMO
Her ID here is Bajanblue. She doesn't post much here anymore, but is on "the other site" that so many of us frequent. She's been fighting brain cancer for about a year now, and it's apparently in her bones now.
Claire, thank you so much for letting us know. I'm in tears at the latest poem - and even the song. It hit hard. Even Em is in tears. I've read her so many of Dorielles blogs.
RE: I am Staying..
What a pal!pssst: I'll pay you later.