Super tired but really feel thankful for things that life offered me in the past few days
She, the hospitable and generous Thai woman gave me 2 out of the only 3 first cucumbers on their trees. I feel a bit guity taking them but i guess i will just keep them as a nice memory
She even asked me to stay and marry her doctor son
We had a great time with ethnic minority people and that made me refused a job opportunity at McKinsey today and feel more hesitant to apply for the embassy job though i was told to nearly a week ago. Feeling like i m meant to be on the walks to these people, not meant for political or business world...
Something quite irritating happened at the restaurant but all my good mood got back when I got home and surprised with this beauty. Love them so so much
Thanks
Worn out with the translation i promised to help a friend. Frequent travels and gorgeous flowers sweep me away from loneliness.
But now. I need hugs and kisses. I m not so strong and independent as people think. Sometimes i want to shout out loud "where are you my damn man!" Lol. Moments of desperate...
That won't help i know but how can I suppress the thirst and desire for love and being love? Why is it so difficult?
SO headache with this calculation of pros and cons, priorities...
What should I do? grrrr
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What a happy day to meet old friends, half sister, sing along with the guitarist and tomorrow great plans are waiting.
Feeling lucky though he has not come yet
Mom and sister asked me to have a baby even i have not found a good match yet... they both say it is very difficult if i wait longer
what should i do
It started with a nice taxi driver who waited for me 15 minutes without complaint but with a big smile on his face. He also took me to a shop for good breakfast and even offered me a discount
Then i sat next to a nice us gov female officer and a gentleman and had great talk. They later encouraged and congratulated me a lot on my translation
I also made a new friend with a freelance translator and helped my friend to get new trainee for her company
On the way back, i got free taxi ride thanks to the bank's promotion program
And seem lucks also don't come alone. The embassy specialist said she would consider me for the next trip to Hawaii
Now. I m too full, cos of the good things i had today and ... the dinner i cooked after long busy week
Seem like i was the center today at the training as people looked at me, teased me, praised me a lot, for both appearance and translation quality. However, seem other translators didn't really like that. None of them said a word to compliment me
and when i told one of them that i got the opportunity of possible trip to Hawaii, she didn't congratulate but seemed upset
Oh one guy guessed my age 3 years older than my actual one which made me really upset but in the end another guy guessed me 3 years younger so that made the even lol
And finally, home, these beauties welcome me back. Can't help taking so many pics of them
Thanks Life
It is much pleasure to prepare foods for our beloved and feel the luxury of holiday time at home. Seeing Moms enjoying the hard work's fruits is more rewarding than many other things
But though i don't dare to look at facebook as that might make me feel sad looking at my friends' families and their chidlren, many neighbours came with their children and all the cutiest things that make me crazy for having kids of my own. oh well, this incident made my holiday half ful lol.
Life seems teasing me when the men i like either do not want children or can not have children. time passes by so fast, hope after hope, disappointment after disappointment but thankfully that new days still come with new hopes.
Anyway, prepared for the worst, ready for the possible and hope for the best
We talked nearly an hour on phone about cooking and how going to supermarket in the States is to oversea Vietnamese. Some how i m jealous of my buddy lol though feel happy for her. Here is her product
She gave up going to work and stays home as a housewife. Now she has plenty of time playing with our hobby of cooking, especially when her beloved husband loves everything she cooks. If only i were her, i would be so contented too lol. No need to worry about relations at work, no pressure, all is about love and care
Now i have not much free time and motivation to cook. Wish i could have someone to cook for and to see him enjoying my foods with love
Miss those days ...
Now I am more confused. Is it American style to say that they like someone so much even just via webcam for the first time and say that the person is the one they are looking for even without knowing anything about her?
I just video called with 1 man a few days ago and now he says he had dreams about me everyday and misses me much. today i just video called with another American for a few minutes within my work break and he said I am the one and he would fly half the globe to see me. omg, please tell if I am wrong but i am not used to this at all. Is that the way all men use to flirt? all my friends say i am so light-hearted so i have to guard my heart carefully. But I don't know how to guard myself against these...
What he said made me blushed. If I am so beautiful and kind and nice as they say why am I still alone? or do they just say so to please me? If I am so sweet, so smart so sexy as they say, why am I still lonely?
Why do most men become so interested in me at the first sight but that won't last long? Am I too boring? i think I am. Am I too complicated? yes, sadly I think I am and very demanding, very crazy too. I have bunches of bad characteristics
But who will accept all those and stay by me and love me for who I am for the rest of my life? seem noone.
How can he talk about wife, kids and match so quickly like that? as if he can read everything of me at once. and he says he knows me more than i do. oop. too hard to believe but i don't trust my gut feelings anymore as they are often wrong
Sometimes i want to give up hoping for him to come but i hate it when they bring glimpses of hopes to my fragile heart.
Please save me and make me wise enough to distinguish fake from real
I am just trying uploading photos in blog. not sure if it works. in case it does, this is the roses i planted at our office. so much in love with them
I often tried to skip the column for difficult situations in need of help cos it makes me feel sad and bad. However, scattered charity acts sometimes somewhere do not really make me feel significant changes that my efforts could bring in.
Today, i just read one article about a family which grandma is mad, father is dead of social disease, mother is dying of blood cancer, 1 grade 2 and 1 grade 6 son and daughter are hopelessly crying out for their mom's survival and the mother's desperate wish that the children can continue their school...
How many families are in this situation and others similar? should I just use my increased salary that i already have another plan to use it for supporting the children to school? is that just a drop of fresh water in the salty ocean?
Should I become a guardian for them or how can i assure that the small amount will give them a better life but not a dependent one?
They are far from me. How can i come visit and make sure that everything is alright? So many questions in mind before making up the decision to call the mother. she would cry again.
I wonder how many people will take an action after reading the article and .... well so confused now. need some sharing please
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