About men
Aug 14, 2012 6:51 PMI am still on the way to seek stability. But I think I know how to live better now, thinking about what I have experienced recently; I don’t feel guilty or regretful as I did when I was young (20-25). I control myself better, reserve my emotions more and behave rationally; though, this means I find myself sometimes in conflict between a wish for love and an empty feeling in my heart when someone give a hint that he wants to care for me.
Previously, love (or a mental connection with a man) was regarded as the sole way to ease uncertainty in my soul. It helped me become strong, positive and fully energetic. However, when such connection was cut off, it was my soul that suffered severe disorientation and unbalance. I realized that the power I possessed was just a power of a tree living dependently on another tree’s body, and there is more risk than ever when I look for the balance inside myself from a man’s love or concern. As he came then went away and the gift of energy to love and live that he gave me before also went along with him. Now, men, to me, similar to coffee, clothes, perfume or a lipstick…are not the creator of happiness or depression; but simply Mr. Helpful to make me laugh, relax and make my life colorful.
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Hugs from a lipstick.