How do you stop loving someone you cant have (172)
Ready_4_Love: Hi,
I'm only new to this site & the reason I'm here is cos I just had my heart broken so I thought I'd share my story for anyone who's interested.
I found a girl on the Internet 11 - YES 11 years ago. I felt a good connection on the 1st chat. We had many things in common & we got on really well. We've stayed in contact all these years. She's had various bf's along the way & I've had a couple of gf's, but I've always secretly wanted her. btw, I'm in Australia & she is from Singapore so we never had the chance to meet easily, especially when we were both tied up with partners.
Anyway, after many years of wishing, my dream came true. This year we both had no partners so she finally decided to visit me & came over here at Easter time for 9 fun filled days. We had a great time & she said it was the best holiday she'd ever had. As we knew each other so well already we just clicked & immediately felt comfortable with each other. Intimacy happend very quickly as well. In public we'd walk hand in hand or she'd put her arm around me, kissed in public - it all felt so natural.
We sizzled in the bedroom without going into details, but we both said it was the best ever experience with anyone.
I knew after a couple of days that she was the one for me. Everything about her was perfect for me. I'd never felt happier in my life & for the 1st time ever it felt easy to tell someone I loved them. She however, wasn't sure of her feelings towards me but didn't know why as she was also very happy. Ok, we had only been with each other for a week or so, & it would normally take more time than that before you knew. Also I suggested that because we knew each other so well that she may not have even realized she loved me. You certainly don't do the things we did without having feelings for the person.
Anyway, after she got back, she was finally able to tell me she loved me & wanted to have a future with me! I was ecstatic. This was the best thing that had happened to me. I had flowers sent to her. I even wrote a poem, (never done that before) put it to pictures & music & sent it to her. She cried when she saw it (on skype) & said it was the best thing anyone has ever given to her. I was on cloud 9. Finally my life had turned around. I was so happy. Everyone noticed the difference.
We talked about our future, the obstacles that had to be overcome, visas, marriage, things we planned to do, everything.
Then she started talking to friends & family & they started putting doubts in her head. What if this, what if that. Then she spoke to a friend who got into her head & the next morning she told me she didn't know if she loved me & wanted some space. She suddenly didn't feel like she was on the 'same page' as me. She loved me as a friend but that's all. She said she was sorry to commit to me without having 'true' feelings for me.
This was also 2 weeks after I'd bought plane tickets to go over to visit her & meet her family which she was so excited about. Now there was nothing. No intimacy in our chats, just back to friends. I was devastated. My whole world came crashing down. I had no future with her now.
But I can't stop loving her & a part of me still hopes something will change. I know I'll never meet someone like her again. It's so hard. I can't let go.
AAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!
I'm only new to this site & the reason I'm here is cos I just had my heart broken so I thought I'd share my story for anyone who's interested.
I found a girl on the Internet 11 - YES 11 years ago. I felt a good connection on the 1st chat. We had many things in common & we got on really well. We've stayed in contact all these years. She's had various bf's along the way & I've had a couple of gf's, but I've always secretly wanted her. btw, I'm in Australia & she is from Singapore so we never had the chance to meet easily, especially when we were both tied up with partners.
Anyway, after many years of wishing, my dream came true. This year we both had no partners so she finally decided to visit me & came over here at Easter time for 9 fun filled days. We had a great time & she said it was the best holiday she'd ever had. As we knew each other so well already we just clicked & immediately felt comfortable with each other. Intimacy happend very quickly as well. In public we'd walk hand in hand or she'd put her arm around me, kissed in public - it all felt so natural.
We sizzled in the bedroom without going into details, but we both said it was the best ever experience with anyone.
I knew after a couple of days that she was the one for me. Everything about her was perfect for me. I'd never felt happier in my life & for the 1st time ever it felt easy to tell someone I loved them. She however, wasn't sure of her feelings towards me but didn't know why as she was also very happy. Ok, we had only been with each other for a week or so, & it would normally take more time than that before you knew. Also I suggested that because we knew each other so well that she may not have even realized she loved me. You certainly don't do the things we did without having feelings for the person.
Anyway, after she got back, she was finally able to tell me she loved me & wanted to have a future with me! I was ecstatic. This was the best thing that had happened to me. I had flowers sent to her. I even wrote a poem, (never done that before) put it to pictures & music & sent it to her. She cried when she saw it (on skype) & said it was the best thing anyone has ever given to her. I was on cloud 9. Finally my life had turned around. I was so happy. Everyone noticed the difference.
We talked about our future, the obstacles that had to be overcome, visas, marriage, things we planned to do, everything.
Then she started talking to friends & family & they started putting doubts in her head. What if this, what if that. Then she spoke to a friend who got into her head & the next morning she told me she didn't know if she loved me & wanted some space. She suddenly didn't feel like she was on the 'same page' as me. She loved me as a friend but that's all. She said she was sorry to commit to me without having 'true' feelings for me.
This was also 2 weeks after I'd bought plane tickets to go over to visit her & meet her family which she was so excited about. Now there was nothing. No intimacy in our chats, just back to friends. I was devastated. My whole world came crashing down. I had no future with her now.
But I can't stop loving her & a part of me still hopes something will change. I know I'll never meet someone like her again. It's so hard. I can't let go.
AAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!
That’s as bad as Edward Leedskalnin story. He spent his whole life building coral castle for a woman he would never see again.
11 years is a long time to be waiting for someone.
Ready_4_Love: Hi,
I'm only new to this site & the reason I'm here is cos I just had my heart broken so I thought I'd share my story for anyone who's interested.
I found a girl on the Internet 11 - YES 11 years ago. I felt a good connection on the 1st chat. We had many things in common & we got on really well. We've stayed in contact all these years. She's had various bf's along the way & I've had a couple of gf's, but I've always secretly wanted her. btw, I'm in Australia & she is from Singapore so we never had the chance to meet easily, especially when we were both tied up with partners.
Anyway, after many years of wishing, my dream came true. This year we both had no partners so she finally decided to visit me & came over here at Easter time for 9 fun filled days. We had a great time & she said it was the best holiday she'd ever had. As we knew each other so well already we just clicked & immediately felt comfortable with each other. Intimacy happend very quickly as well. In public we'd walk hand in hand or she'd put her arm around me, kissed in public - it all felt so natural.
We sizzled in the bedroom without going into details, but we both said it was the best ever experience with anyone.
I knew after a couple of days that she was the one for me. Everything about her was perfect for me. I'd never felt happier in my life & for the 1st time ever it felt easy to tell someone I loved them. She however, wasn't sure of her feelings towards me but didn't know why as she was also very happy. Ok, we had only been with each other for a week or so, & it would normally take more time than that before you knew. Also I suggested that because we knew each other so well that she may not have even realized she loved me. You certainly don't do the things we did without having feelings for the person.
Anyway, after she got back, she was finally able to tell me she loved me & wanted to have a future with me! I was ecstatic. This was the best thing that had happened to me. I had flowers sent to her. I even wrote a poem, (never done that before) put it to pictures & music & sent it to her. She cried when she saw it (on skype) & said it was the best thing anyone has ever given to her. I was on cloud 9. Finally my life had turned around. I was so happy. Everyone noticed the difference.
We talked about our future, the obstacles that had to be overcome, visas, marriage, things we planned to do, everything.
Then she started talking to friends & family & they started putting doubts in her head. What if this, what if that. Then she spoke to a friend who got into her head & the next morning she told me she didn't know if she loved me & wanted some space. She suddenly didn't feel like she was on the 'same page' as me. She loved me as a friend but that's all. She said she was sorry to commit to me without having 'true' feelings for me.
This was also 2 weeks after I'd bought plane tickets to go over to visit her & meet her family which she was so excited about. Now there was nothing. No intimacy in our chats, just back to friends. I was devastated. My whole world came crashing down. I had no future with her now.
But I can't stop loving her & a part of me still hopes something will change. I know I'll never meet someone like her again. It's so hard. I can't let go.
AAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!
JEESERS CRIST!!! Snap out of it! I'm only new to this site & the reason I'm here is cos I just had my heart broken so I thought I'd share my story for anyone who's interested.
I found a girl on the Internet 11 - YES 11 years ago. I felt a good connection on the 1st chat. We had many things in common & we got on really well. We've stayed in contact all these years. She's had various bf's along the way & I've had a couple of gf's, but I've always secretly wanted her. btw, I'm in Australia & she is from Singapore so we never had the chance to meet easily, especially when we were both tied up with partners.
Anyway, after many years of wishing, my dream came true. This year we both had no partners so she finally decided to visit me & came over here at Easter time for 9 fun filled days. We had a great time & she said it was the best holiday she'd ever had. As we knew each other so well already we just clicked & immediately felt comfortable with each other. Intimacy happend very quickly as well. In public we'd walk hand in hand or she'd put her arm around me, kissed in public - it all felt so natural.
We sizzled in the bedroom without going into details, but we both said it was the best ever experience with anyone.
I knew after a couple of days that she was the one for me. Everything about her was perfect for me. I'd never felt happier in my life & for the 1st time ever it felt easy to tell someone I loved them. She however, wasn't sure of her feelings towards me but didn't know why as she was also very happy. Ok, we had only been with each other for a week or so, & it would normally take more time than that before you knew. Also I suggested that because we knew each other so well that she may not have even realized she loved me. You certainly don't do the things we did without having feelings for the person.
Anyway, after she got back, she was finally able to tell me she loved me & wanted to have a future with me! I was ecstatic. This was the best thing that had happened to me. I had flowers sent to her. I even wrote a poem, (never done that before) put it to pictures & music & sent it to her. She cried when she saw it (on skype) & said it was the best thing anyone has ever given to her. I was on cloud 9. Finally my life had turned around. I was so happy. Everyone noticed the difference.
We talked about our future, the obstacles that had to be overcome, visas, marriage, things we planned to do, everything.
Then she started talking to friends & family & they started putting doubts in her head. What if this, what if that. Then she spoke to a friend who got into her head & the next morning she told me she didn't know if she loved me & wanted some space. She suddenly didn't feel like she was on the 'same page' as me. She loved me as a friend but that's all. She said she was sorry to commit to me without having 'true' feelings for me.
This was also 2 weeks after I'd bought plane tickets to go over to visit her & meet her family which she was so excited about. Now there was nothing. No intimacy in our chats, just back to friends. I was devastated. My whole world came crashing down. I had no future with her now.
But I can't stop loving her & a part of me still hopes something will change. I know I'll never meet someone like her again. It's so hard. I can't let go.
AAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!
nearly made me teary Only jokin Mr R4L, As i have never had the pleasure of being in love (except mum & dog) I can only *imagine* how u r feeling 
thanx 4 sharing 
There is always s/thing around the corner. Sorry Mr R4L 
Lookin4missright: JEESERS CRIST!!! Snap out of it! nearly made me teary Only jokin Mr R4L, As i have never had the pleasure of being in love (except mum & dog) I can only *imagine* how u r feeling thanx 4 sharing There is always s/thing around the corner. Sorry Mr R4L
That post was way to long to read ! Call me shallow but . . .
yeah, just call me shallow
Ready_4_Love: Hi,
I'm only new to this site & the reason I'm here is cos I just had my heart broken so I thought I'd share my story for anyone who's interested.
I found a girl on the Internet 11 - YES 11 years ago. I felt a good connection on the 1st chat. We had many things in common & we got on really well. We've stayed in contact all these years. She's had various bf's along the way & I've had a couple of gf's, but I've always secretly wanted her. btw, I'm in Australia & she is from Singapore so we never had the chance to meet easily, especially when we were both tied up with partners.
Anyway, after many years of wishing, my dream came true. This year we both had no partners so she finally decided to visit me & came over here at Easter time for 9 fun filled days. We had a great time & she said it was the best holiday she'd ever had. As we knew each other so well already we just clicked & immediately felt comfortable with each other. Intimacy happend very quickly as well. In public we'd walk hand in hand or she'd put her arm around me, kissed in public - it all felt so natural.
We sizzled in the bedroom without going into details, but we both said it was the best ever experience with anyone.
I knew after a couple of days that she was the one for me. Everything about her was perfect for me. I'd never felt happier in my life & for the 1st time ever it felt easy to tell someone I loved them. She however, wasn't sure of her feelings towards me but didn't know why as she was also very happy. Ok, we had only been with each other for a week or so, & it would normally take more time than that before you knew. Also I suggested that because we knew each other so well that she may not have even realized she loved me. You certainly don't do the things we did without having feelings for the person.
Anyway, after she got back, she was finally able to tell me she loved me & wanted to have a future with me! I was ecstatic. This was the best thing that had happened to me. I had flowers sent to her. I even wrote a poem, (never done that before) put it to pictures & music & sent it to her. She cried when she saw it (on skype) & said it was the best thing anyone has ever given to her. I was on cloud 9. Finally my life had turned around. I was so happy. Everyone noticed the difference.
We talked about our future, the obstacles that had to be overcome, visas, marriage, things we planned to do, everything.
Then she started talking to friends & family & they started putting doubts in her head. What if this, what if that. Then she spoke to a friend who got into her head & the next morning she told me she didn't know if she loved me & wanted some space. She suddenly didn't feel like she was on the 'same page' as me. She loved me as a friend but that's all. She said she was sorry to commit to me without having 'true' feelings for me.
This was also 2 weeks after I'd bought plane tickets to go over to visit her & meet her family which she was so excited about. Now there was nothing. No intimacy in our chats, just back to friends. I was devastated. My whole world came crashing down. I had no future with her now.
But I can't stop loving her & a part of me still hopes something will change. I know I'll never meet someone like her again. It's so hard. I can't let go.
AAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!
I'm only new to this site & the reason I'm here is cos I just had my heart broken so I thought I'd share my story for anyone who's interested.
I found a girl on the Internet 11 - YES 11 years ago. I felt a good connection on the 1st chat. We had many things in common & we got on really well. We've stayed in contact all these years. She's had various bf's along the way & I've had a couple of gf's, but I've always secretly wanted her. btw, I'm in Australia & she is from Singapore so we never had the chance to meet easily, especially when we were both tied up with partners.
Anyway, after many years of wishing, my dream came true. This year we both had no partners so she finally decided to visit me & came over here at Easter time for 9 fun filled days. We had a great time & she said it was the best holiday she'd ever had. As we knew each other so well already we just clicked & immediately felt comfortable with each other. Intimacy happend very quickly as well. In public we'd walk hand in hand or she'd put her arm around me, kissed in public - it all felt so natural.
We sizzled in the bedroom without going into details, but we both said it was the best ever experience with anyone.
I knew after a couple of days that she was the one for me. Everything about her was perfect for me. I'd never felt happier in my life & for the 1st time ever it felt easy to tell someone I loved them. She however, wasn't sure of her feelings towards me but didn't know why as she was also very happy. Ok, we had only been with each other for a week or so, & it would normally take more time than that before you knew. Also I suggested that because we knew each other so well that she may not have even realized she loved me. You certainly don't do the things we did without having feelings for the person.
Anyway, after she got back, she was finally able to tell me she loved me & wanted to have a future with me! I was ecstatic. This was the best thing that had happened to me. I had flowers sent to her. I even wrote a poem, (never done that before) put it to pictures & music & sent it to her. She cried when she saw it (on skype) & said it was the best thing anyone has ever given to her. I was on cloud 9. Finally my life had turned around. I was so happy. Everyone noticed the difference.
We talked about our future, the obstacles that had to be overcome, visas, marriage, things we planned to do, everything.
Then she started talking to friends & family & they started putting doubts in her head. What if this, what if that. Then she spoke to a friend who got into her head & the next morning she told me she didn't know if she loved me & wanted some space. She suddenly didn't feel like she was on the 'same page' as me. She loved me as a friend but that's all. She said she was sorry to commit to me without having 'true' feelings for me.
This was also 2 weeks after I'd bought plane tickets to go over to visit her & meet her family which she was so excited about. Now there was nothing. No intimacy in our chats, just back to friends. I was devastated. My whole world came crashing down. I had no future with her now.
But I can't stop loving her & a part of me still hopes something will change. I know I'll never meet someone like her again. It's so hard. I can't let go.
AAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!
stay on the site long enough, youre bond to find someone
Ready_4_Love: Hi,
I'm only new to this site & the reason I'm here is cos I just had my heart broken so I thought I'd share my story for anyone who's interested.
I found a girl on the Internet 11 - YES 11 years ago. I felt a good connection on the 1st chat. We had many things in common & we got on really well. We've stayed in contact all these years. She's had various bf's along the way & I've had a couple of gf's, but I've always secretly wanted her. btw, I'm in Australia & she is from Singapore so we never had the chance to meet easily, especially when we were both tied up with partners.
Anyway, after many years of wishing, my dream came true. This year we both had no partners so she finally decided to visit me & came over here at Easter time for 9 fun filled days. We had a great time & she said it was the best holiday she'd ever had. As we knew each other so well already we just clicked & immediately felt comfortable with each other. Intimacy happend very quickly as well. In public we'd walk hand in hand or she'd put her arm around me, kissed in public - it all felt so natural.
We sizzled in the bedroom without going into details, but we both said it was the best ever experience with anyone.
I knew after a couple of days that she was the one for me. Everything about her was perfect for me. I'd never felt happier in my life & for the 1st time ever it felt easy to tell someone I loved them. She however, wasn't sure of her feelings towards me but didn't know why as she was also very happy. Ok, we had only been with each other for a week or so, & it would normally take more time than that before you knew. Also I suggested that because we knew each other so well that she may not have even realized she loved me. You certainly don't do the things we did without having feelings for the person.
Anyway, after she got back, she was finally able to tell me she loved me & wanted to have a future with me! I was ecstatic. This was the best thing that had happened to me. I had flowers sent to her. I even wrote a poem, (never done that before) put it to pictures & music & sent it to her. She cried when she saw it (on skype) & said it was the best thing anyone has ever given to her. I was on cloud 9. Finally my life had turned around. I was so happy. Everyone noticed the difference.
We talked about our future, the obstacles that had to be overcome, visas, marriage, things we planned to do, everything.
Then she started talking to friends & family & they started putting doubts in her head. What if this, what if that. Then she spoke to a friend who got into her head & the next morning she told me she didn't know if she loved me & wanted some space. She suddenly didn't feel like she was on the 'same page' as me. She loved me as a friend but that's all. She said she was sorry to commit to me without having 'true' feelings for me.
This was also 2 weeks after I'd bought plane tickets to go over to visit her & meet her family which she was so excited about. Now there was nothing. No intimacy in our chats, just back to friends. I was devastated. My whole world came crashing down. I had no future with her now.
But I can't stop loving her & a part of me still hopes something will change. I know I'll never meet someone like her again. It's so hard. I can't let go.
AAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!
I'm only new to this site & the reason I'm here is cos I just had my heart broken so I thought I'd share my story for anyone who's interested.
I found a girl on the Internet 11 - YES 11 years ago. I felt a good connection on the 1st chat. We had many things in common & we got on really well. We've stayed in contact all these years. She's had various bf's along the way & I've had a couple of gf's, but I've always secretly wanted her. btw, I'm in Australia & she is from Singapore so we never had the chance to meet easily, especially when we were both tied up with partners.
Anyway, after many years of wishing, my dream came true. This year we both had no partners so she finally decided to visit me & came over here at Easter time for 9 fun filled days. We had a great time & she said it was the best holiday she'd ever had. As we knew each other so well already we just clicked & immediately felt comfortable with each other. Intimacy happend very quickly as well. In public we'd walk hand in hand or she'd put her arm around me, kissed in public - it all felt so natural.
We sizzled in the bedroom without going into details, but we both said it was the best ever experience with anyone.
I knew after a couple of days that she was the one for me. Everything about her was perfect for me. I'd never felt happier in my life & for the 1st time ever it felt easy to tell someone I loved them. She however, wasn't sure of her feelings towards me but didn't know why as she was also very happy. Ok, we had only been with each other for a week or so, & it would normally take more time than that before you knew. Also I suggested that because we knew each other so well that she may not have even realized she loved me. You certainly don't do the things we did without having feelings for the person.
Anyway, after she got back, she was finally able to tell me she loved me & wanted to have a future with me! I was ecstatic. This was the best thing that had happened to me. I had flowers sent to her. I even wrote a poem, (never done that before) put it to pictures & music & sent it to her. She cried when she saw it (on skype) & said it was the best thing anyone has ever given to her. I was on cloud 9. Finally my life had turned around. I was so happy. Everyone noticed the difference.
We talked about our future, the obstacles that had to be overcome, visas, marriage, things we planned to do, everything.
Then she started talking to friends & family & they started putting doubts in her head. What if this, what if that. Then she spoke to a friend who got into her head & the next morning she told me she didn't know if she loved me & wanted some space. She suddenly didn't feel like she was on the 'same page' as me. She loved me as a friend but that's all. She said she was sorry to commit to me without having 'true' feelings for me.
This was also 2 weeks after I'd bought plane tickets to go over to visit her & meet her family which she was so excited about. Now there was nothing. No intimacy in our chats, just back to friends. I was devastated. My whole world came crashing down. I had no future with her now.
But I can't stop loving her & a part of me still hopes something will change. I know I'll never meet someone like her again. It's so hard. I can't let go.
AAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!
I'm so sorry. Hopefully, in due time she will come around and give the relationship a chance. In the mean time focus on staying positive and moving fwd. Perhaps you should grant yourself some space as well. This could encourage her to reflect on the relationship and realize she has a good man waiting for her in the wings...If you continue to be available she may settle and be comfortable with the friendship you are providing her. Just a thought.... I hope today is a better one for you... Keep your head up!
Thanks to everyone for your well wishes & support. I didn't expect to get so many respones soon. Sorry my post was a bit long but it was a bit of a story to tell.
Btw, I am still going over to see her next month anyway. Perhaps when we're together again something will click with her. I'll report back what happens. In the meantime I'm doing some window shopping as I do realize there's not much hope. Maybe 1 day I'll find someone to fill her shoes.
Good luck to everyone.
Btw, I am still going over to see her next month anyway. Perhaps when we're together again something will click with her. I'll report back what happens. In the meantime I'm doing some window shopping as I do realize there's not much hope. Maybe 1 day I'll find someone to fill her shoes.
Good luck to everyone.
Damianowen: That post was way to long to read ! Call me shallow but . . .
yeah, just call me shallow
I read the first paragraph and the last one, cant remember what it said.yeah, just call me shallow
Good luck with that 
pebbleinastream: stay on the site long enough, youre bond to find someone
How many pebbles are there in a stream?I think that when you do like someone as much as that, you do need time and space to get over them and I believe it is selfish of them not to give that to you as in a way they are saying I don't want you but I don't want anyone else to have you either. I have a friend who is in that boat. Him and his misses split but she knows he still loves her and she even has a new partner but she continues to visit him every day/night and even still sleeps there at night alot of the time. It makes me angry because she won't let him even try to move on. I knew that I had to move from my ex or I would continue to want to be with him. But at the same time, everyone is different and deal with things differently.
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I'm only new to this site & the reason I'm here is cos I just had my heart broken so I thought I'd share my story for anyone who's interested.
I found a girl on the Internet 11 - YES 11 years ago. I felt a good connection on the 1st chat. We had many things in common & we got on really well. We've stayed in contact all these years. She's had various bf's along the way & I've had a couple of gf's, but I've always secretly wanted her. btw, I'm in Australia & she is from Singapore so we never had the chance to meet easily, especially when we were both tied up with partners.
Anyway, after many years of wishing, my dream came true. This year we both had no partners so she finally decided to visit me & came over here at Easter time for 9 fun filled days. We had a great time & she said it was the best holiday she'd ever had. As we knew each other so well already we just clicked & immediately felt comfortable with each other. Intimacy happend very quickly as well. In public we'd walk hand in hand or she'd put her arm around me, kissed in public - it all felt so natural.
We sizzled in the bedroom without going into details, but we both said it was the best ever experience with anyone.
I knew after a couple of days that she was the one for me. Everything about her was perfect for me. I'd never felt happier in my life & for the 1st time ever it felt easy to tell someone I loved them. She however, wasn't sure of her feelings towards me but didn't know why as she was also very happy. Ok, we had only been with each other for a week or so, & it would normally take more time than that before you knew. Also I suggested that because we knew each other so well that she may not have even realized she loved me. You certainly don't do the things we did without having feelings for the person.
Anyway, after she got back, she was finally able to tell me she loved me & wanted to have a future with me! I was ecstatic. This was the best thing that had happened to me. I had flowers sent to her. I even wrote a poem, (never done that before) put it to pictures & music & sent it to her. She cried when she saw it (on skype) & said it was the best thing anyone has ever given to her. I was on cloud 9. Finally my life had turned around. I was so happy. Everyone noticed the difference.
We talked about our future, the obstacles that had to be overcome, visas, marriage, things we planned to do, everything.
Then she started talking to friends & family & they started putting doubts in her head. What if this, what if that. Then she spoke to a friend who got into her head & the next morning she told me she didn't know if she loved me & wanted some space. She suddenly didn't feel like she was on the 'same page' as me. She loved me as a friend but that's all. She said she was sorry to commit to me without having 'true' feelings for me.
This was also 2 weeks after I'd bought plane tickets to go over to visit her & meet her family which she was so excited about. Now there was nothing. No intimacy in our chats, just back to friends. I was devastated. My whole world came crashing down. I had no future with her now.
But I can't stop loving her & a part of me still hopes something will change. I know I'll never meet someone like her again. It's so hard. I can't let go.
AAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!