The CS Curse? Or Psychic Vampirism? ( Archived) (60)

That's not true....you only mislay them with alcohol

"In vino, veritas"!!!!

I don't see envy within Barrens post, my interpretation is that some close all the windows and look down a hallway towards an open door, but on attempting to reach that particular door fall to the side on failing to notice that there are others already ahead of them, that the lack of light has hidden them from view, had the windows been open the light would have shown up all obstacles in the hallway and the difficult path never taken, we need to choose our friends wisely, because they are the ones who always ensure the windows are open and the right doors are chosen.

There are many doors in this world, it takes time and experience to get to the right door, some have found their way others like me are still learning the way.

sweetie

as ive matured ive learned to toss virtue aside with nothing but my bare will

I just do not understand the level of hurt that is required to sully whatever it is that two others share.
When I see two people happily embarking on such a joyous development I am humbled to know in my heart that what at some points in life seem unatainable can be imagined yet and taken to heart.
Nothing brings me happiness more than when there is success delineated or proposed between others. It is a beacon to draw forth our own spirits to engage in the dance we have turned our backs on. A healing and testament to what may be if we only believe.
Sadly from the experiences that many have had to endure for sharing their jubilance there are far too few examples to guide those who have yet to wet their feet. It makes it all the more hopeless for those who cannot see the victories and blessings of two lives made whole.
The worst oddity is that the vampires are almost never those who speak in terms that indicate they do not believe in any possibility of success, but rather those who yet seem to have hope and faith. And I believe that the depth of horror comes from seeing those whom we may have cheered on in their own quests suddenly turn to another couple's impending harmony and infiltrate it with their own doubts.
In fact for myself I was commended and praised publicly and derided and defiled in private. The confusion from this made me all the more aware that sometimes those with the biggest smile are just trying to lull their prey into a false sense of security and are often the worst predators.

But is it "Vampyrism" if there is a benefit for both (all) parties?

Vampyres (whether bats or undead) are by nature parasites. I have the more positive view that this site and the attendes are symbiotic in nature. Even the person who has geometrically opposing views to mine has an opinion which deserves consideration. That opinion may or may not have logical validity (Spock rises from my multiple personalities). however this opinion causes me to check my opinion(s). It's logic may cause me to modify my opinions. Isn't that a healthy thing?


Mind .... that is just my opinion.

I do not seek to experience multitudes of communion with those lovely angels of the opposite gender. I have never sought solace in such and never in truth could. I have been involved with my own share of women, gaining and losing as the situation played out. Those times are in my past and better suited to a youthful man. I am by no means old but i am far to sensitive to seek anything less than all I desire.
My heart is a very specific voice that guides me unerringly to what it is that creates opportunity for this fulfillment and I choose no other, ever. I do not understand how through my words this cannot be understood, or worse if the words of my heart were recognized in the exact proportion to which they were spoken how anyone would ever imagine it a worthy cause to become entangled in my life in such a negative way.
I have not approached any but one woman in all the time I have been on this site. I have never been on another site of any sort, until I left this one so shamefully. And there I never once accepted any offer of more than friendship. My heart is completely drawn to one shining star in the heavens and no matter what is to ever come of this I will not seek again. For me I believe that my heart has clearly defined with no room for doubt exactly what it is that I seek, and there is no possibility that I will change even the slightest perception of this. I know what I have seen and it is more than anything I could have imagined. My heart and soul will to this woman always belong. A cheque written to encompass all that I am or ever will be. Whether she cashes it or not is no part of any equation I contemplate. I expect nothing from her but what she gives of her own heart and that is to me more than I could have asked anyway.
The future is never certain but I can guarantee that for her I will always be there in whatever way she accepts.
The testament to my heart's desire is that as close as we are, and how hard it was to lose her for a time in my life, she is back of her own accord and that is all I ever wanted. My best friend forever.