As I lye on the bed, thinking of you
I pray to a God, that no longer hears me
And I look down at my heart, that was once filled with love
Only to notice that it has turned black and is decaying
Would this shotgun in my hand, scatter my thoughts
Leaving a crimson stain, on this white wall behind me
Or would this knife leave a deeper scar, deeper than the one you left behind
Some may call it suicide, but I say I'm ending my misery
A tear escapes my eye, leaving its salty trail
And I am once again filled with loneliness and regret
You see, it was my love for you that filled this void in my life
But now it seems that you want me to walk away and try to forget
That's something I can't do 'cause you're in my dreams
These visions of you are so very clear
And I do hope you find love with someone, even if it's not with me
Though it's you, I wish was here
But tomorrow I may be gone
Leaving behind someone I care so much about
And though my love for you is strong and never-ending
I can't be with someone that has lesser faith and plenty of doubt
This is why I no longer want to live
It's not your fault, I'm just tired of trying
And maybe someday, you'll learn to love me too
But it'll probably be when I have forgotten love and started dying